Wow, I can't believe I am nearly seven weeks out from my first Bandiversary. I also can't believe how much I've struggled for the last four months!

I was doing so good for so long.. I was really kicking butt, then something snapped inside me and I can't really put my finger on it. Complacency? Scared? Uninterested? AADD? Cockiness? Maybe a little of all those things combined... but the fact is I need to make a change right here and right freakin now!

I had surgery for goodness sake! I don't regret it.. no not at all -- even though I have gained some weight back. Yes, I am at good restriction too. It's me and I know it. I'm not making the right choices. Why lie? If I do I'll just keep going down the same road.

So right here and right now I am openly going to set a goal in front of all my Vicotorious Valentines and claim I will lose one pound per week leading up to my Bandiversary date of February 11th, 2009.

I was all the way down to 227 for awhile then the "snapped" happened. So now I just need to "SNAP OUT OF IT!!!"

As of this morning I was back up to 253. :shades_smile: So I claim now that if I lose the minimum (so I have less chance of failing and giving up) of one pound per week, on February 11th, 2009 - I will weigh 245. So that is my goal weight for my Bandiversary.

No I am not going to hog up the spotlight here either. If you would like to set a goal for yourself for your Bandiversary, join me! I need all the company I can get.

Sheeah... and thanks for listening. LOL

Lori - great post! I think you touched on what alot of us are going through. The lap band is an awesome tool, but that is all it is... a tool. Yeah, some of are sick of hearing that - but you truly never can understand the value of that statement unless you are going through it.

Anyway, I am back on track and back into the 240's (again)... whew! Keep up the great work VV's. WE CAN DO THIS!! Let this be the year where we ALL reach our goals.

xoxo

Rhapsody....what a trying time you have been having. I'm sorry for that; it is a downer when things don't go as smoothly as we hope.

I gained weight this last moth - I can't say it was Christmas; I started in early Dec...I just got into a funk; Xmas celebrations just made it worse...or rather, my response to the celebrations just made it worse! Oh well, time to start anew!

No new resolutions - just want to keep doing what I was doing from Feb to end of November: exercise a minimum of 4X/week; watch the food intake; drink Water.

Me too tapshoes. :biggrin: By the way. I missed you.

Rhapsody- nice post

Thanks for the nice comments girlfriends, it's soooo nice to have a place to come to, and spill your feelings and have people understand what you're going through. I mean, yes that's what this forum is for . . . but it just feels so much more cozy here in the double v's forum. (((warm hugs))) all.

It was good to write that post above out, I am feeling better. I guess it's true what they say about writing out your feelings. I've been staying on plan so far! Fighting the hunger, but keeping the calories below 1200 and exercising. Just hanging in there, I have a fill appointment coming up next Wednesday. :thumbup:

Let's keep reaching for those goals! We can all do this :thumbup:

Great to hear Rhapsody!

I guess I just have to get a fill...it certainly wasn't in this month's budget, but it is needed.

Let's hope that, plus my renewed committment to following the rules puts me back on track. I really want to make goal this year.

I know you can do it Tap. I've seen you tame the nut habit better than any other. You just needed to get through the funk stage. I think you're there or very close now. I can hear it in your posts. I think I'm there too so I'll help keep you motivated to the best of my abilities. You're the best! Thanks for getting us all going again. I love having all of you guys to talk to about this lovely journey we're on. Thanks.

I don't have a specific goal for my Bandiversary. But I do have a celebration!

A friend of mine is turning 40 and wanted to go on a cruisefor her birthday. So I will be celebrating my Bandiversary on a cruise that goes to Jamacia, Mexico, Grand Caymen and Haiti.

My goal is to feel good about my body, even though it isn't perfect yet. I've lost 50 pounds and have 50 left to lose.

Hey Travel Anna - you are living up to your name ....a cruise sounds wonderful!

I agree - I can't wait...just what I need!

My goal at surgery was to lose 100 pounds by the anniversary of the start of my preop diet, which was Feb. 1. I have just four weeks left and 8 pounds to go. I've been at the same weight for the past few weeks, so I'm really pushing myself. I have to do it. I've never hit a weight loss goal in my life, so I'm so excited to be so close to this one. We can do it!! We need to kick it in to high gear, but we can do it!

Yes we can definitely do it! I really want to hit goal this year, and I have renewed my passion for it... :wink_smile:

I made a New Year's Resolution with myself that I am no longer going to eat any type of chips, full fat or full sugar Ice-cream, or any types of pastries. Ever. Period. End of Story. Well today is day 5 and so far so good.

I cannot eat these foods, because they are sliders and I never get full on them, they are loaded with everything I do not need and they are preventing me from losing and helped in the weight gain I experienced. I am now 244 (again) so I am right now at the goal I originally intended for myself. I now have a new goal to get back to 239 by my Bandiversary.

Good luck all!!

I'm in the same situation as Rhapsody.

I was doing so awesome with this lapband.. but I had actually found my sweetspot and then me and one of my best friends got into a horrible fight that lasted a week. We had never had something like this happen before and it stressed me out so bad that my band reacted. I couldn't eat, I got week, my band closed up. From then on my band has never been the same again.

A week before Thanksgiving I had to have half of my entire fill taken out and they have slowly been adding it back, but I'm still wide open and can eat whatever, whenever.

I haven't lost a single pound in two months, but thankfully I've only gained two pounds.

It has been very depressing as now I think I'm the lowest losing VV on here.

But it's like I've forgotten all the stuff I use to eat or something. I don't eat fast food or anything like that, but like with salads, I've been drenching them with ranch, and when I ate tuna and whole wheat crackers, I'd only eat 4 crackers and now I eat like 10 or more!

On the 21st I'm getting another fill and my biggest fear is that I won't be able to reach a good restriction or that my body just doesn't agree with the lapband anymore.

On the 21st I'm getting another fill and my biggest fear is that I won't be able to reach a good restriction or that my body just doesn't agree with the lapband anymore.

CC- don't go borrowing trouble! If stress is a trigger (as it seems to be for you), even thinking these things is setting yourself up to be in a stressful situation, and therefore sa elf-fulfilling prophecy.

welcome the fill belive it will be as effective as before.

Hang in there Crystal. Look at the positive, you have only gained two pounds. :thumbs_up: How much would you have gained in the same situation pre-band? I could pack on 10 pounds in three days before I got my band. Troubles with friends are the most stressful. Be good to yourself and get back on track. Another fill will help and you will get back where you want to be quickly.

I have found that my weight loss has slowed a lot and I have been bouncing the same three or four pounds around for about two months, but hey, you know, I am in a whole different place than I was a year ago. Even if I don't lose another pound I am happy where I am. (I still plan to lose some more though)

Yes, stress is a big trigger.. I remember one time I went to have Soup with my husband and he just said something upsetting and suddenly I couldn't eat, soup got stuck and so it's to the point of hearing anything upsetting at all swells me up.

My poor friend still blames herself for all my band problems due to the fight, but it's not anybody's fault. The band just becomes like part of your stomach almost and it feels what you feel. I remember in highschool when me and my first true love John broke up I lost 15 lbs in a month because I just couldn't eat. And I had no band then as I was like 130 lbs or so. So, I know this is how my stomach was before getting the band.

But, I know I'll get back on track :thumbs_up: and just try to live a stress free life the best that I can.

Thanks for the encouragent and St. Louis gal, you are right. In the past I would have gained easily 10 lbs by now, but I haven't. Which really surprises me. There are positives to it all. And, I didn't gouge myself at xmas and thanksgiving either. I thought I would, but I didn't.