OK...here goes nothing. I haven't posted in quite a while because I have been dealing with some real shit at home. A month ago I found out that my husband of almost 10 years has been having an affair for the last year and a half. :mad:That's right...while I was losing weight and looking great, that pig went out seeking an affair and here I was scared of how I would act after I started to get attention from others when I started to look nice. I am hurt:crying:, angry:mad2:, sad :cry_smile:, devastated:cursing:, sick and every other emotion (other than happy). I'm now on Xanax for my anxiety and I am completely obsessed with this crap. How can someone go out seeking an affair when they have a wife and two beautiful children? Do people care anymore? Do vows mean anything? What the hell is wrong with people? Of course now all of a sudden he wants the marriage to work. Well damn...you should have thought about that before porking the skank!!!! I want to freaken scream. I want to hurt them both. How the hell do people get on after things like this happen to them? Is it possible? We are in counseling, but should I even bother? Will he do it again? What about my kids? Damn...I need some serious help. This really sucks. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of the chest pains and the anxiety. I want a fairy tale ended but unfortunately my marriage will NEVER be the same. I can never look at him the same way again. Do I give up and start my life over with my boys? Can someone wake me up from this horribe nightmare????? Why me? In the last year I have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 10/12 and I have lost 106 pounds. I thought that my husband was proud of me and thought that I was looking good...guess not, huh? Joke's on me!!!

Tina,

My thoughts and prayers are with you for your PS. Keep us posted on how your doing. We love ya hon.:smile:

Tina, good luck on your surgery tomorrow. I will be sending prayers your way. Please update when you feel up to it so we know you are doing well.

Tina, hope everything goes well on your PS tomorrow. I'm sending positive thoughts your way!

good luck tomorrow MOMof2Boys!

Thanks everyone!!! Love you all...headed to bed to get a little rest before the big day...I'll let you guys know how everything goes just as soon as I'm feeling up to it.

YAAAY TINA!!! I can hardly wait for "after" pics!!

Tina, How are you doing since your surgery? Thoughts and prayers are still with you hon.

What she said.

Hey there everyone...I'm alive and kicking...surgery went well. I was in there for 6 hours...didn't get released until Wednesday at 6:00 pm and that night I stayed at my parents house. I am getting around really well but in the mornings I'm pretty sore because I sleep sitting in a chair because it's too hard for me to get up from a bed. I also wake up with sinus drainage which makes me cough which makes me feel like I'm gonna die...

I have five drain tubes and I go back to the doctor this morning for a follow-up...looks like they are only gonna take out one but it's better than none. I got to take a quick peek in the hospital and my tummy was flat...woo hoo...I'm so excited. Well...hate to cut it short but the pain killers are calling me by name.

Thanks for all the well wishes and prayers. I will post some pics soon but right now I'm sore and tired. Thanks again everyone and I'll keep you posted.

YAY Tina!

Take care of yourself - don't push it! You are healing...so take the drugs and the time needed to do it without complicatons!

We are so anxious to see pics...

SO GLAD to hear from you, Tina!!! I'm sure you will look more fabulous than you can believe when it's all over.

WhooHoo!! Glad to see you posting. I've been thinking about you.

Rest, heal, the boards will wait. Take care!!

We'll hafta start callin' ya Teeny Tina now!

We'll hafta start callin' ya Teeny Tina now!

Well Beth has created a nickname for you, Teeny Tina. Sounds a lot better than any name I was ever called! lol. Get plenty of rest hon. We will see ya when we see ya.

Hello my dear friends...didn't get any drains out today but I almost cried when they took all the cotton and everything off. OK...here goes nothing...I cannot believe how flat my tummy is...I'm still VERY swollen...hell surgery was only Tuesday. What do you guys think?