11 days pre op and omg what a struggle

I am 11 day pre op and this has been really hard for me I think it is because I have to cook dinner everyday for my family the hubby does not know how to cook and then to top it off I have cheated like 3 times already and I get sick then I feel sooooo guilty did this happen to anyone else? I am scared to think I didn't shrink my liver enough I am trying so hard to stick to PURE liquids till Wed when my surgery takes place but it has been a struggle !