brain damage

i've been trying to plan out the next few months as they will be BUSY and i keep encountering the same roadblock.

witness:

march 29th - hubby and i finally take out long awaited honeymoon. that should be (hopefully) a month after i'm banded. my thoughts " oh man. now i can't eat at their fancy restaurant! i hope that doesn't ruin the honeymoon!" (yes, that was an actual thought!!!)

april 26th - our first wedding anniversary. planned on going to a gorgeous restaurant high above the vegas strip. first thought "well, there goes our first anniversary celebration".

june 26th - sil's wedding. my thought "i can't have wedding cake?!?"

see? everything revolves around FOOD. every holiday, celebration, achievement... equals a meal to me.

that is something i have to break.

i do feel a bit of sadness at the idea of having to change the way i think and how i act after 28 years, but at the same time... i am ready to be free of this demon that is always tormenting me!

my honeymoon should not be about the fancy restaurant that will be there. it should be about celebrating our love and humpies.

our wedding anniversary should be a celebration of our first year of wedded bliss.

sil's wedding should be about HELLO my sister-in-law's wedding!!!

i know this isn't going to be an easy journey, but as they say, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.

i just wish i didn't have to wait until the end of february to begin!!! :faint: