jasleeve

i threw up bile 2x. i was sent to get a swallow test which showed the leak. then had a cat scan which confirmed it. life went down hill from there. in fact, down hill isnt the right phrase because that means it gradually got worse. life basically jumped off a cliff. smh!

im trying!! lol. i pushed myself hard today but im proud of myself. im sore already! lol. yesterday i was sweating more than i ever did. today, i topped yesterday! i had drops of sweat on the floor coming from my face & for the 1st time everrr, i had the wet shirt look! i looooove it. its hard work but im sure itll pay off. i havent weighed myself yet but i pray that the weight is flying off with the inches! 1 month & 8 days to go until my birthday!

i am heading out to the gym right now & im feeling sore from yesterday. (sigh) no pain no gain! trying to lose 21lbs by aug 26th! lets go!

it sure does! but the other day i was at the pool & this dominican girl had a tummy tuck and butt implants & i knew i wanted it too!! lol. i have nooooooo butt

so far, no loose skin except my boobs! arms are a little flabby, legs are a little flabby too but thats it. u can see my arms in my after pic. no wings, thank god!

soooo exciting!!!! i couldnt believe it!!!

im not sure if ill ever "love" the gym. id love to love it but i dont know.. something about it frustrates me!! i think its sharing with strangers. i dont know lol but yeah i hope to love it one day

well guys, today was my 1st time in the gym since having surgery. its been over 7 months! i took it easy & didnt go too too hard like im a body builder but i also didnt go too easy as to where i wasnt doing much. i have been in and out of gyms for about 8yrs now & i have NEVER sweat so much in my life. sweat was pouring down my face. i loved it! i also had a non scale victory! i usually do assisted pull ups because i have no upper body strength. for those of you who never used this machine, basically the more weight you add on to the machine, the easier it is & more assisted it is for you to do a pull up. you kinda have to climb up onto the machine. anyway, before at 273, i would put it at the heaviest & as soon as i kneeled on the machine, it would start going down! well, because im 97lbs down, i put it at the heaviest & the machine didnt even move!!!!! lol. i was too light! wow. it felt amazing! i smiled like lol so i changed my short term goal. before it was to lose 11lbs in 41days. it is now to lose 21lbs in 41days. if i dont meet my goal, thats fine! i know ive lost a lot of weight & still have to work very hard but if i do meet it, omg! id be so happy!!!

well guys, today was my 1st time in the gym since having surgery. its been over 7 months! i took it easy & didnt go too too hard like im a body builder but i also didnt go too easy as to where i wasnt doing much. i have been in and out of gyms for about 8yrs now & i have NEVER sweat so much in my life. sweat was pouring down my face. i loved it! i also had a non scale victory! i usually do assisted pull ups because i have no upper body strength. for those of you who never used this machine, basically the more weight you add on to the machine, the easier it is & more assisted it is for you to do a pull up. you kinda have to climb up onto the machine. anyway, before at 273, i would put it at the heaviest & as soon as i kneeled on the machine, it would start going down! well, because im 97lbs down, i put it at the heaviest & the machine didnt even move!!!!! lol. i was too light! wow. it felt amazing! i smiled like lol

thats a verrrrry long time from now! but thankfully winters coming up so ill be wearing hats to hide whats missing

well some dont have it too bad. but it started slow & then began comin out in chunks!

its a whole lot! i grew my hair out past my butt for the last 13yrs! now i may have to cut it short like halle berry short! :'(

thank you! my hair, my poor poor hair :'( i did a youtube video on it & even showed a sample of how much falls out. it fell out quickly. ive lost 6/8 of all my hair!! its so depressing! i had beautiful long curly thick hair. now its very thin, wavy, shedding drastically and depressing!!! i cant even go get my hair done for my birthday. im going to use a sock bun with side swept bangs to hide my edges. my youtube channel is youtube.com/jasleeve

.

u have to add me as a friend & then go to my gallery

thank you

thank you love

i was thinking about my short term goal last night & i think i want to change it. im scared to in fear i wont meet it but i think its some what realistic! i said i wanted to be 165 or below by my 24th birthday which is aug 26th. thats 11 pounds in 1 month & 10 days. im going to start hitting the gym today for the 1st time ever since surgery. my boyfriends a personal trainer & body builder so hewill be training me. i think i want to change it so that im 165 or below by my 10yr anniversary (aug 17th) & be 155 by my birthday which is 21lbs in 41days. im going to be weight training & doing cardio + upping my Protein & cutting out sweets! when training & eating better, i usually lose 4-8lbs the 1st week & then about 2-4lbs every week after that. if i lose more than 4 the first week & keep the # @ 3 every week after, ill reach my goal! every yr, i diet & diet for my birthday & never weighed less than 218! this year, i could possibly be 63lbs lighter than what my lowest was!

good luck! surgery isnt bad, i promise! when u wake up, request ur morphine pump! itll knock u out. lol.

i kept mine a secret and only told a selected few but now that ive lost 97lbs, im open to telling more people but NOT everybody!

i have a few non scale victories but i realized today that a nice one is being able to wrap normal sized towels around me! i love it!

thank you

youre very welcome love!! my back pain wasso bad that i used to have to take pain meds because it would feel like i was sleeping on rocks! my chiro said that the fat was crushing my back. i was so very insecure. im turning 24 & i felt like i was 50! i knew my weight wouldnt stop going up & down & i needed something to stop it because if not, at 30, id probably be dead! im only 5'1 and weighed 273! it wasnt good. my surgery experience was hell & if i had to do it again, i honestly wouldnt because of my experience with the leak but im glad i did it because it saved my life in the long run! if you have any questions, feel free to inbox me.

thank you

thank you