I've never been under a size 16, I've dealt with my weight basically all my entire life, I've always been the biggest one in my family. I would try all types of diets, including seeing a physician, I would lose 10 to 20 pounds and gain that, that I took off plus 20 more. Lets cut to two years earlier, I was temping at the university of Miami as a medical assistant back in June 2010, then I was contacted by a physician that I knew and respected and trusted, we use to work together. This doctor was getting ready to open her own practice and ask me would I work for her. Cut forward I was going to be her office manager. That did not happen I worked for her for six months and then terminated. I was hurt I started eating then I couldn't find work. I search for a year no work. Now 2012 signed up with the agency worked for 3 months, April 29, receive a call get To the hospital Shon clasped ( my daughter) got to the hospital she is on life support, she coded 4 x's i was right there i never left her side she died the next day my world up side down now, April 30, a day before her birthday. I craved sugar I ate anything sweet, I had just lost my oldest and only daughter. Food became a way of comfort. I went into depression state I didn't want to talk to anyone, I was MAD. Mad at everyone and mostly mad at God. I felt like he didn't care about me anymore he took my child, my baby. I gained a long of weight and didn't care, my husband started to drink more, when I say in was tension in the house it was tension. I'm better now I ask God to forgive me for being angry with him. Know I've got work do. I'm 285 ponds for the last two years its been one thing after another. It has been hell. Now it's time to work on me. Sorry I was so long wined.

thanks for sharing. sending you big hugs and yes it is time for you. Things are going to get better and better, because you are going to feel healthier and happier. It isn't going to be easy, but I think you more than a lot know what hard can be, so you will be fine. We are in this together and I will be with you in thought daily.

Just can't thank you enough for being so honest about your life. Wishing you so much goodness.

Thanks Vicki things or should I say life is getting better. God has truly bless me I had to start looking at the positive. I have a beautiful home and a husband that works six day a week to feel in the missing pay check. Even with the drinking he gets up and work.

Hi tmorgan, I am new to this site and was reading your amazing story. You have been through quite a bit and it has been nothing but God's grace and mercy that has brought you through. I am truly sorry for your lose. I believe your daughter is Still with you and She Would Want you to take care of yourself and do what is right for you!! Keep praying and seek God in all that you do. Pray for your husband and Ask God to deliver him from alcohol and God WILL do it. It's time for the both of you to heal. I will be praying for you and your family. Remember GOD IS ABLE.(-:

(((HUGS)))

You've come to the right place, we are all family here.

I've never been under a size 16' date=' I've dealt with my weight basically all my entire life, I've always been the biggest one in my family. I would try all types of diets, including seeing a physician, I would lose 10 to 20 pounds and gain that, that I took off plus 20 more. Lets cut to two years earlier, I was temping at the university of Miami as a medical assistant back in June 2010, then I was contacted by a physician that I knew and respected and trusted, we use to work together. This doctor was getting ready to open her own practice and ask me would I work for her. Cut forward I was going to be her office manager. That did not happen I worked for her for six months and then terminated. I was hurt I started eating then I couldn't find work. I search for a year no work. Now 2012 signed up with the agency worked for 3 months, April 29, receive a call get To the hospital Shon clasped ( my daughter) got to the hospital she is on life support, she coded 4 x's i was right there i never left her side she died the next day my world up side down now, April 30, a day before her birthday. I craved sugar I ate anything sweet, I had just lost my oldest and only daughter. food became a way of comfort. I went into depression state I didn't want to talk to anyone, I was MAD. Mad at everyone and mostly mad at God. I felt like he didn't care about me anymore he took my child, my baby. I gained a long of weight and didn't care, my husband started to drink more, when I say in was tension in the house it was tension. I'm better now I ask God to forgive me for being angry with him. Know I've got work do. I'm 285 ponds for the last two years its been one thing after another. It has been hell. Now it's time to work on me. Sorry I was so long wined.[/quote']

Thank you for sharing your story. I am so glad you figured out that God had not forgotten about you. You and your family are in my prayers. This group will be here for you!

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@ chosen and Lady thanks I get stronger everyday my daughter left me five beautiful grandchildren. I see her every day in her only daughter (Wisdom) thanks everyone. Welcome Chosen this is a great place to be.

Your story is very touching and shows us all just how precious life is. Welcome to a truly amazing group of people who are her for support!

Thanks Hun

I sit here reading this and there us just no words to say. Today my baby girl turns 21 and your story makes me realize even more then I already do how lucky I am and how blessed I am that God let me have her

I tell everyone that if you have ur daughter in your life ur blessed, make sure you tell her you love her, and let her know just how much she means to u. My daughter was 30 years old her birthday was May 1st she went home on April 30. She's my guardian angel now.

Wow sorry for your loss.

Nobody should have to go though watching their child die in front of them, but she knew you were there and may have given her some comfort in the end.

Now you sound like a strong woman and are back on track.

Stay strong and we are here for you

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Thank you for sharing. God always loves you and sometimes in life things happen and we don't understand why. God has a plan for us weather it us being on this earth a long time or short. God was ready for his angel to return. Life has been hard and you are still strong. You lost your way for a moment but its getting better. Your daughter is above cheering for you and smiling down on you. Again thank you for sharing and we are here to support you in anyway we can. Big hugs