MustangAli

I dont even know if I can call it a stall, because its my own fault. I have been drinking a lot, and eating food that is bad for me. I literally get grossed out by the THOUGHT of eating. Then when I do eat, things just dont taste good, and I end up feeling sick after. The only things that sounded good, tasted good, and didnt make me sick are things that I shouldnt be eating. Mainly chips. I am not going to lie, I was on a white cheddar cheese its kick for about a month. Ive noticed that since the sleeve, I go through phases about a month or 2 long where I crave the same food, and will eat it non stop. Cucumbers were one. Cheese. The cheese its. Teriyake chicken. Anyway in June I finally got under 200lbs. I stayed between 191-195 for 4 months! Finally last week I broke though and went down to 187. Today Im at 189, but whatever! LOL So it's officially been 100lbs since I started this journey. I found this picture...I am pretty sure I was at my heaviest...had to be pushin 3 hundy...maybe more. Im absolutely disgusted by it, and I am almost embarrassed to show people. Then I have a pic of me now. I turned the pic so I could put them side to side in the dual shot pic. And the comparison blows my mind. I still have no self confidence. I still see the same fat girl when I look in the mirror. Maybe if I look at these pics enough I'll snap out of it.

Thank you all so much! Such sweet & encouraging comments! You are all amazing! <3

The beer and candy are nothing compared to how much better I feel. Looking at these pics gives me a better buzz than beer ever could!

Beautiful <3 Im happy for you!

Thank you all so much. It's nice to hear such great things. I still see the girl in the first picture when I look in the mirror. But the pictures speak for themselves. Im going to post more!

Hahaha, thank you ladies! You're right Robin, I just now remember how much I love drinking and candy lol. I also feel like I can eat a lot more than I should be able to. But...I still cant eat like I could before which was the point. =)

Thank you SO much, Susan!

I havent been doing so well lately. I discovered things that I heard would hurt my stomach, actually dont and have been having them more than I should. (Beer & candy) So Im posting a pic to remind myself how far Ive come and also to share with you all. =) 1st pic was a day before surgery, 2nd was June 5th. (less than 4 months out) in the same outfit .

TwoStepsBack, Please dont wait, and dont let them make you wait. I waited and waited and put it off because I only had "attacks" when I ate bad food and I didnt want to have 2 surgeries. I wanted to have my sleeve done and my gallbladder removed together. I waited too long and I was critically ill. This simple procedure ended up with me hospitalized for 5 days! Get it taken care of hun.

No. I was doing good before the eating once a day. I was doing 2 or 3 small meals a day and then I just wasnt getting hungry. I'm still not. I think its head hunger. But I would literally forget that I hadnt eaten all day. I would get this horrible emprty feeling. Im trying now to eat 2 or 3 small meals a day but its the snacking and the sweets that I think are hindering my weight loss. Im on a 3 week stall right now. I finally got to ONEderland and a total of 52lbs lost so I'm happy about that. Just wondering WTF is wrong with my head that these sweets are tempting me, and Im losing!! I look at a cookie, and I think to myself....there's no way in hell its worth it. Next thing I know...cookie is in my tummy. Ugh!! I was good at fighting my temotation at first so Im hoping it's just a phase?

Im about 4 months out. I was doing very good. Then I wasnt...I was only eating about once a day. Losing weight though. I was told I needed to eat more, and now I can't seem to stop! I eat a lot. And I do get full faster but not like I think I should be. And Im having such a hard time staying away from sweets! I just needed to vent and maybe get some advice. Thank you

So, I just heard that we are not supposed to chew gum because it will make our stomachs big again. Is there any truth to this? Ive been chewing gum the whole time. The gas it gives me helps me burp and feel way better in my tum tum. Just wondering if Im stretching my sleeve.

Thank you so much Becca! It has been a challenge. The head hunger is the worst. Ha. Thanks again!

So, yesterday I wasnt feeling well and stayed in bed most of the day. I had a Protein shake but I didnt eat any food. Around 11pm I ate a little more than half a lemon. I sucked the juice, and chewed a few pieces but didnt swallow most of the inside of it. Around 130am I had the rest of it. Again, mostly just sucking the juice out with a little bit of salt. About 10 minutes later I started getting this weird pain that I've never had before in my stomach. It was like a pulsating, stretching/burning/pinching feeling. I drank a gulp of Water and waited for it to hit my stomach. Same feeling once it hit. Of course in my head, Im thinking this is a leak. The acid from the lemon on an empty stomach may have messed up my staple line. Im dying. Well...I ate some crackers and a peice of light cheese and waited...nothing. No more pain at all last night. Today Ive felt the pain a few times. I ate Breakfast and had a snack and dont seem to be in any serious pain. But....should I be concerned??? Anyone gone through this before?

Thanks Fern & Meggie for your responses. Honestly, I'm not getting close to 64oz of Water a day. I'll try drinking more & I'll cut out the carbs. Maybe a piece of low-fat cheese instead of 2 crackers? I'll figure something out. And you're both right about being hard on myself & about comparing myself to others. I have always been a slow loser. I went into this EXPECTING to lose slowly. I guess it's just the possibility of failure & depression setting in. I just need to get passed this...stall? I try to walk once a day at least but preferably would like to go 3 or 4 times. My doctor says just to walk & avoid the gym. He said if I was gonna go to only go for a few minutes. I'm NOT driving all the way to the gym for a "few minutes". Thanks again. Your support is much appreciated!

My guidelines are 3 meals a day with NO snacking. I'm sorry, but I get hungry in between meals. I snack on foods that are on the list of foods I can eat. I try to keep it within reason. I'm still getting the urge to eat throughout the day, just to eat. I'm good about eating when I'm Hungry. Although sometimes I do eat a cracker or two for no good reason. I lost 14 lbs after 2 weeks. And today marks 3 weeks & I'm still at 14. I'm worried that I'm doing it all wrong & that I'm going to FAIL.

Thank you all for the replies and for sharinf your stories! I just need to know that Im not alone. Even though I know, I need to read it and see it. Thanks so much! & thinoneday, yeah, my big girl panties have been hiding from me since I did this. Hahaha!

So...I'm staying with Family to help me out after surgery. They cook & eat like normal. I encourage this because I don't want anyone to feel weird around me. It's hard, I'm not going to lie. Smelling my Mom's delicious home cooked meals. Ugh!!! Today we went shopping to get me cottage cheese. I almost cried. I regretted doing this every minute I was in that store. I saw many things I want to eat. Just taste! I miss eating with my Family. I miss the taste of chocolate. I miss CHIPS! chips have always been my weakness & seeing 3 different bags in the cart today...F-me!!! Can I see anymore taco bell commercials? Can someone else say pizza around me? Please say these will pass...or should I be locked away like a sick animal cause I'm making myself sad & feel stupid for doing this to my body . I'm an emotional mess. My posts are happy/sad/happy/emo. Haha. I'm sorry!!

Thank you so much. I hope you get your new birthday soon. I'll be praying for a March date for you. Keep me posted!

My Sister says I was reborn on February 22, 2011. Haha it's cute! Well I'm still feeling pain, fear that every little thing is a leak or some other complication and A LOT of regrets. I still wonder what I was thinking and why I'd put myself through this. I keep thinking about long term & how my life as I've known it for the last 26 years is gone. Everything I've known about eating...gone. But here are some numbers that I keep thinking of to try to make myself feel better & look forward to healing so that I can work out & try to take advantage of this opportunity I've been given. Highest weight ever : 305 Highest weight recorded @ kaiser: 286 Goal weight set by surgeon for surgery: 255 Weight on day of surgery: 248 Today's weight(1 week out): 238 That's good right? Right!

They did perform a leak test and said that everything is fine. Im very paranoid and I am so afraid of a leak. I feel fine other than that. And in the morning it was constant, after I look the pill it went down a bit and now its every once in a while. I dont have a fever. No rapid heart rate. Everything else seems to be fine. And I "ate" 3 times today. Had 2oz of Protein supplement between meals and have been drinking Water. The pain is never severe enough to double me over or anything. I just have to stop...wait for it to pass, and then continue what I'm doing. I'll talk to my surgeon tomorrow for sure cause Im terrified. Thank you for the replies though

I dont want to be Debbie Downer herebut I'll tell you what happened for me. 2 months ago I had emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder. It went smooth, fast and I woke up feeling fine, no tube. 5 days ago, I was sleeved. I woke up on the table with 7 people around me and a tube in my throat. I was naseated and gagging and I tried to tell them but of course, I couldnt speak. I lifted my hand and started waving it around because I was freaking out and was about to throw up. No one paid attention to me so, like a person who knows whats going on but is scared would do, I reached for my mouth and tried to yank the tube out. NOW all of a sudden people are paying attention. My arms were held down and I was told to relaz. They pulled the tube oout and I felt every inch. As soon as it was out, it was followed by blue puke. (the stuff they inject to check for leaks) I was just heaving and it kept coming. They used a smelly cloth to wipe my face and I was in tears. I started freaking and my chest was hurting. I asked them not to let me have a heart attack, and then I fell asleep again. Like I said, I dont want to be a downer or scare you, but it CAN happen. It didnt the 1st time but...yeah. If it happens; know you're in good hands. They are taking care of you. You will be fine so long as you dont panic. Good luck, best wishes!

He did. He sent me home with prilosec, but I can barely swallow enough Water to get a pill down. It's misery. Can I use Maloxx or some liquid? I'll be asking him tomorrow. Already emailed him.

Thank you, Patrick. I hope that's all it is.

I had this feeling the day of surgery and a little the day after. Today, 5 days out Im feeling it again. When I swallow anything (even saliva) I get a burning feeling as soon as it hits my esophagus and as it enters my stomach I can feel the burn spreading. Im so scared that I have a leak or some other terrible complication. Has anyone felt this? Please tell me it's normal...?