Onderland And Just How This Feels...

I was trying to remeber how long it has been since I was in Onderland, and I can say, now that I have thought about it - maybe never in my adult life!

I just kept going further back and going "how about this time?" and I would think and be like "nope". Even in my size 12 I was not in Onderland - but back in my 14/16 days I was crazy muscular - so the muscle kept me from being in onderland then too.

It feels very odd to realize that - and I don't know why. I would think size would matter more to me right now - and it does matter, baggy clothes bought when they fit are always a feel-good, but Onderland is becoming more to me as I approach it than I ever thought it would.