It is not fun getting food stuck in your chest. Boy, does it hurt and it feels like I have to throw up. It only occurs when I am at work, where everything is rushed and I don't have ample time to eat like I should. So I have decided to split my meal in 2 breaks. Eat protein first and if I am still hungry, then eat my veggies on the next break. I am still struggling with being consistent with exercising.....I am trying to work out at least 4 times a weeks, but I find myself talking myself out of it and then I began to feel guilty. What to do, I say, what to do.
I have lost a total of 15lbs without a fill so far, but I am struggling to fight the urge of bad eating habits. I am constantly around food, especially at work. Everywhere I go somebody is eating....uuugggghhh. So I am trying to break the habit of joining in on the eating game. I've noticed lately that I have been so hungry and I am not satisfied after eating. Can't wait for my fill, which is on 5/4/2011; maybe that will help some of my hungry pains. Today, I am going to my nephew's bday party. I hope I can fight urge to say no to something I know I shouldn't eat. I wish myself luck. To be continued.....
Yesterday was my first back at work and it made realize how bad my eating habits were. I struggled all day due to temptations right in my face. I was used to eating on every break, it was like "what do I do now" everybody is eating around me. Chips, sandwiches, candy bars, etc...was easily accessible and I am trying to maintain willpower. I will have to figure other areas I go to for me break instead that darn breakroom. Today is another day and I need to be strong for my journey.
I have all sort of machines, videos, and weights at my disposal, but I can't motivate myself to touch them. How am I going to commit to this, if I commit to getting off my butt and just popping in a Cd and get to moving. Why??? I feel like I am being so lazy and this is uncalled for and I am really mad at myself for this. I remember a time, I couldn't start my without exercising first. I need to figure out what was the motivation. I need to have some type of master plan to get me to start moving and grooving again. HELP I need to be motivated.
My pledge to myself to:
1. drink plenty of fluids
2. get the 60gm min protein today
3. done some sort of exercise for at least 30 mins
4. take all my meds
5. not anyone stress me out
6. and just embrace li
Today, I will be starting the mushy stage and I am scared. Yesterday, I excited to move on to the next stage and today, I'm experiencing some anxiety. All kinds of questions, how will I know I'm full, am I chewing all of my food, am I putting too much in my mouth, etc I have this vision of my stomach exploding while I sit at the dinner table. . Did anybody else feel this way or am I the only one??
I have an appt tomorrow to make sure I can start introducing foods into my body...I can't wait to eat chew other than swallow I promised my nephew an outing on Sunday and he has requested an Asian restaurant, so I can some egg drop soup or some type of plain noodles with veggies. I still have to drink my protein, but I get to chew........
I am so proud of myself. My nephew asked me to buy him a pizza for when he comes home from school today. I picked up the pizza and my mouth started watering just from the aroma. It took every willpower in my body not to eat some of the toppings off the pizza and I kept saying it is not worth it, especially, I just started feeling better today. I put the pizza in the oven out of eyesight, and made me protein drink. Any other time, I would have indulge and worried about the consequences later, but I chose not to let my old me take over. A "pat" on my back. Job well done, Marni.
Man o man, I feel so much better today. I beginning to regret that I had the lapband done. Less gas, less bloat, and finally had a BM (not to be gross). Wow, what a difference. Today, I am going for a light walk and do a little food shopping because I will be in phase 2 of introducing foods into my body. Can't wait, I ready for a soft scrambled egg, and cream of wheat.
I hate burping because it's hurts my tummy and chest. The gas is there, but it feels like it moving around waiting on something. Well come gas, I dare you.......LOL This may be one of the reason why I don't want to intake much fluids and I'm looking at my protein shake and about to gag. Well, I try to drink at least 1 oz of liquids every hour, and see how that works. In the meantime, I need to expel some of this gas.
I am really struggling to get down these the fluids...it's 8pm and I've gotten 20ozs of fluids in and I should be taking in more than that. I just don't have the appetite and the top of my stomach hurts. In addition, I am still burping like crazy. Sucking on SF popsicles seem to relieve the discomfort I'm experiencing, I really need to get down the protein liquids, but I gag at the though of it. My fluids intake should be more than 20 ozs...I think???? As far as the healing process, I am able to move around with some discomfort, so that's good news. I have an appt with dr this Friday and I will discuss what's going on with me. I know that this journey will get better.
