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Oh Please, Oh Please!

I still haven't heard from the doctors office to start up all of my apts. Don't they know how excited I am to get this 250 lb ball rolling? I feel like calling and saying ...did you forget about me? But I pretty much already did that last week when I called to make sure that they got my fax with all my info. I just want to see this thing materialize. On another note, I had my parents over for dinner the other night and as she always does, my mother brought up the whole "we're really going to do it this year" diet crusade pact. I almost felt bad about not telling her my little secret but then again, she made it perfectly clear that she didn't want to know. My mom is my best friend but she just can't deal with the thought of a chance of somthing bad happening. Even when the somthing bad is only .7% and the chance of somthing good happening is 93% more likely to happen. My husband has been a real trooper about this. He has made it clear he is perfectly happy with me the way I am and I love him for that. I love him for a lot more than that but that is a real biggy. Hopfully tonight I'll be writing in my journal again saying that I just got the call. Oh to add to my list of things on my first entry: 25. I would like to walk with nylons on and not hear the friction from between my legs. 26. I would like to stop fearing that I will fall through the floor while taking a bath because of my weight and having the parimedics have to come find me in the basement naked in an awful fat position. I really do think of this every time I take a shower! 27. I would love to wear sexier underwear...I'm sure the big granny briefs aren't doing it for my hubby.
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A little pain

I'm still having a little pain when I bend over or turn the wrong way. It is like a ping of pain if that makes any sence. I hope I didn't hurt anything when I coughed the other day....I have also been lifting up my 30 pound son and my 20 pound daughter. I think I will try to take it easy for the day. I made an aptt. with the Dr. tomorrow. My biggest fear is that he has to re-operate. I don't know if I could deal with that again. Wish me luck tomorrow. Hopefully like I read in one of the threads, it will just go away in a couple of days.
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A brand new day

I'm feeling better today. Dr. Jones said the pain is probably from the sutures being too tight. The pain should go away within a month. Thats fine with me....I just don't want to have to go through surgery again! I walked 3 miles yesterday with my 2 yr old. It was so beautiful out. Iwish today wasn't raining because I would do it again.   Just a little note: I was right behind a 16 wheeler that tipped over on the highway yesterday in Boston. I am very thankful that nothing happened to me and my family. It was just a little wake up call on how quickly anything can happen if you are not careful. Thank you guardian angles!
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Yay! Some hope has come my way!!

I just spoke to my insurance company and all I need to do as quoted by Chanell Benson, is have the specialist or the surgeon in my case fax over a letter of medical necessity to their office and I should have an answer if I have been accepted within 48 hours! Wow! This is starting to really get exciting! I just faxed over my application that Dr. Jones office needs and off I go! After all that stressing over the 5 years of medical history it turns out I didn't even need it in the first place. I can practically feel myself putting on a size 10 right now! Thank you, thank you, thank you lapbandtalk friends for being here and helping me each step of the way....I can't talk to any of my friends or family about this yet so it is nice to know I have you all in my corner:woot: .
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post op 10 days

Its been 10 days since the surgery and I am feeling a hell of a lot better. The only thing that really bothers me is the incisions. My queesiness is gone and I'm starting to get the hang of this 3rd stage diet. I found out that the funky taste in my mouth and dry tongue are from somthing called ketosis. It is when your body is burning stored fat it happens usually on liquid diets. I was told it will go away when I start eating normal again. I am starting to get so excited about losing weight. Every time I put somthing on.....I am so used to it feeling so snug and restrictive, but I am serious when I say.....it is so loose already. I have lost 17 pounds on my scale at home. I have to start thinking about going to one of the support meetings. I wouldn't mind meeting some local people going through the same thing.   It took all my willpower not to taste the Pizza at Chuck E Cheese when I took my son out the other day.
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and the battle is still going

Today the psychologist called me back apologizing and saying it was her fault that she never took the payment.....OK at least I don't feel crazy any more. I called my primary care doctor for the anti-anxiety pill and she wouldn't fill them. She wants me to come in and see her or one of the nurse practitioners there. Of course, yet another hurdle. I am also seriously pms and just want my period to get here already. I guess victory never feels any better than when you really fight for somthing. Oh and another hurdle, tomorrows supposed to snow and I have my Surgeons appt. tomorrow. Please God, just let this all happen already.   I did 30 minutes on the elliptical glider today, felt great!   Whats left: tomorrow, 1100 appt. with Dr. Jones Thursday, 11:45 appt. with nurse pract. for pills Thursday night, 9:00 Sleep Study ?????, Surgery
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I'm Aproved! FEB 26th is the day!!!

I just got off the phone with the insurance company and.....yes....its true....I am aproved!!!!! Yay!!! Feb 26th is the day its all going to happen.:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2::clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2::clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:
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please let me be aproved!

I saw Dr. Jones today.....he was not quite as personal as I would have hoped for but I understand. I was the last of the 5 people he had to give the whole routine to so I'm sure he was on auto-pilot. Everything is pretty much done accept for the sleep study and now I'm just waiting for my aproval. If I don't get aproved, I just don't know how I am going to handle it. I did get my surgery date if I get aproved though. MY SURGERY DATE IS 2/26/07!!!! WOW that could be the day that will change my whole life....well lets try not to get too excited. Oh, I got my period this morning thank God.....if I didn't, that would have been a huge hurdle to jump. Tomorrow my goal is to try and stay positive. I have let myself get kinda in a kink lately. I think its cause my hunny is working all the time. I need my dose of him! Well, I have to go watch American Idol!
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Two weeks already!

Two week Bandiversary! The scale hasn't moved since last week and I feel like I have eaten a fraction of what I used to. I really hope to lose a total of 20 pounds before my next apt. I hope that when I get my first fill I won't want to eat as much. It will be nice to eat some real food. Yesterday I coughed really hard and now the port area incision really hurts. I hope I didn't tear any sutures. My goal today is to get some excersise in....maybe a walk at the mall with the kids. I'll have to walk fast past Gloria Jeans and pass on the Malted Mocha coffeee shake that is my usual pre surgery. Boo!
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sad sleep study

Last night I did the sleep study...it sucked. I slept maybe 2 hours tops. They didn't want me to sleep on my side or on my stomach. I just couldn't do it. The sleep tech ( some short russian dude) was Ok but didn't really keep me informed as to what was about to happen. All and all.....I hope I never have to do another sleep study again. No word yet on the approval....please say a prayer for me!
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OK I'm Banded!!

This is it, I am here and saying that I have been banded. It was a little bit of a rough road this week but I'm getting better every day. It has been 4 days since I have been banded. The day after surgery was rough. I'm not even going to lie. The second day was even worse but since I got home I seem to be improving more and more. I wish I lost my appetite like every one else. I am constantly hungry but then when I go to eat somthing ....it tastes gross. All the things I am allowed to eat are not my favorate. I have the notorious shoulder pain that everyone has been talking about and I now have a very annoying headache. I would love to just feel better and be able to get on the floor with my kids again. I gained 8 pounds after I got home but then lost it immidiatley....I think it was from all the IV fluids. I can't take the pain meds they prescribed because they make me naucious. Liquid tylenol has been pretty good though. Just to wrap this up ....at this point I would love nothing more than a chicken parm sub and then a nap on my stomach. Both I can't do.
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Ups and downs

Wow, what a couple of days I have had! Yesterday I called the doctors office again to see what was going on and they told me the reason why they never called back was because I am a Tufts Insurance holder. I guess Tufts has now changed all there coverage terms this past week. The whole new deal is that if you are not accepted by the surgeon and met all the qualifications by the month of March you have to go through a 12 month monitored weight loss plan!!!! I was in shock for about 2 hours after the phone call. After I got myself together I called the insurance company and spoke to a woman named Emily and she said that unless I can get myself bumped up, I'm not going to be covered. Needless to say I cried all night. :think This morning I woke up pissed. I was not happy with the news and decided I was going to give it my all to convince the doctors office to get me in. Well, the secratery there must feel bad for me because she said that she would talk to the nurse herself and call me back. While I was at the gym getting rid of all my pent up anger, she called me back with the news....she said that they had a cancellation for tomorrow and if I can make it....the apt. is mine! Then she gave me all these other apts for this week. I just kept on saying yes to whatever time or days she gave me without even knowing what I was going to do about the kids. After tossing back and forth the idea in my head....I decided to let my mother in on the news. I was so afraid she was going to be discouraging but you know what?...she was awsome about it. That was a huge weight off my shoulders. All in all this was a pretty good day. I just wish I could get rid of all my other stress's. OK...here is this weeks schedule:   tomorrow 1/24 I have a 3 hour apt she said it will take all day. I'll be there from 9am-1:00? thursday 1/25 I have a 4:00 apt. then I'll go to my second seminar at 6:00 with my mom. (wish me luck) Monday 1/29 I have a 12:00 apt. with the psychologist....yikes! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:
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I hate stage 3

I am very unhappy with the list of foods I am allowed to have. I feel either really hungry or really full. There is no happy medium. Physically I feel much better...I think my problem was that I was dehydrated. It gave me a headache and made me very tired. Please God, help me through these next few weeks. It is going to be very hard.
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I'm so excited I can't sleep!

Well, I went to the seminar and .....this is it. I am going to make this happen. It was so reassuring to see so many other people just like me. After reading a lot of the posts one of my first questions was that I wanted to know how long the liquid diet pre and post op would be. To my surprise, he said that all he would like me to do is give up junk foood and excersise for 30 minutes a day 30 days before surgery. I am just itching to make this all happen. My primary cares doctors apt. isn't until January 7th so I'll have to sit tight until then. My husband was wonderful about the whole situation las night, he didn't make any jokes or critical comments about the surgury which I thought might become a problem. I know he is behind me 100% of the way. The only problem is opening up this can of worms to my mom. Yikes! I'm so afraid she'll try and talk me out of it!:argue:
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Getting there!

Today was a breeze. I had a 1 hr. nutrition apt. and then an hour and a half seminar that I took my mom to. She was very cool and totally relieved to hear what the surgeon had to say about it. I am getting there, monday psych, wednesday surgeon, and thursday sleep study. I have to really try to watch what I eat now...the doc want me to cut out the junk foods and get 1/2 hour of excersise everyday before the surgery. I'm Ok with that. Tomorrow I should start looking for all the things I need for the first 4 weeks.
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Ok, I'm anoyed.

I have been waiting by the phone hoping that every time it rings its going to be the bariatrics office but it hasn't. I gave in today and called and...of course...the person that I need to speak to will not be in untill tuesday. What the hell? If they are that busy why do they have a nurse whos hours are only on tuesday through thursday? I am so aggrivated right now. I just want to see this all happen or at least get the ball rolling. Oh, I left a message on the Nurse Michelles anwering service in hopes that she will call back on Tuesday or if not soon. I feel like this is never going to happen!:faint:
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OK OVERLOAD

WOW! What a day! I have been poked, weighed, measured, evaluated, edjucated, tested, and informed with whats to come. This is happening so fast....faster than I thought it was going to happen. I am happy but a little overwhelmed. I was informed today that my surgery date most likely will be within 2-3 weeks from now.....2-3 weeks!!!! I am so tired from my day and trying to make it up to my kids that I left them at Abuellas for the day. I had to write in my journal though. Oh, I need to say that everyone at Bariatrics program was so nice! The nurse ...Michelle, told me that she had the same problem with her wrists with carple tunnle and was so eager in influencing me in getting the surgery done. I would love to be rid of this problem but one thing at a time. I have so many apts. coming up! tomorrow is the nutritionis and the second seminar, monday is the psychologist, wednesday is the visit with the surgeon, Thursday is the sleep study...yikes, and then I will get my date. Is this really happening? I feel like I'm dreaming! Thank you Lord!
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my diet

I'm going to try to record what I eat everyday because I heard it really helps with weight loss. I feel a little thinner. This has not been too too bad. If I keep myself busy and leave my real meal untill the end of the day, its doable. My husband is a little bit of an obsticle for me though. He bought me a huge box of gourmet chocolates for Valentines day......What was he thinking? I love him anyways.   Ok, Wednesdays diet: Ease Whey protein shake Meal replacement bar yogart Meal replacement bar beef broth Cooked carrots Chicken whole wheat pasta   I didn't get a chance to work out today....snowed in:mad:   Thursdays diet: Cofffee with non dairy creamer Meal replacement bar Ease Whey shake carrots with nf sour cream and salsa eggwhite omlette with nf cheese and salsa yogart   I worked out 40 minutes and burned 400 cals Elliptical trainer:clap2:   Todays diet: Coffee with nd creamer Ease whey shake south beach bar yogart coconut Chocolate zone bar YUM Lean Cuisine chicken w/wwpasta and peanut sauce sugarsnap peas   I worked out 45 minutes and burned 420 cals Elliptical Trainer:clap2:
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application sent and waiting

I sent out the application out on the 8th and hope to hear back from the bariatrics center this week for an apt. I just got a pm from another Tufts member and she said it only took 2 days for an aproval. I am really getting excited now. I just hope they call back soon!
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Here's to hoping my life is about to change!

OK, here we go. I am going tonight to a seminar in Boston at Beth Isreal Hospital to hear all about the lapband. Even though I have already done a lot of research on it already I am really excited and eager to hear all about it once again and hopfully meet the surgeon that will change my life for the better. Since this is my first entry I will list my goals that I hope the Lapband surgery will help me in accomplishing: 1. I want to live a long and happy life for my children. My children mean the world to me and I can't imagine leaving them earlier than I am supposed to due to this baggage I have carried around for a lifetime. 2. I want to feel and be healthy. My doctors always say that my number, points etc. are all perfect but I know personally, that I don't feel perfect. 3. I want to be more like the woman my husband married. When we dated I was about 40 lbs less than what I am now. I was a lot more fun to be with, a lot more sure of myself. Now I never want to hang out with our group of friends because I am totally ashamed of how I look. 4. I want to be able to get dressed up for a special occasion without ending up in tears. I also want to be able to put pantyhose on without ending up all sweaty and out of breath. 5. I want to be able to borrow clothes. 6. I want to be able to shop at any store. 7. I want to sleep without my arms falling asleep. 8. I want to be able to walk on my feet without giving them time to adjust to the weight they are about to carry all day. 9. I want to be able to wear shorts and sleeveless shirts without the side effects of chub rub. 10. I want to stop sweating all the time. 11. I want to stop trying to hide lumps and bumps. 12. I want my boobs to get smaller so that my back stops hurting. 13. I would like to be invited to a pool party without that sudden fear. 14. I would like to chase after my children and enjoy it. 16. I would like to buy a halloween cosume that will fit me. 17. I would like to fall in that catagory as one size fits all. 18. I want to look tidy, not messy. 19. I want to stop fearing the airplane seat. 20. I would like to jog. 22. I would like to wear boots that go up to my knee. They have never fit my calf before. 24. I would like to stop getting dressed in the closet when my husband is in the room. ( this one should be #3) 25. I would like to take my clothes off and not have an impression of them still an hour later. I'm sure there are hundreds of other wishes but these have been on my mind most this year. Please who ever is wathching listening or reading hear my prayers or if you don't believe in that hocus pocus just send a little good energy my way. Words cannot explain how much I want this all to happen.
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I need to chill

After doing a bunch of reading and asking around, I have learned that the insurance company needs a five year history of being overweight. I know that my Doctor only has 3 years....Oh Dear God, please let this be OK. I can show them a lifetime of embarrassing chubby pictures. Everything else should be all set. Since I learned of this I haven't been able to sleep. I'm afraid of calling the insurance company too many times. This has to happen....with insurance. If it isn't covered with insurance, I can not do it. I just can't justify paying out of pocket when I have two beautiful babies who need so many costly things. Please Please Please Let it be covered.
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2/18

Todays diet: coffee nd creamer protein bar whey protein shake zuccinni&onions chicken broth southbeach bar glass of wine :speechles chicken brown rice yogart   Ok, I had a glass of wine but in my defence I worked out an extra 70 cals today.....total burned 470.
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Tomorrow is the day!!!

Ok Guys....wish me luck. I'm having the surgery tomorrow and I know I won't be able to get to the computer again once I pick up my mom from the airport. I'll share a little secret with you all, I am kind of excited about relaxing and taking it slow for a week or so.....with a 2yr old and 7 month old I could really use it! Please say a prayer for me or wish me luck. Next time I talk to you I will be BANDED!!!
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psychologist

Today I saw the psychologist...she was very nice and very compassionate about her job. It was a very nice visit that ended up with her telling me that she thinks I need to be on a small dose of anti-anxiety medication. I wasn't surprised. Sometimes all this pressure....finances, taking care of the kids by myself all the time because my husband is always working, getting all the apts completed in time for my stupid insurance company, and all the other things going on in my life really get to me. I also got home and now I have the psychologist calling me telling me that I never paid her! I offered her the check and she handed me a reciept saying ...no, just send this to you insurance company and they should pay for it. Am I going crazy? I offered the money........ARGHH!!! I am very agrivated right now. If you hear somone screaming at the top of there lungs, its me. I walked 30 minutes today.
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Off on a good start

My diet today:   8:00am EASE whey protien shake with 8oz of skim milk   12:00pm South Beach meal replacement bar   1:30pm Better than Boullion YUM   3:30pm a bushel of brussle sprouts with a little olive oil   4:30pm Ease AdvantEdge chocolate shake with a little coffee   6:30pm 4oz of chicken and 1/3 whole wheat pasta and some sauce :hungry:     It wasn't so bad....I just got really hungry after I worked out. I did 45 minutes on the elliptical trainer burned 430 cals. YAHOO!!   I live in NH and we are supposed to get a big storm...that means I will not be able to get to the gym:(
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