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You guys are going to be upset with me but lesson learned.

Now that I have your attention… so what did I do?   See what had happened was….. I over did it this past weekend. Not with eating but with my movements. It’s was graduation weekend was I got invited to so many parties and I wanted to show everyone my support. One thing about me I am always willing to help anyone out and I am stubborn! So I Saturday I was going a lot of lifting, carrying, and cleaning. Sunday I woke up and my main incision was swollen and it was hurting bad. It felt like the first 3 days after my surgery. So I toughen up and went to my last graduation party for the weekend. I really didn’t an appetite on Saturday and Sunday because I barely ate but I had plenty of water. Monday I just stayed home a relaxed. I talked to my dad and thank him for his service and we talk about the Detroit Red Wings and Chicago Blackhawks game. (Not only I am a St. Louis Blues fan but I am a Red Wings fan too) I did a 5 min workout and spent the rest of the day on my couch.   Yesterday I called my surgeon office and told them about how I over did it this past weekend and about the swelling on my main incision. They told me it was from me lifting and carrying things and I need to take it easy for the next 3 days. I told them I would and thank them. But around 5pm I noticed that had a stain on my shirt so I lift up my shirt and noticed that my main incision was leaking! I start freaking out because all my incision was healed! So I called my surgeon office again explain what was going on. The asked me a series of questions to make sure that I didn’t have an infection. Thankfully I didn’t my incision stop leaking about 7pm.   I hear some of you guys saying “didn’t I tell you to take it easy!” This is time I hear ya this scared the mess out of me. I don’t want to do the pre op diet ever again unless this band is getting removed!   On the plus side I heard from my Bestie Lesley this morning we talk for 15 minutes and it was worth it!   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Yesterday was my One month Bandversary!

Wow I can’t believe yesterday has been one month since I got banded. I am happy to say that I have lost 27 pounds and I feel amazing. I really didn’t have any plans yesterday I just made me some coffee and use Atkins French Vanilla protein shake as creamer and worked out for 15 minutes until I received a phone call from my Bestie Mandy. She stated that she had a surprise for me. Mandy had tickets to the St. Louis Cardinal game! I was a little bit excited until my fears kicked in. So what were my fears? Yesterday I was able it start drinking alcohol but will I be tempted to have a beer or mix drink.
What if I get hungry and Busch Stadium didn’t have 5 week post op friendly food. Unfortunately I did not have time to research their menus and I need a better cell phone.
My least favorite fear was am I ready to do this?
I decided to not shelter myself because I am banded I need to live and learn. Mandy brought her cooler and added 4 bottles of water. At the stadium we found an Asian stir fry place and they had shrimp. I ask the hostess if I can just order a side a shrimp because I am lap band patient but they charge me $10.50 anyway. Mandy didn’t care about the price and paid for it. The cool part about it was they gave me a Large Chinese to go box full of shrimp! We got more than $10.50 worth of shrimp. Mandy stated laughing at me because I got full of 12 pieces of shrimp. She ended up taking the leftover home. It was a great game because the Cardinals won! After the game me and Mandy met up with our friend Jessica. I haven’t seen Jessica since she came over and made me homemade soup for day one of my 2 post op diet. Jessica complimented me on my lap band success and told me that I look amazing. I have to admit I felt pretty good. We went to our first bar and I had a glass of water with lemon. I wanted to have a drink at the second bar we were at. I was thinking shot of grey goose with water and I was going to add a crystal light packet in it or maybe a beer and let it fizz out for a bit before drinking. I had all these scenarios going through my head and I decided to drink at home first to see how it feels before I drink in public. So water was my drink of choice last night and I was okay with that. If felt good going out last night and just having fun. I am so bless to have great friends in my life. Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Yesterday I had my first personal victories

Yesterday morning Mandy met me at my house and she brought me over my shirt. I thought she ordered a XL but she got me a large. At first I was like I can’t wear large but she encouraged me to try it on. To my surprise the large was a perfect fit and I was shocked! One thing about me and Mandy we are always late. So how late were we? One hour but better late than never right? Anyway yesterday it finally hit me that I have the lap band. I know you would have thought the weight loss and my change of eating habits would turn on the light upstairs but it didn’t. So what happened to me that finally clicked? I had my first frothing but I know what happened. Me and Mandy were rushing and while we were getting ready. I was drinking on my protein shake and when I was done with the shake I started drinking on my coffee. While waiting on the metro link (the train) I started to get nauseous and on my way to the race I started frothing. Mandy asked me if I was okay I told her if she ever seen me drinking a protein shake and coffee back to back stop me. I believe that was the cause of my frothing. I was afraid that I couldn’t do the race but the frothing came and went. Me and Mandy walked 3.34 miles and had fun. I was dancing and didn’t feel like stopping. We finished the race and gave each other a big hug and it was amazing. Afterwards we went to subway I ordered a chopped turkey salad and Mandy was teasing me because it took me 45 mins to finish. Yesterday was a great day. My plan for the rest of today is to go spent time with my daddy. He work overtime this morning so I am want him to rest up before I go see him. My daddy is amazing and I love him so much. Happy Father’s Day to all my readers and thank you for reading

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Yesterday I had my first outing since I was banded!

This wakened was not bad at all. Yesterday I had my first outing since I have been banded and I think I over did it. … Wait I know I did. Yesterday I went to the St. Louis Zoo it was such a nice day out so why not. I grab my book bag put 3 bottles of water and a frozen GoGurt in, called up a buddy and we were on my way. According to my pedometer I walk 6.14 miles while at the zoo. I had girts mixed with Greek yogurt for breakfast so I was still from that but around 1pm I was starting to get so I had my GoGurt but by 230pm I was getting hungry. Too bad the Zoo was not 3 week post op friendly. I really thought they would sell protein shakes there but I was wrong they only had milk. So I went to a Quick Trip gas station to pick up a muscle milk (cookies n cream) 14 fl oz. and 25g of protein and 220 calories. Later that night I received a phone call from Mandy and she was upset because everyone bailed on her birthday weekend. Mandy didn’t except me to come out because I am still trying to get use to this banded life. That change last night! I went out and had a great time. Mandy was concerned about me because I already was out early that day. But I love Mandy she been with me since day one of my surgery and I would do anything for her to make her happy. So we got dress and I grab a couple of crystal lights and put them in my purse and we were on our way to the bar. So did I drink? Yes I did…… WATER!!!! The whole time Mandy brought all my bottle waters and I didn’t even use any crystal lights. If anyone offered to buy me a drink Mandy quickly said she is my designated driver I got her drinks and she kept checking on me to see how I was going. I told her that I was okay but how cool was that! We didn’t sit at the bar because we got a table. We listened to live music and socialize with the other band members. My old triggers were leaving me alone until 1am when my stomach started growling. Again I was at a place that was servicing non 3 week post op food. I told of had fries and a hamburger but I didn’t, so I slip on my bottle water and it stopped. We left the bar around 2 am and I was home by 230am. Once again my stomach was growling so I went to bed. I was nervous about eating that late on the band because I didn’t know how my band was going to react. So any input and advice are welcomed! Today I am not going to lie but I am tired it’s 420pm and I am still tired. I worked out for 20 minute and I am going so light cleaning around that house. I know I over did it yesterday but I refuse to spend another weekend at home. Maybe my energy will change on Wednesday when I start week 4 that is when I get to add tuna and deli meats to my diet. I am still learning and getting familiar with my banded life but I think I am doing well so far   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Yeah... I am at a plateau

Yeah I am at a plateau..... I am not to upset about it but damn it! I am so close to my high school weight it not even funny! I also found out that my Wii Fit has been lying to me as well this difference is 3 pounds but when I used the quick weigh option it will acturate. I will a little disappointed at first but then I realize that this has been the lowest I have ever been in years!   Okay confession time I admit I haven't been making the best food choices and lately I've been adding wine as a food group. However I've been working out either 45 to 1 hour each day.   My plan of action Stop drinking wine every night and cut it down to twice a week.   Change my workout routine.   Review my fitness pal diary to review my eating habbits.   Start planning my meals through out the week and remember Protein Protein and Protein   I need to get to ball going anyway I have to train for my first 5K run in April.   I am still happy with my weight loss and I know for a fact I will never weigh over 200 pounds again! This is a promise I made to myself   God is good and I still love my band!   Thanks for reading!

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Will I be back to normal tomorrow?

Tomorrow I get to add Chicken, turkey, pasta, bread, rice, nuts, raw fruits and veggies. I feel like things are going back to normal but I am scared. So what happen to my momentum? It still here but my fear has taken over for a bit. So why am I afraid now? I know I was going great and follow my post op diet to a T but now I want to stay in the post op diet zone? Is this my new default? My old default was me drinking a bottles of wine and eating at Jack in the box. But now I just want to eat mashed potatoes and sea food forever. What happens if I can’t handle chicken or turkey? My biggest fear is me getting stuck or throwing up. I hate being sick because it sucks. I especially hate getting sick when it’s my fault. Its like waking up with a hangover so you avoid getting wasted like that again. I know I can do this but my plan is to add new foods in slowly. Trust me I am not planning on over doing it but I will educate myself. Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

What... I need a belt!

After spending 4 nights and 3 days in my house….. I decided that I had to get out! So I went shopping. Tonight I will be going to Hooters with my guy friends to watch the Mayweather and Canelo fight! (Go Canelo!) And if I am going to escort these lovely gentlemen tonight… I have to look good. Also I’ve been feeling down lately so I chose shopping to cheer me up instead of food.   I check my email and I noticed Dots Clothing Store sent me some coupons or I called them coopins. Last time I went shopping I was a size 16 will today size 16 was a little big so the sales associate told me to try on a size 14. A size 14 I have seen this size since I was 19. Anyway the size 14 fit but I needed a belt. A belt? What is that? I have never brought me a belt before. I always relay on my gut to keep everything in place. I use my $10 off coopin and brought me a whole outfit for $26.89! I am going to look hot tonight. Those Hooter girls will have some friendly competition tonight!   Normally I will work out more for these types of occasion but this time I am not. I don’t want to overdo it and I want my incisions to heal properly. I will make healthier choices tonight and if I overdo it then I did. Soon I will be back on track but until then I will continue lively my healthier lifestyle!   Thanks for reading!

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Was feeling kinda lonely today.

Today I woke up kinda sad every work day at 630am my best friend Lesley calls me and we talk until I get to work. Every 2nd and 4th Thursday she calls me and asks me how was my support group. I got none of those calls last night because Lesley is deployed for 3 months. You would of thought that I would be used to this by now but she is my accountability buddy. So instead of me overeating at work, on my lunch break I went shopping any brought me some shoes as a treat to myself. I just love my new shoes. It’s graduation party weekend for me. I am trying to figure out how I am going to handle it. I was thinking about at one party just have a bottle water in my hands at all times and socialize. Then eat at the last party. Sunday I only have to go to one party and I will eat there depending on what they are having. I am only on week 4 post op so my options are slim but I doubt they will be serving seafood at a High School graduation party. I might bring my mini cooler and put it a couple of protein shakes in my car. My tooth doesn’t hurt as much as it did on Wednesday but I am just taking it slow and making sure I chew my food thoroughly. The pain is tolerable and I think I will be alright.   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Today was my Banded Diva Day!

Banded Diva Day... LOL I crack myself up sometimes! First I want to thank everyone for the advice and word of encouragement. It is nice to know that I am not alone. I am truly blessed. Thank you so much. Today, I decided to take action and do something fun. So I went to the nail shop and got my toes and eyebrows done. Then I went shopping for week 3 of my post op diet. I felt pretty good and wanted to do more but I need to slow down. Today is my friend Mandy’s Birthday she is having her birthday party at a local club this weekend. I told her I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it or not. I explain to her I may be around to many triggers. Here is a brief history lesson. Before me being banded almost every other weekend I was drinking… a lot. Those nights consisted of shots, shots, and bud lights. Then after club hours a trip to Jack in the Box I usually ordered 2 tacos and Jumbo Jack on sourdough. I know I can’t do that now or anytime soon but Mandy understand my situation. Eventually I will have to learn how to deal with social situation but I do not want to be staying again this weekend. I was thinking about going to the movies this weekend. I never was those types of people who had to buy popcorn or nachos. I usually buy their version of a $6 dollars Icee and maybe a pretzel. Since I can have low fat cheese and crackers I thought about putting them in my purse just in case. I am so glad I have a big purse. Anyway life is good and I have no regrets! Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

This Weekend I Was So Bad.

Happy Monday everyone! How was everyone weekend? Mines was ugh!!!   I was in a positive mood until Friday night when my furnace went out! Yay! Lucky for me I have a home warranty but I spent the whole weekend with a broken furnace.   So how did I survive? I went straight old school. I turned on my stove and my oven and slept in my living room. I am so happy that I have a small house.   Why is every time I get extra money something goes wrong? Anyway I decided to take my bestie out to dinner to my favorite Mexican Restaurant. My intention was to have one margarita and guacamole. Well I did get full of the guacamole but I so did not have just one margarita. Let’s just say my a$$ worked out a lot on Sunday. As a matter of fact I multitasked. I was doing step aerobics on my Wii Fit and watching football.   Okay confession time I order a steak burrito to go and I ate the whole thing yesterday! It took me 45 mins and I chew chew and chew but I ate the whole thing.   Confession number 2.   To be honest with you guys the burrito could have kept me full all day but I had 2 serving of puff corn and mini ice cream. I blame Mother Nature. It out my system …. For now. I have no regrets about yesterday because to today is a new day. To be honest with everyone it is my lunch time and I am not even hungry yet… weird. I hope everyone is having a great day!   Thanks for Reading

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

This is why I shouldn't do something out of anger.

Happy Thursday everyone! Today is a good day because there is a Cardinal Game and Blues Game tonight I am so happy!   Anyway I have a funny story I like to share with everyone.   Today I received a phone call for a job interview. I was too excited because it was more money. After I got off the phone I review my application so I can see which job I applied for and to review the job announcement. I was halfway down the page and this is when I noticed that this position was bilingual! I am not bilingual and I failed at Rosetta Stone.   Immediately I called the person back and explained what happened. We both started laughing and he thanked me for being honest. I mean can you guys imagine how my interview could have been like? I am so glad I researched everything before my interview.   Looking back I remember I applied for this position back in August around the time my coworker/friend house caught on fire and how I go thrown under the bus. I was so upset then that turned into anger that I started applying for any position. I was so unhappy back then but now I am better   This is why I shouldn’t do anything out of anger. It’s a good thing I have a good sense of humor because I am still laughing about it. I hope I gave you guys a good laugh   Thanks for Reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

This is harder than I thought!

I finally paid my AT&T Uverse bill word of advice check your bill often because they will upgrade your internet without your knowledge. I guess they didn’t get the memo about me being on a budget!   Anyway how is everyone? I am okay… I guess. This recovery time is harder than I thought it would be. I guess I can start with the morning of the surgery. Surgery took about 18 minutes and I was discharged around 930am. Once again my amazing daddy took care of me. He made sure that my a$$ sat down and got my meds. And just like last time he went to work that evening! This is why I love my daddy! My coworkers (I don’t know if I told you guys this before but I work with nurses) been checking on me every day especially my partner in crime. It cracks me up when he texts saying how is my patient this morning! (I can’t laugh too much because it hurts) Despite of all the things that been going on with him losing his home and getting his life back on track. He still makes time to check on me and that means a lot to me.   My support system has been wonderful to me. They are concerned about me because the first thing they ask me is I hope you’ve been sitting you’re a$$ down! I am but it is hard. I thought I prepared myself mentally for this but I didn’t. I am afraid that I am going to gain some of my weight back when I am so close to One Hundred Land! I was doing so good with my workouts and I really wanted to do my first 5K with Catfish next Saturday but I have to wait and try again. It’s sorta depressing but I am trying to get over it by thinking about how much I accomplish during this journey.   So, I am going to put my faith in God and move forward. Besides I will have to do this again in a couple of months because my port has to be put in again. My surgeon let me know this yesterday I will a little disappointed but he told me to continue what I been doing and I will do just fine. Then he removed my packing on my incisions and showed me how to do packing. I just like to say two things: That f*cking hurt! Thank goodness for pain killers and two I am glad my daddy drove me because after all that I wouldn’t been able to drive. So what did my daddy do…. He took me out for some ice cream! I am such a daddy’s girl and a big kid but this actually made me feel better!   I haven’t got my appetite back yet but I’ve been eating. I have too because all the pills I’ve been taking and I don’t need to be taking them on an empty stomach. I know I will resume my workouts soon but until then I will continue making healthier choices until I get back on track! I have to remember this is only temporary.   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Take time to inspire someone

Happy Monday everyone!   I have been so busy I haven't had time to check in with everyone.   I wanted to share this story with everyone so I will try not to bore you!   When I started my lap band journey I only told my family and my best friends.   As I got more comfortable I started telling everyone!   Today a fellow co worker came up to me and told me that he is getting the lap band because I inspired him.   I was shocked but I was so happy for him.   We had this conversation before.   He asked me questions and I told about my journey. But I always told him "my journey will be different from yours."   I am proud to say that I am happy that I was able to inspire someone to live a healthier lifestyle.   I don't think I say this enough but I am thankful for this site and everyone on this site. You guys inspire me to do better and for that I thank you!   So take time to inspire someone today and maybe that person will pay it forward.   God is Good!   Thanks for reading!

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Starving like Marvin

I am 6 days out and I am Starving! These protein shakes and clear liquids are not keeping me full like they were last week. Anyway I have cured my cabin fever I went to Target on Saturday I walked around the store for 30 minutes I came home that night and let out this amazing burp! (I know TMI) It feel so good and my shoulder pain and chest pain was gone instantly. I thought that was it until I woke up Sunday morning and everything came back. That afternoon I went to Sam’s with my mom and sister because I thought if I did the same amount of walking I did Saturday I would have the same results. Too bad that didn’t happened. Yesterday my hunger kicked in. I was drinking protein shakes and broths to try to satisfied my hunger. It was helping at first but around 8pm the hunger came back. I had 2 popsicles while I was watching the St. Louis Blues and LA Kings hockey game last night. I had to stop watching it because I well yelling at the TV. I was yelling so much that I was afraid I was going to rip one of my incisions open! The Blues were playing terrible after the second period. But at least we are still in the playoffs!   I think I found a new hobby. I went to Lowes last night and brought an Herb garden for $10. I can grow this indoors and all I have to do is place my garden on my window seal. So I guess I have to wait to see how I do. Other than that I am doing fine just hungry I am thinking about calling my surgeon office and ask them if I can eat something like pudding until I see him on Thursday. It does hurt to ask right?   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Someone forgot to pay her AT&T Uverse Bill!

I just like to say AT&T will disconnect your internet if you owe them $25. Yeah I forgot to pay them last paycheck so they disconnect my service last Friday. Ooops!   I had a very interesting weekend. Saturday I went to a Fundraiser at one of the bars I used to go to before I was banded. I am not trying to sound conceded but these dudes was on me like white on rice or my pheromones were really high. Anyway my hand got kissed on more times than I received in a lifetime. It felt weird over overwhelming. I am not use to that. I still see myself as the 267 girl but more healthy. I had to text my best friend Lesley because I was overwhelmed! She told me to get over it and enjoy the new me!   I talk to my big sister about yesterday to and she told me to embrace all of this because more will be coming my way. My sister and Lesley are right because I look damn sexy! I am so happy the football season has officially started and next Sunday starts the preseason of Hockey! This is why I work out more on Sundays but so far I am going well. How about those Rams!   Anyway tomorrow is my port replacement surgery and I have to be at the hospital at 530am! Ugh that is so early but I know I won’t be able to sleep a wink tonight. I think it’s going to be a candy crush of a night! I will do my best to keep everyone updated.   I still love my band and I am 65 pounds lighter! God is good   Thanks for reading

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

So long size 20... Hello size 16!

I’ve been so lazy since being on vacation from both jobs but not too lazy to not workout. Thursday was my 3 month bandversary! I can’t believe it been 3 months since I’ve been banded. So what have I learned? I learned that God has blessed me with the best support system in the world. I learned I am getting much better with time. I learned how to be sociable again. Also I learned its okay to have a cheat day. So how did I celebrate my 3 month bandversary? I went shopping! I am not going to lie to you guys I’ve been avoiding shopping like the plague. It’s all mental for me. I remember going shopping and I will find a very cute outfit but it never came in my size. So I decided to save myself from the embarrassment and shop on line. I can’t do that now because I am over 50 pounds lighter. Yesterday was one of those days that I really wish my best friend Lesley was there with me. She would have told me to get over it and be proud of the fact that I am 50 pounds lighter! Anyway I started slow. I grab a size 14 and a size 16 pair of pants to try on first. The 16 fit fine but the 14 I was able to put on but wasn’t able to button up. It’s okay tho because I have a new goal now. Anyway so I tried on a size XL shirt it was a little too big so I garb a large and the large fit! I didn’t cry on anything but it was overwhelming. So I just brought the shirt and a couple of accessories but next time it will be different. I had a follow up appointment with my primary doctor. Last time I seen her I was weighing 236 pounds but yesterday I seen her weighing 214 pounds! She told me that she was very proud of me and she knows that I can do this. Also I no longer have high blood pressure and I am not longer morbidly obese just obese. So that is an improvement. Today I ran 2.5 miles and I am tired. I need to clean out my closet and get rid of my size 20 clothes and 1X shirts so I can make room for my new clothes. I don’t see that happening today so let try again tomorrow. Life is good and I am loving my band! Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

So long plateau!

Wow I overcame my plateau sooner that I thought! So how did I do it? Easy I changed my exercise routine and I started jogging. I tried my Zumba DVD my coworker brought me but I don't like it. Maybe I will try Zumba on the Wii or something else.   Last Thursday I met with my Dr. and I found out two things. One I beat my plateau and two I didn't need a fill. He told me I was going a great job and keep it up. So I felt pretty good when I left the office. However I thought I was going to gain some weight back because this past weekend I went to Chicago! I pack my blender bottle, put my protein powders in my snack size Ziploc bags and I portion sized all my snacks just in case. I did pretty good but I didn't have time to research any restaurants because My mom decided to take me, my sister and my nephew to Chicago at the last minute! Too funny but we needed it.   So how did I do? Every morning I was in the hotel fitness room working out for 30 minutes. I had my protein shake for breakfast, Chia seeds for a snack and salad for lunch. But dinner was a whole another story! Saturday night we went to Medieval Times! Oye! Thank goodness for my 18 month old nephew and to go boxes. So what did I eat? I had the soup the quarter of the chicken and ate the one rib they gave me. I gave my nephew my potatoes, bread, other half of my chicken and my apple turn over. My sister said I did a good job so I was happy with that. As a precaution I worked out for another 10 minutes when we got back to the hotel.   Sunday was scary because I was eating food I haven't tried on the band. My Mom wanted a Chicago style hot dog so we ate at Portillo's. I was never a hot dog eater before the band but since I was afraid to have a Chi town style pizza so I had a hot dog with no bun. Did my band like it? Yeah I did pretty good I just chew chew chew chew and chew!   Chicago was amazing and I lost 2 oz during my time there!   Thanks for reading!

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Port Placement Surgery

Happy Wednesday everyone. I know I haven't been active on here lately but I am back now. So how is everyone? I hope everyone is well.   Where should I begin?   This month has been a good month for me despite of me being a plateau... life has been good. I had a couple of moments this month. The one that hurt the most is when I didn't get my dream job. What is my dream job? To work in Human Resources I have a degree and experience in that field and I had my 10th interview and I still didn't get the job. I felt defeated but I got back on track. I decided to continue practicing my interview skills and keep moving forward. "Every NO! is one step closer to my YES!"   Yesterday I had my port placement surgery. This time Dr. Richardson didn't have me come in at 430AM it was 830AM this time! Once again my amazing daddy took me to the hospital. He was off at work at 630am that morning and was still able to stay with me the whole time! I have to admit I was really nervous this time around I don't know why but I was.   However I did get the biggest surprised yesterday....... I AM IN ONEDER LAND!!! (is that the right term?) I was shock was I seen the number 193.4! I was so nervous I couldn't cry. I have seen those numbers since I was 19. Wow I am still in shock!   Today I am resting I haven't got my appetite back but I am slowly drinking water. I want to do some type of exercise today but I just do want to over do it. I am so close to my high school weight!   It's nice to know that my Wii Fit was not lying to me. I am going to reward myself by going shopping for some new clothes and get me a pedi on Saturday. Besides I am on leave until Dec 2nd.   God is good and I am loving my band!   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

My life summary in a nutshell

The Beginning Growing up I use to tell everyone I was born fat so I am going to die fat! My story starts on July 28th 1983 my wonderful mother gave birth to a beautiful 10 pound baby girl…. Me! My parents told me I was the biggest baby in the hospital and I was proud of that. Who ever thought that this was the beginning of my obesity life. I am not going to sit here and writing about how I was teased when I was growing up and how I eat everything is sight because I will be lying to you guys and I am many things but I lair I am not. I was never tease about my weight growing up.   So what cause me to become plus size diva? One word boredom. I was never athletic in school but I was involved in a lot of different activities like girls scouts, drama clubs and etc. Majority of the time all I did was eating junk food and when I was at home I was eating junk food either because I was bored. Fast forward to my high school life preferably my Senior year. Me and my best friend (Note: Just in case you are wondering we are still best friends!) were going to join the Air Force together but I had to lose 40 pounds in order to join. Guess what? I did as a matter of fact and I lost about 60 pounds. Impressive Right? Too bad I inherited my dad’s feet and could not join because I have no arch in my feet. True Story! I was devastated but life goes on and so did my weight.   Life in my 20’s the yo-yo dieting years! Who wants to play I’ve been on that diet game? Since I couldn’t join the armed forces I decided to work for the government and started going to college. I always struggle with my weight and I spent most of my twenties trying out different diets. I gain back 50 pounds that I lost before with a new set of boobs. No I didn’t get a boob job I think 20% of my weight gain went to my boobs. For the longest time I have maintained my weight from 225 to 235. Then all of a sudden I was either losing a friend and a relative every year. I took my frustrations out by eating food. I am an emotional eater and I can admit that. My last diet that I was on was Weight Watchers I actually did pretty well on it until I hit a plateau then I never got back on track. I learned how to accept weighing at 250 or 255 and maintaining that. Until August of last year… For the past 4 years I’ve been maintaining my weight 250 to 255 but this time around my Wii fit (my scale) Said 267! I swear I thought my Wii fit was lying. Until I weighted myself on several scales at work and I found out the harsh reality.   Why I chose to have the lap band….. A Quarter life mid crisis! After many bottles of beer and soul searching, I told myself “I gave obesity my 20’s I refuse to give obesity my 30’s!” I decided to start working on a better me. I watch a Weight Management seminar online to get a better understanding on my surgical weight lost options. I immediately knew if I was going to pick a WLS it was going to be the Lap band. Why, because I didn’t want my stomach to be cut in half, my inside to be rerouted and etc. Sorry but that does not sound healthy to me. I didn’t wake up and said I was going to get the lap band this was a 7 month process. I wanted to try to lose weight on my own first but at the same time I went to a local support group to help me with my final decision. I am glad I went to a local support group because some of the YouTube videos I found scared the crap out of me. October I made my decision to get the lap band. On February 9th I got my approval letter from my insurance company and 2 months later (April 9th) I got my surgery date May 1st 2013! I am looking for to my healthier lifestyle and a new me! My goal is to be 20 pounds lighter on my 30th birthday! Wish me luck! Thank you for reading

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

My First Fill.

BAHAHAHA! I am so silly! How is everyone? I know I've been quiet on here lately but I've been so busy at both jobs. When I get home I just want to work out and sleep!   Confession time..... I don't like needles and yet I pick the surgery that requires needles. LOL   Anyway yesterday I had my first fill and it was not bad at all. I didn't look just relaxed.   I forgot there isn't alot of protein in full liquids.... So I brought some tomato soup and added a 1/2 of serving of plain greek yorgurt.   For dinner me and Fun Boy had a greek yogurt. Beleive or not this keep fill until 830 this morning.   Anyway I finally found my port on my own! It is funny how the little things bring me enjoy!   God is good   Thanks for reading.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

My 2013 recap

Happy New Year Eve everyone! How was everyone holiday?   I really enjoyed my holiday Santa was really good to me.   Guess what?   My coworkers chip in and brought me a FitBit Flex for X-mas!!!!   How cool is that!!! I love my Fitbit and it sync with my fitness pal account. I am still trying to figure out if I need to track my workout still and use my fitbit calories burn? Or stick with the fitbit? So if know the answer let me know!   Now for my recap.   2013 was the year of change for me.   I change my eating habits and my wardrobe.   I change my lifestyle and adapted a more healthier lifestyle.   I change my way of thinking. Instead of thinking about my next meal I am now thinking about what type of workout I am going to do today.   I change my friends since my surgery I learned who is with me and who is againist me. I let all my haters go. (see ya!)   I am so ready for 2014 It is going to be something else. Starting with my first 5K run!   Happy 42nd Anniversary to my parents!   God is good   Thanks for reading!

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Mother Nature is a B and she can kick rocks!

I just want to warn you that I will be venting this time. I am normally a happy go lucky person and it’s takes a lot to piss me off but this hoe has out stayed her welcome! I used to say “I got my period and I am prego free” This month I am saying this hoe got to go. (I think I need to clean up my language just a bit) Anyway today is day 10 and I am not happy. My unhappiness begin last night when I had to go to Dollar General to pick up so more “items” I really need to start going to another Dollar General (DG) because the one by my house is next door to a restaurant that I used to eat at quite frequently. Unfortunately they do not sale any week 6 post op foods as matter they don’t sale anything healthy. Anyway I started smelling the greasy fried chicken on my way into DG. Then my craving for fried chicken and hot sauce started to kick in. So I told my craving to go away and leave me the F alone. When I got home I remember that I had some can chicken so I invented 6 week op post buffalo chicken dip. My recipe 1 can (2.5 oz.) of can chicken 1 cup of Greek yogurt 1 stick of Colby cheese 1/3 cup of hot sauce 12 multi grain Special K crackers This is my recipes satisfied one of my cravings… Later on that night I started craving chocolate. This surprises me because on my second day for dinner I had 3 sugar free fudgesicles and 1 chocolate pudding. I am so serious and I was satisfied with that but last night I had 2 fudgesicles to satisfy my chocolate craving on top of my dip. This band is something else I tell ya. Later on today I meet with my nurtionist and my surgeon. Don’t worry I am going to tell them everything the good and the bad. Thanks you for listen to me b***h.

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

Last day in my 20's

Yep tomorrow I will be the big 3-0! And I feel amazing! Instead starting my 30’s weighing 267 I will begin my 30’s at 214! I love it 214 the last time I weigh 214 I was 19! So what is my plan for tomorrow? I am going to the Winery! But first I will go to church then work out for one hour try to burn at least 600 calories. After the Winery I am going back to my House and going to have water balloon fight with my friends. My friend Mandy went to the Dollar General and brought $46 worth of party supplies. (I am such a big kid) Anyway I need to get my work out in before my friends kidnap me tonight.   Thanks for reading and enjoy my pic

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

It's amazing what a wine cork can do.

You are probably wondering what I am talking about? Allow me to explain.   My furnace got fix on Monday and when I got home Monday night I notice there was a smell in my laundry room. I figure that my furnace was smelly because it just got service they normally put a deodorant spray in my furnace to make my house smell good so I figure they probably forgot. It was late anyway I did my 30 min works out, took a nice long bath and went to bed.   Yesterday morning when I was leaving the house I noticed that the smell was still there so I open a window in my laundry room to try to air it out. When I got home last night the smell was still there so I went in my house to see if my house smelled to and there was no smell in house.   I knew something was not right so I got in my car and got far away from my house. I called my parents to let them know what was going on. Then I called my local electric company (Ameren) and told them I think I may have a gas leak because my laundry room smelled like gas.     Within 10 min Ameren was at my house. Dale was the guy they sent (which was very cute by the way) Dale first looked at my furnace and there was no signal but when he got to my washer and dryer guess what? There was a signal! By this time I was at my back door ready to run! Dale found the leak and he asked me how long have I been living here? I told it will be 5 years in February then he asked me to come over there because I had to see this.   I walked over and I see the wine cork being used as a plug in the gas line! I said “What the F*ck is that a F*cking cork?!” Dale took out the cork and was able to fix it the right way. The picture above is the cork. A million things was going thru my mind after he left. The first thought was how did the home inspector missed this and how long has it been like this? So I had a couple glasses of wine last night but I couldn’t sleep my nerves were too bad Today I am doing better and I am thankful to be alive. When I get to the day care I am going to give the day care kids a big hug!   God is Good!   Thank you for reading.  

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

 

It?s my one week bandversary

Wow one week has passed since I got banded. So how do I feel? I feel……. The same. Weird huh? My incisions are a constant reminder that I have something inside me that is waiting to work. Why did I say that? Because my support system (i.e. my family and friends) are asking me food related questions that I can’t answer. For example my 30th birthday is less than 2 months away and I know they want to throw me a lap band friendly party. I just love that their hearts are in the right place but it’s hard to explain to them that I do not know what me and the band can tolerate. Based on my research I found some people can eat everything they want including breads and pastas. Then I found people who cannot eat breads, pastas, and certain fruits. I would like to be one of those people that can eat whatever I want just in moderations. But time would tell. I am no longer starving like Marvin. I called my surgeon office and they told me to try to add more fluids in and I did. But I had the weirdest dream last night and I would like to share with you. I have a confession to make. I have a crush on Bobby Deen I don’t care he is engaged I still have crush on him. Anyway I had a dream that I was did a cooking show with him and his mama Paula Deen. I guess me dreaming about food comes in different ways… LOL Oh I almost forgot to mention my total weight loss. Last year in August I weigh 267 with me preparing and doing the 2 week liquid diet as of today I weigh 235! That 32 pounds…. Gone! I am feeling amazing right now! For those who are concerned about me watching the Blues Games tonight…. I will have my pillow close at hand. Thanks for reading

LadyDiva618

LadyDiva618

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