I set my surgery for 1/04/2012 on 11/22/2011 and for the last several days have been caught up with work and school and the Holidays, not to mention the end-of-month at work. So I am setting here at 3:45 AM and I have soooo many thoughts going through my head. I am much more nervous than I suspected.
The posts about pain scare me. I really dont want to just hurt for days on end. However, that could be the end result for many co-morbid conditions associated with obesity and diabetes (not to mention asthma and a bad knee).
My Husband is scared, and I think that for me is the hardest thing right now. He is holding onto me, literally, almost every second he can. I looked up from paperwork tonight and he was just staring at me. He caught me following up on my pre-paid funeral arrangements (I am a pessimistic optomist) and he just looked, so, very...well, very.
(note: I didn't make the prepay arrangements for this, I have had them a long time. Not morbid at all, I used to be a Funeral Director and have since been a strong advocate to pre-pay and deciding on as many arrangements as one can so no one else will have to..).
My Sister will be in for the surgery. She flies in on the 3rd and leaves on the 10th. I am also going to encourage my Hubby to ask some of his closer friends to help him over the first few days. He is going to be so overwhelmed.
Looking back at this post, I think if one could summarize this in a question it would be : What type of support systems are out there for the Spouses?