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Oh Suzanne, that describes today perfectly! even though I've done my normal day i want to sleep. I should go chip up more tiles but why would I do that? LOL ok now i know I need to do that... ugh

AMEN! my kids both have asthma too, and it just scares me, my dd got really sick from the regular shot this year.

AND THAT IS EXACTALLY WHY I WILL NOT LET MY KIDS GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T THINK THERE IS ENOUGH INFORMATION FOR THEM TO HAVE A CLUE!!!!!!!!!!:thumbup:

Hola Tracy Our pep rally was cancelled, they took it away at night and put it during the day, and now not even that because it is not educational so got rid of it. How sad, we don't even get a homecoming queen anymore. Well, back from my walk, I'm retaining so much water for some reason. I'm drinking my qt of water right now, going to make an egg, and go get my hair done, then off to the gym. OH Tracy - you always, always have a place to stay here!

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Good morning all Jane - Giant hugs, first, I'm going to say that is not how I would remember you, You have the biggest heart of anyone I know and your kindness outshines everything! But my wieght consumes me too, I just figured out a way to direct my anxiety and my consumed feelings. Even though I'm at a major plateau, I am not letting that interfer with my walking and working out. My food has been slightly out of control but still healthy. I am scheduled for a fill on 12/10. If you ever want a fall/winter get away, come stay with me, my door is always open. Suzanne - I am right there with you, working on myself, I personally got to a point where I was ok so couldn't kick start it again because it was deeper than diet. But look. You have maintained what you have lost, that is a huge accomplishment. I've been watching shows, and so many people don't get to the root of what it is and gain it all back, plus a ton. Tracy - love ya sister, somehow it will all beok Kelly - Hi, Cindy - glad you are on the mend... that is odd about the light. Ok I'll be back, going to make breakfast, walk, hair, gym... blah blah blah, then finish getting tiles up almost done

Hi I'm back Suzanne (((hugs))) my weight defines me too, it may not to other people, but it does me. I wish I could see myself being thin, but I still see myself as being big, and dieting and exercise are my life too. The dieting I have down that I don't even really think about how to eat anymore and what I put in my mouth, but i exercise 1-2 hrs a day min. sometimes I get 2-3 hrs. I obsess about it and can't help it, I want to be different, I want to be someone else. Tracy - sorry sister, I hope you have a better time at family court than I am going to and yes, you need to get all that stuff taken care of. I'm just so sorry, I don't want to do it and wouldn't wish that on anyone ok off to make breakfast

good morning everyone, I'm up and exhausted, couldn't fall asleep last night and up and going this morning. Lots to do today and I think my friend is coming over to help me cut down some branches from a tree in my yard, so i'm up and ready to go for my walk. Hope you all have a great morning and I'll be back ... probably when I'm eating breakfast.

hello all what a crazy day, I am still loopy I think. Been cleaning and getting things together for the week. I was on this am and thought I posted, I guess I never hit to submit. Tracy- hugs sister, I worked Mortgages for a long time. it totally sucks because the only way to get your name off a mtg is to refinance, and with her being late and the credit issues it won't be easy the way things are today. Wish I had somthing happier to say. Just hugs i hope you all have a good night. gained another lb but think it is all water. I'm bloated and have not been drinking water, so tomorrow is another day! have a good night all

Good Morning all Laura - I hate scales...lol What a great story of MIL... Karma... you did good and it came back to you in the end and congrats for not eating. I am ok with that stuff too. I went to a buffet for dinner last night (I hate them for lots of reasons) but had a small salad with taco meat, which I'm sure was horrible, and wanted something else while everyone was having desert... I had a small plate of ceasar salad... I had popcorn when I got home, but still it was airpopped. Tracy - that is ok sister. I'm OK, was a little down last night, I meet these great guys so far away, why can't i find one close to me? Kev made me feel like He loves me and always has, but there were some things that have been said that just hurt and make me feel used and abused and worthless. I guess i'm just going to have to go through the emotions... right? Ok going to get another cup of coffee and ready to go to the morning game. yipee...it is cold and rainy...

Ok just did some chart updating!

I got your update, congrats on the -3 and I would go see Toy Story with you... I love them too.:thumbup:

Suzanne Are you Kidding me????? that is insane! So when adults eat candy they are going to turn into rapist when they are eldery? Come on .... I had to do a paper for my nutrition class... and it is scary what is really added to our food, mostly pre-packaged stuff. Some of it became illegal in the States so we ship it out to other Countries, Africa was a big one.. and funny.... isn't it the poor contries that most of the disease and stuff comes from? Just a thought.... Not that China is any better with the stuff they are putting in our products.... And society with pushing the biggie size or supersized meals... and you wonder why I needed to be banded... OK that is enough of that... the one subject that makes me crazy. Ok so how is this, Went to the Nutritionist, mad because I gained 2lbs from this am, but I'm sure not drinking was the cause so I'm not too worried, she was still super happy with me. But she did say I need to eat more, 900 cals a day is not nearly enough, but suggested adding fruit or veggies as a snack, no more protein, and not to change more than than. I go back November 17 and I told her i wanted to come in for an adjustment Mid December so I stay at 1.5 and good for the holidays. She told me to come in the begenning of Dec so I have that on 12/10. She asked my ultimate goal, I told her 150 and my mid goal is 175 which she said is very doable. So I want to be there by my Nov appt. and I don't want anymore, I just want removed and replaced to 1.5 I'm going to hit my goal by year 3 (4/16/10) So that is my rant and my story, and I'm sticking to it. So I hope some of that nutrition info helps someone... anyone.... I am on a mission to prove everyone wrong. OH another thing... My mom told me 25lbs more I would be way too skinny... WTF????? are you kidding me????? I almost cried, but when I told her how much I weigh right now, which I never have done, she was shocked and said I don't look like it. Seriously 150 at 5'5" is still on the high end of the range for that height... when I said that she was better with it, but still thinks it will be too thin ... woud be about a size 8.. Be happy for me.... seriously... size 8 is very average xoxxoxoxo love ya'll

Hi everyone Thanks for the well wishes... Kat has known my story for the last 2 years, but I am ok, I needed to be let go, it is not what i wanted but I needed to either be together or let me find someone who could be with me. I will be ok, I feel like I lost my best friend but will be ok. I had my surgery yesterday, I'm still foggy from meds so I'm sorry no major personals... i can't remember what I was going to say, except... Tracy - you know me so well... but no vodka..lol was oxycodone... I have been seriously soul searching and have not been drinking, other than Wed night when kev told me the truth. Ok I'll update chart when I can really read and understand. Laura - just thougt of you, I'm glad you are taking care of yourself, asthma is nothing to mess with and this swine bs. Take care of you! nothing left upstairs... be back later!

Let me know if you need a kick in the butt.... that is the one thing I seem to be doing ok with lately.:smile:

Thanks Tracy and Suzanne and Yes Suzanne, it hurts and it felt like a huge slap in the face but, he cut me free, so now he cannot come back in and make me feel guilty for trying to move on. He told me to go find the love of my life.... well, sad as it is, he is the love of my life, but there will be someone out there who will be better, only because I will be treated the way I should be. Anyway... back from my walk, going to drink my water and have breakfast and go shopping.

morning gals Kat - you are right and I have been working on all that. I actually met someone online in FL. It was on a weight loss support group. We are just friends, and pretty much what you are describing. Well, Kev finally cut me lose, so he will no longer come in and out of my life like he has been. I have been begging him to do that for months and he wouldn't so as hard as it all was, I can move on with a clear head. As far as Alexandra, she is good, she hates Kev, but is happy, loves her friends, and school and is willing to relocate when she is out. which is good, gives me time to make a plan and get the job thing undercontrol I have been awake since 1am, I'm exhausted and emotionally drained. Anyway Today is Thursday!!!! My weigh in for toay is 184.5 Off to make breakfast for the kids

Hey everyone Thanks for your well wishes, today I hit rock bottom, sad thing is some of my best friends are so far away from me and I felt even more alone, and the one guy who I feel is just right, is again, not close and not moving and i can't for a couple of years either. Tracy, I know you have heard this, but I dont' belong here.... I know this in my heart. or I need to find someone else with southern roots. Keith Urban is Wed night, and every single song of his is just going to make me have a nervous breakdown. I am just going to drink. I have 7th row floor seats. I'm off to bed...mentally exhausted and offically more single than I want to be. xoxoxo

good morning ladies Kat - glad Rick is on the mend Suzanne - wow you are up early. Hope you have a great day. I feel like I'm total self destruct mode and I don't know why. I feel bloated and had a bad day/night yesterday and I'm still exhausted since I didn't sleep well at all. anyway, why is everything always my fault? I get blamed for everything that I know I should not feel guilty for, but that is me. I can't do a single thing right.

Suzanne YEAH YOU! that was a good choice, only 1 and 1/2 then 1/2... How many would you normally have had? Right? Sorry you went home to nonsense! Today must be the day for that. Ok gang, I rated the thread, I'm going to take a shot of vodka or 2 to help me sleep, very bad day and it ended even worse if that is possible. At least with my bad day i did a killer walk and then cleaned my room, got my ac out of ds's and my room and cleaned the nightmare laundry room no one will touch and both livingrooms, and took a nap after I cried for 3 hours. I see i'm going to bed the same way. Lucky me Talk to ya'll in the am

Holy smokes that is scary. I hate to put my kids on prenisone too, but that is scary. I was just watching the news and a young girl just died from it, I think local news not sure. She went to Dr, last wed, and Fri and Sun was having problems breathing and rushed to hospital and she died. I'm glad you caught it in time

Laura I was on the website and just took the real age test... Took a while but worth it. Happy to report that I am 38.5 and my real age is 39. The bad, I didn't put my Vit D down and it said I should take more Stress in my life Weight/BMI, which I am working on Not knowing my chlorestol *sp* and my resting heart rate, of course I could have looked but I'm lazy. So I'll take that, close to my real age, when I get down some more weight, I'll do it again. I do feel better, I walk and exercise for stress, which usually works, but the last couple days have just not been great. OH well, I got it out, and do feel better. Still mad at my mom for taking my car keys this morning, I'm grounded at home, but it is done

Laura glad you checked in. I cook great stuff for my family when I'm eating well, and I am so satisfied that I got to make for others, I don't mind that I miss it, or I make a small portion in a way I can eat the same main part. I saw that Dr. Oz show, that is scary stuff isn't it? I am 6lbs away from my BMI being obese to just over! That is almost crazy amazing to me, so that and to lose some more inches is part of my personal Challange for Halloween. Did you see the Dr. Oz the day before that showed about the belly fat and the liver.... I missed it, might go look and see if I can archive while I'm sitting here, It was almost amazing what the end results were. Anyway, going to do anther wash, having a complete pitty party today, but feel better after 3 hrs of crying

Kat = that is horrible Rick is so sick! that is very scary stuff.... I tried to drink some hot broth yesterday and it felt like it made it worse, so I tried the extreme opposite with the ice cold water and that worked. Funny how that all works. Just took me 30 mins to eat my breakfast and the last bite was about to put me over the edge, but I ate. Tracy - glad Macy is feeling better that poor thing. You take care of you too! OK going to get a wash going and then head to the gym for weights. I'm frustrated with some things this morning and I hate feeling that way, I like having myself together

:tongue2::clap::clap::clap::clap::clap: I'm so happy for you... keep it up and you ca walk my4.5 with me every day:eek: