Greetings all. My name is Julia...I'm 34 years old and I had the sleeve surgery on 7/27/15.

It's been emotional for me. You see, my initial consult was scheduled on 9/22/14. My husband of 16 years, Sam, had suddenly passed away the day before from congestive heart failure at the age of 48. As you can imagine, my WLS plans went to hell in a handbasket. I binged on comfort and junk foods as a way to cope and gained 20 pounds on top of where I was.

I knew Sam wanted me to get better and he wanted for us to grow old together. I went through a lot of, "What's the point of going on?" feelings and wishing I could just go with him. I finally got past that stage and here I am. I am still feeling overwhelmed. This liquid stage is terrible. Nothing tastes good except sugar free Popscicles and I'm sick of everything, even the chewable Vitamins. I already screwed up on the pre-op diet and my liver was too fatty...my doc went through with the surgery and I feel bad I disappointed him and failed so early in the game. I did kind of shoot myself in the foot getting braces put on my teeth recently too because my mouth was too sore to eat anything heavier than pureed stuff.

I'm overwhelmed at moments. It scares me how overwhelmed I am and not even through with the first week. I'm glad I did this, I wish I didn't do this and could order a pizza. I dunno.

I am so sorry for your loss. It has got to be so hard to go through such a massive change on top of your grief. Please be gentle with yourself and don't be afraid to ask for and accept support from your friends, family, your surgical team, and folks on these boards.

I know the early liquid and soft stages are tough but they will be over soon. The good thing is that they aren't forever.

Just do the best you can but try hard to get in your Protein and fluids. Both are critical for healing.

Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

Welcome :0) I am new here too. I had the Sleeve on July 23rd. I think I am doing ok, I am a little hungry. I think my hunger is because my body wants to eat more than broth and sugar free Jello lol. I am glad you are here and I believe we can do this. Just keep reaching out. God Bless.

Gina

I really do feel for you, the last 10 months must have been so very difficult. However I commend your courage to carry on and to want good health, in a time when you are still grieving for your husband. This in itself is a form of bereavement, it’s the loss of food but as Inner Surfer Girl said, it won't be forever. Are there any WLS support groups in your area you could attend? Can your Doctor help?

I do feel coming here and chatting, making friends and when needed venting, would really help you. I wish you all the very best and send a hug to you. You're not alone.

Kate

I'm so sorry to hear of your husband's loss. The emotional upheaval from that alone is overwhelmingly traumatic. But as you said he wanted you to be healthy, and you need to be healthy for yourself most of all. I hope the road ahead is smoother. Best of luck on your journey!

I am so sorry for your loss. I applaud you for still having the courage to go through the surgery, as I know that was not easy. I wish you the best in your journey as you learn to live your life post surgery. I wish I could hug you.

Julia your courage is amazing! I'm am too sorry for your loss. I hope you know the great strength you possess. You were able to grieve and try to move forward for yourself. It's important for YOU to be healthy. I'm glad you continued with the surgery. It's nice to have a change and what better change to see the pounds just melt away. You'll be to enjoy your transformation.

Someone mentioned in previous post to ask for help and welcome the support. Good luck with your journey! ????

I can't wait to be on the lover's bench. My surgery is October 12th.