As my day draws closer, the more nervous I get. I know that it will be worth it all in the end. That is the only thing that is keeping me from canceling the surgery. It doesnt help that my support group thinks that maybe I should try one more time to loose the weight without the surgery. I coming close to being my highest weight, again....
I have never been sedated before. I am a control freak and being sedated is not an easy idea for me to get use to. I know the day of the surgery I am probably going to make myself sick worrying.
Now I wouldn't say that I am eating everything in sight. I do have that mentally of I gotta eat this before I am not able to again. On Friday my hunny is taking me out to dinner to celebrate Valentines Day and the last Big Juicy Steak I will eat for a very long time, if ever. My doctor has not put me on a diet before the surgery.
I would like to say today was SIX WEEKS without a cigarette!!! My motivation to quit was the surgery. I was fine with the cravings till today when I worked my mind into a nervous frenzy about the surgery. Its funny, what made me quit is what is making me want a drag real bad!!! HA Ha ha.....:heh: