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So here I am... part old me; part new me; mostly scared me.

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18 days til surgery. Having all kinds of second thoughts but in my heart of hearts I know this is the right decision for me. I've gained and lost the same 70 lbs over, and over, and over, and over again. Now, at 40, the weight is catching up with me. PCOS, high cholesterol, horrible knee pain, insulin resistance. It's time. I think what is getting me the worst right now is how much I am committing to an entirely new lifestyle and there is no going back. For me, this isn't just about food. It is about smoking, using food as comfort, not drinking. Those are three BIG changes for me. And part of my fear is that I just can't imagine that I am capable of this.

 

God please help me. Help soothe my nerves and my fears and stand with me through this process so that I might better do your will.



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It's natural to be nervous. Let it keep you focused on the future. The changes are considerable, but honestly, post op life feels completely natural to me. I'm 3 months out and have lost 58lbs in 3 months. I'm exactly 100lbs down from my highest weight in November 2012. It took me 6 months to lose 42lbs pre op, which included a lot of suffering through depriving myself of food and pushing myself on exercise.Now post op, I've lost 58lbs in 3 months and I never feel deprived. I can eat what I want, just a LOT less. I have to REMIND myself to eat all the time, especially if I have a busy day. And when I'm lazy at home, I'm not grazing constantly. Food is THE LAST thing on my mind. In my experience, it's all felt very natural. And I love it. I love it when people ask "Oh, is that all you're eating?" YES. Yes it is. And I'll enjoy it and be happy with just these few bites... and as far as exercising post op - i do it, but not religiously. I feel more desire to be active now that I've lost weight - so I go walking with a friend a few times a week or I do crunches and leg lifts on the couch when I'm watching TV. None of it feels like effort to live this life... you're going to be so happy - just know the first few days after surgery are the worst and it ONLY gets BETTER AND BETTER AND BETTER. :) Good luck!

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This will absolutely positively change your life! It is honestly the BEST thing I have ever done for myself! I had my surgery on 6/4. As of today, I am down 50 lbs! And it wasn't through starving myself or depriving myself of anything! I progressed naturally through the clear liquids, full liquids, soft foods and now almost anything...(no salad yet). Physically it is so easy! Emotionally its a little harder because there are many times that I want to eat more. Now that I've realized what an emotional eater I have ALWAYS been, it makes it easier. I see such a different person in the mirror now....inside and out! My energy level is out the roof and I feel like I have so much more confidence now! Even with about 80 lbs to go to my goal weight, its amazing!! Don't second guess yourself. Place your fears in Gods hands. Together with Him, you've got this!! Good luck on your journey!!!

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You are capable of this ! My surgery is in a couple days and I have have the same thoughts but I know deep down this is the right thing for me. I bet you feel the same way !

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makemyownluck and gracensmommie, could not have said it better. i was terrified the night before surgery - cried and almost talked myself out of it. then reality hit me and i had to think of all the reasons why this had to be done. here i am only 12 days post-op and am so glad i did it. truly not hungry, just follow your doctors directions. the first week is definately tough, but today i was able to go out and go to the super market. mind you, i did not buy alot, but it was good to feel that life was sort of getting back to normal. going back to work this Monday and soon should be on pureed foods. patience and faith. Good luck to you and please know that we all area behind you.

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