Yes, OMG, Holy Sh*t, It WAS really happening... until yesterday afternoon, the DAY before my scheduled surgery, when I was told that my EGD (endoscopy-done last Friday) showed some ulceration. After a back-and-forth of phone calls, emails, and faxes between the EGD doc, my surgeon (in NYC at the time), his scheduler, and the nurse practitioner, it was decided that my surgery is cancelled. Did I mention that all of this craziness was LESS THAN 24hrs BEFORE my actuall surgery? Did I mention that I have been on a THREE-WEEK liquid DIET????

By the time the RNP called me back for the final confirmation of what we then already knew, my husband and I were knee-deep in sushi trying to consol ourselves. I hadn't even eaten that day because all of this happened as we were on our way into the practice for my final weigh-in. The stress and sense of depression were overwhelming for both of us. Neither of us could even sleep well last night (I, not working today, slept until 1pm; he just got back from work and is napping like the dead).

The liquid diet, the emotional rollercoaster, the moodiness, irritability, stress, indecision, elation of finally making the decision and feeling good about it and ready to do it, the sobering and emotional task of making wills and advanced directives, the scheduling and rescheduling of both of our work.... and the bubble pops 20hrs before surgery.

So, here I am. I have a roof over my head, a hot handsome husband who loves and supports me, a good job that supports me, family, living in a beautiful part of the country, and now aware of health issues that never would have been detected and addressed this early had I not gone through all of this. I'm 11 lbs lighter with a new commitment to the gym, thanks to this hellish pre-op journey, and, after 1 month on Prilosec and a clean EGD, I can be cleared again for the VSG, a healthier surgical candidate than I was before.

So, as I sit here, feeling dazed and like I've been through a war, I'll try to remember all of those positives. I'm a lucky woman with a very luxurious disease given the predicament of 90% of the world's population, and I have the luxurious means to healthcare, also given the predicament of 90% of the world's population (including many right here in the USA). My plan is to suck it up, and stick to a healthy low fat diet, and get back to lifting weights (was too lethargic on the liquid diet), with the goal of being down 8 more lbs by the time of my next EGD. I'll keep coming to this forum, and I thank you all for listening and supporting and being a positive and extremely helpful part of this journey. I wish all of you the best in your journeys.

Edited June 30, 201016 yr by pcindy

Best of Luck(Maybe somewhere down the line we can meet, my Sister lives on Coronado) Sheryl:001_rolleyes:

I ADORE Coronado! Lucky sis! I'd love to meet you! :smile1:

So sorry this happened to you...what a nightmare! I am glad that you will be able to heal the ulcerations and have a safer and more successful surgery now!

For those of us pre-op, do you know what caused the ulcerations (maybe all the stress or the pre-op diet)? Any symptoms you noticed?

My doc did not order that test for me. Does an Upper GI show ulcerations?

Well SH*T, that just sucks. No wonder you were all over the place with your emotions that pre-op diet alone is enough to do it, then to have the rug pulled out from under you is just jank (my 10 year old taught me that). hehe. You have done a good job at talking yourself down though by listing the positives. Take your medications...heal it up and have a great surgery!

Cindy,

I'm so sorry read of this delay! You do have a positive disposition and you've had great progress on your pre-op diet. Hang in there.

Wow, I can relate to $@#$%# that feeling. I just found out my doctor didn't get his privileges. And the hospital only meets monthly to give them. So, I have been anticipating this and on this Protein stuff for a week, ready to go next Friday...all dressed up and nowhere to go. I could cry.

To complicate matters, I am on a short window. I don't have a job so I started my own consulting biz. I don't have any projects right now, so living on a paltry $240 a week (before taxes) of unemployment. Was using life savings to pay for the surgery since I don't have insurance. I really wanted to get this going and get healed to be ready in case I get called to work. Meanwhile, I got a call a couple days ago from a large manufacturing client (possible client) and gave them a proposal. It's a big job which would probably keep me busy til April 2011. @#$%#$@ I want the surgery, and I want the contract. So I called the potential client and told them I would postpone my surgery for the contract and hope my doc gets privileges next month. I really like my doctor, but I am getting so discouraged. I really need the surgery for my physical health and the job for my fiscal health. Aiyaiyai...why does it have to be so complicated? <end of rant>

~GG1957