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Pamela did I miss something? I thought you were going to Providence? LOL The Cape is very nice too, have not been there in years. When is it that you are goin? It is very strange weather here... 1 day 95 and tropical and the next 75.

Terry Kat is right... I knew that this surgery would make us or break us, just so much seems got be going on all at once. so - we can vent here and all know that there are lots of changes, relationships, friends, family, everyday bs... I have decided to invite some friends over tomorrow, going to be hot and humid here so why not... dbf is not going to be here so i might as well be with my friends andn ot feel sorry for myself. I'm going to go to walmart later to get some burgers and groceries well back up to clean my hell room. LOL

Hi everyone - just checking in here. I'm cleaning my room. I have a new wordrobe!!! LOL my old skinny clothes 16/18 fit....my belly still needs work but at this rate by the fall, which most of them are fall long skirts and work clothes they will either look absolutely fantastic or they will be falling off me. I found 2 dresses that were my absolute favorite... they can be altered so you better believe I will do it. My belly needs serious help... anyone have any suggestions. I can feel the muscles getting a bit tighter but so hard... the last time i lost weight, I wore tight suck it in granny panties to help me remember to pull my stomach in. Maybe I'll grab a pr or 2. I have 2 more bags of 18/20's to get rid of. My t-shirts are even getting so big they are hanging down to my knees so I look like I crawled out of bed when I go to the gym.

Michelle - so nice to have you back and Happy Birthday Laura - thinking of you, hope you are having a great day! CONGRATS Ladies.... i think there is a full moon coming if not already here?

Kat- my thoughts and prayers continue to be with you. Celiac is not a horrible thing if you know about it. My mom and her sister have it, and I am going to have my daughter tested. It does cause horrible gastro issues and is genetic. My kids have horrible asthma, and I have experienced the same hospital experiences, STAY ON TOP OF THEM AND COMPLAIN A LOT, IT IS THE ONLY WAY THEY WILL FIX THINGS. I had to call my ped and scream that my ds was not getting better to have her call and get something done. They had him fixed and out of there in 24 hrs after that. Thank you all for your wonderful support. I went to bed at 8 last night, I cried so much I gave myself a migrane. so do you all want to know the excuse. You will all love this.... He got a call from the local harley dealer and they got a trade in on a bike that they thought of him (he had his totaled bike brought there) so he went and bought it, didn't think he would be as long as he was and wanted to surprise me. Well needless to say.......WRONG ANSWER!!!!! after I cried even harder I made myself sick and had to go to bed before I started to throw up. Men are nothing but big stupid 13 year old boys who only think of 1 person, them. I am officially back down to 225, thank goodness, so I think this fill is working, i've lost 6 strong lbs since tuesday. I might try to eat today, but i don't know, I couldn't even talk yesterday without pressure, and feeling like i was going to throw up, so I might take 1 more day to prevent damage from yesterdays stress fest

I don't think the food thing is helping me mentally. Still having a hard time so I'm doing protein shakes and soup. Which btw is beginning to help with the bathroom issues, plus I got some of that stuff that was posted the other day. I called my mom and her RN friend gives her 2 year old that stuff so I figured keep some on hand. I agree, it is time for me to play, but unfortunately the universe is telling me to stay at home and work on me.... not really what I want but there must be a reason. Went to the cemetary while I was having my breakdown today. Dont know if that was good or bad, i must look like a nut to anyone driving by, i just lay down over his grave and talk away I take my measurements. It has helped. at least when I don't see numbers I can see inches going away. Haydee - deep down, we know they are right, but that does not mean that it is easy to climb out of the hole. I have not really cried since surgery... Maybe I was just long overdue, because I cried so much today my head hurts. As for protein, I don't think I was getting enough, doing 2 shakes gives me 65g plus my black bean/sausage soup getting a ton about 85g a day and the scale has gone back down - I was at 225 a few minutes ago. I think I was getting so busy I forgot I needed to track protein, not just water. Well, here comes another storm... i'm just going to unplug instead of shut down..LOL TracyK - it doesn't matter what I write. I sent kev a journal I kept while he was in the hospital and I have some other stuff on myspace. the real personal stuff I just don't put on paper.. from experience

Terry obviously it is worth a lot if I throw it out there. I can't talk to my friends and family they just scream at me. You guys are the next best thing to me. I know I want out of the hole, but I am just scared to find out what is on the outside. I have to log off for a few, huge storms are coming and I need my laptop, how else can i chat with my girls?

thank you i might start my journal up again

Well, i'm going out for a drive ladies... of course after dbf was mr wonderful and was going to come take me out this afternoon, guess what... no show... so i'm sure as track record goes... he will call in about an hour with some sort of bull shit excuse. I am just not in the mood today, can you tell, I had someone asking me out for months, knew was not mr wright but still, didn't go because I am so foolishly in love and didn't want to hurt anyone or "risk" having feelings for someone else... memory loss or no memory loss... Just once I want to be as important as his family and everyone else who he jumps for. Am I that horrible and disgusting that I don't deserve to be treated like someone special. Man... wonder why I have confidence issues

Terry I am sorry to hear that, I found one I almost like, but I make them, no store bought. and I add a tsp of instant pudding mix to it for flavor. works for me... just a suggestion

Terry It took me 4 weeks post op to beable to chug water, I can take larger sips every day just no chugging. I just had a protein shake, about 350 cals and I'm full - I am very restricted. I knew it wouldn't take much - I seem to be holding strong and was fine until working out became an every day thing

I was not chewing the last couple of weeks, most things went down so easy, but then would get the golfball feeling because I ate too fast. My fill definately worked! I am afraid to try food, but since i made a batch of soup, i'll finish that and my protein shakes then try to add stuff. I cannot chug water again so that is good. I just got back from the gym. dbf was there with me, FINALLY... he told me how great I was looking, it is about freaking time! Our daughter was there with us today and they played basketball together without me and have made a plan to play raquetball - just the 2 of them, which is really nice, they have not bonded in a few years. At least something made me happy today. Well, I'm off to shower and clean my room, it is a mess up there since I get changed 4-5 times before I'm happy with what i have on or find something that fits... can you imagine where it all goes? LOL

TracyKS - thank you , and I hope he realizes before it is too late. LOL As for the pizza thing, I work in a shop and every night they make a pie for slices, i drive this one guy crazy because I only eat the cheese. Well before the fill, I tried to take a small bit of crust... OMG I thought I was going to die. That was all I needed, will Never do that again. TracyK-I got my fill tuesday and I'm still on mushie food, I don't know if i could do anything else at this point. I am having more, had a little over a cup of protein shake for lunch and didn't want diner (1+cup black bean soup) for 6 hrs. So if you are too restricted, so am I LOL but... not changing it, I'm back down to 225 and holding strong this am for the first time in weeks. Judy- my 16's are definately not a pretty site but I can get them on, which is enough to keep me going. I bought all of them when I was down to 210 before my cute son. But to wear those I was at the gym every single day for 6 months, so in 5 months hopefully I'll be looking hot again in the 16's... ok smaller, but I'll have my skirts taken in. I love them to death My Y that I go to has water aerobics classes 3 days a week, I am not going to make it today just getting up and class starts in 30mins, but we are going to do our weight training, I don't have a time for that. Denise - I just realized that i was wearing a 20 until recently, those green capri's that were in the first pic I posted were a 20. they fall down as I walk, but were a 20. so when it happens it happens I guess. I've been hovering at 227-232 for weeks, I'm convinced your body needs to catch up with your loss. I hope everyoen is having a great morning

Night all Judy - I'm up and out at 7:30 for some weight training and then 1 1/2 hr water aerobics. My daughter is coming with me but I don't think she knows what she is getting into. LOL yes that cute little thing is set up by a trainer and is going with me 3-4 times a week. bonding time

Terry - you are funny... a hottie... i am not... but want to be some day... the girl in the background is the daughter of the lady in my beach pic, whom by the way is no longer speaking to me because of my post op recovery and finding myself again. Thank you... I love them to death - although my soon to be 13 year old is getting the pre bday/teen brain dead thing going on Yeah... Michelle... where the heck are you???

Thank you... and thank you for the comment on the ink... it took almost 3 hrs to do the big one. The dragonfly is old, I got that 4 years ago

Judy, I don't know if you even realize how much I look up to you. You motivate me every single day to get to the gym and exercise and follow the rules. You are amazing! Thank you

ok since i figured this out... i would like you all to meet my crazy kids. These are both from april at the beach. my skinny 12 daughter (yes she is only 12 here in front) and insane 3 year old

Kat - she will be ok, they just sent her home too soon, they will take care of her... that virus went around here and it was horrible. My prayers are with you. TracyK. That is what I was trying to do earlier... hard to see the progress when the before was not with it.... My daughter was humoring me and when i put the sweatshirt on was when she was totally blown away

Ok i'm going to try this again.... here is the week before at the beach and today, I know the sweats are black but the are identical, same size and everything and that is the same sweatshirt.

thanks guys. I will play with power point tonight and see what I can do

sorry so big and yucky. I reduced to good and not best and they fit. I hate my photo program, I can't seem to figure it out. anyway, just wanted to post something. Terry - can you tell me how to shrink? I think you did my one from the beach for me and I tried changing the resolutions (sp). Off to the gym, be back shortly

Laura we posted at th sam time... GOOD LUCK... post some pics when you get back!!!! HUGS

Terry sorry - I am suppose to go to an employment agency and can't go until I have all my ducks in a row. My pizza shop gig is family and I didn't need to provide anything for her. LOL I start there full time next week - while I look for the perfect job. I am still looking but at least have something for now!

Judy- I got some prunes the other day at the store, I can stomach the taste, they are cherry flavored and not too bad. I learned to like them on LA Weightloss, but I have serious texture issues, don't know if i could get down prune juice. My mom also suggested flax seed oil daily, so she is going to get me some and I'll add it to my salads instead of olive oil. I am afraid of laxitives, my aunt became addicted to them and I've been running her to the dr/hospital for months now from all the damage she did - OMG - I'm watching the today show and the are doing a bit on GLAMPING. glamor camping. $7000 a night for a family of 5. But, it is my idea of camping. Woods, no one around, tent with real bed, furniture, hot tubs, tours... LOL