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Read more about An Impossible Dichotomy...

An Impossible Dichotomy...

In hindsight I find myself thinking about all the time - all of my adult life, all of my teenage years, most of my childhood, I have fought my fat. I have gone out and played harder, ate less, denied minding that I couldn't wear what some of the other kids were wearing (which would actually be true as I entered my high school years). I became strong and fit (for my size) as I also became a f@%k you kid with an attitude and patient yet short fuse... I had feelings but never felt them, I had frien

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• Pookeyism
• February 12, 201214 yr

Read more about Onderland And Just How This Feels...

Onderland And Just How This Feels...

I was trying to remeber how long it has been since I was in Onderland, and I can say, now that I have thought about it - maybe never in my adult life!   I just kept going further back and going "how about this time?" and I would think and be like "nope". Even in my size 12 I was not in Onderland - but back in my 14/16 days I was crazy muscular - so the muscle kept me from being in onderland then too.   It feels very odd to realize that - and I don't know why. I would think size would matter

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• Pookeyism
• February 10, 201214 yr

Read more about Home After Surgery - Reflective...

Home After Surgery - Reflective...

Thanks to everyone who responded to my post yesterday. I am home, and there is still pain. I think it has something to do with one of the laparoscopic holes being stitched too - how would I best describe it? tight? It is drawn up and creates a pucker on the side of my tummy, and I FEEL the stitch pulling against the weight of my stomach. It is a sharp, constant tearing feeling that is very difficult to ignore. It almost prevents me from moving in certain directions.   I have pain meds and afte

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• Pookeyism
• January 8, 201214 yr

Read more about Ok, So, My Liver Shrank...

Ok, So, My Liver Shrank...

1 week out from the surgery. Last visit to my surgeon's office to meet with my Bariatric Dietician, woot, woot, lol. My Hubby came along and asked so many questions, but she did not seem to mind. We went over again what my limitations will be, possible complications, etc. It appears my liver is shrinking, and they were very happy over my BG readings. The night before the surgery I will drop my Metformin tablet, and lower the Victoza shot from 1.8 to .6.   It is creeping up on me! Teh mostly pr

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• Pookeyism
• December 27, 201114 yr

Read more about Konvesayshun Wif Da Buhnnies

Konvesayshun Wif Da Buhnnies

"Wee Ahnn, ah haf bin tinking - eew shood nawt haf da zurgerhy", my flemmish giant rabbit Cadmiun says to me, as I lay in the floor and pet her and her brother, Antimony. "ah haf to ehgree", says Antimony "whaaf sumzing haffins doe eew?" I pat Cadmium on the head, and touch noses with Antimony "I think I will be okay. I have done alot of studying and I have picked a very good doctor" "i herdz eew whill beh all hurty fer daz" says Cadmium. "eew whill notz beh aybelz tew pay wif uz!" says Anti

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• Pookeyism
• December 15, 201114 yr

Read more about Thought My First Entry Would Be Different...

Thought My First Entry Would Be Different...

...perhaps a bit more profound, lol.   I am just feeling like this isn't going to happen. Like something is going to go wrong and all of this will just be wasted. Sooo much emotional energy and effort - and the distraction it has been to my normal activities, all for nothing. I wonder what this is from. I am not this much of a worrier.   I just tell myself that nothing is going to stop it - possibly delay it, but not stop it. I will preservere! Grrrrrrrr! lol...?   Deep breath, all is well

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• Pookeyism
• December 11, 201114 yr