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Hello everyone. I am almost all packed. We are having a storm here so I think I may take a ferry friday night insted of Sat morning just so I know that I am on the mainland and can drive to the airport. I went out for a last supper tonight. I really took my time and tasted the food, and made sure I didn't eat all of one single thing. I even ordered cheesecake and had about 2 bites. I don't feel like I cheated, cause I didn't give in to a moment of weakness, I did this with every intention of doing it. It actually was a very good exercise for me mentally. It's like I said, OK, here we go, but before we do, here is some love. OMG, I just realized what I typed. Food=love...gonna have to process that thought for a few days. Think I might need to break out the yellow pages before this whole ordeal is over. If you don't hear from me for a few days it is because I have left for Mexico. I will have lots of tales to tell when I get back. Thanks for all your support. I feel so confident going into this and I know a big part of that is the information and support I have recieved from you all. xox Wish me luck!

Actually, seriously, I didn't mean for my comment to be funny or perverted, but now that I look at it I see it is a little of both. Jeez, made me blush! Maybe I should stop posting after 9 pm.

You all are awesome...thanks for the laugh.

Wow! I can hardly believe it. Congrats. Hope I can do as well as you have...you will have to write a book!

Nathalie, what you are experiencing is probably normal...don't worry, you can sleep later. Tomorrow at this time, it will all be a happy memory...

Audree, I will miss you here, but hopefully we can still keep in touch! Take good care of yourself throguh the holidays so you are in even better shape for the surgery in January. xoxo

I can't believe how much you have lost! That is so great. You must feel wonderful! Yeah for you!

Awe, I was looking forward to reading it. Thought we would see a little cattiness rather than sweetness! Seriously, these forums can be so intimadating cause it is hard to read someone's 'tone' when you don't know their personality. Congrats on your weigh in, you are doing great and very brave.

I hope this 'pound' is the best so far...

Yoda, you were asking about my job. I do mostly facials, amssage, waxing etc. I love my job. I really enjoy each and every day. I am very thankful for that and I think it is why I feel like I can do this. In my past life, I worked with urban land economics. Not too exciting and everyone was always mad at me or wanted something from me. It paid the bills so I could raise my boys. Now I work for money and for fun and it feels great! kwhenrykerr - did you say shopping??? That sounds fun. I would really like to spoil myself. Any suggestions? Argon and Green...had a big fight today with ICBC (provincial vehicle insurance). Basically they are licensed to scam...(in my opinion). Just got home so I took an ativan to ease the pain of ICBC.....just waiting for it to kick in. I usually don't take drugs, but then I asked myself why not? If it makes this time easier then who cares, it is only for the short term. Wish I could share, but I will send you happy relaxed thoughts! 3 more sleeps till I leave.

I am monday too. I think I have been doing things right so far, moderation and good drugs for anxiety have been a key factor for me. I am not anxious about the surgery, just about having to abandon my former best friend. food has been a crutch for me for as long as I can remember. I am never alone as long as I have food right? Ironically, foid has also been destroying my quality of life, it is time for the real me to work through whatever it is I have to work through. 3 more sleeps till I leave. Good luck everyone!

Had a great sleep, no tears. I have a relatively easy day today. I took the afternoon off to get my 'hair-did'. So, I just have to work this morning and this evening. My DH put up the tree and decorated it last night. I nearly had a heart attack! I am very proud of him, he usually just sits around and lets me do everything. I came down on him a little hard on sunday. Told him he always ruins christmas for me becuase he doesn't participate, doesn't want to go shopping, play carols, etc...he just opens presents. No wonder he loves christmas! I guess he must have listened becuase I was in for a shock when I came home last night. I felt guilty for 'blaming' him for my christmas stress, but now I feel better about it. Maybe it was something that needed to be said. He is so sweet to me, I am all mushy in love. Pre op diet is going pretty good. I am going to try to stick to just fluids come friday. Just want to be as prepared as I can for post op. Have a super fabulous day everyone..TTYL. Thanks again.

Good advice about the protien. That way we cover all the food groups and are still merry.

Unbelievable. It makes you wonder how much of a scam insurance companies are. I live in Canada, and my Dr doesn't want to work on me because he won't have done my band. It is a 3-4 year wait where I am. Does he care about my health or the paycheck....hmmm let me see... I am just going to make it work even if I have to apply a little pressure to do so.

I would rather someone I love have lap band surgery than a heart attack. And frankly, that is where we were all headed. Not to mention diabetes, high blood pressure,cholesteral issues, depression, lack of energy etc... We are doing the right thing. I haven't told my family yet, and yesterday my sister said to me 'you better not be on a diet at christmas'. Hehehe, if only she knew!!

Beversman, I hope you are feeling better today. There is nothing worse than a trip to emergency. offerrocker....yeah! I am so glad everything went well for you. Baby got back...50/50 is still a good chance of going. Do you have to wire the money? Can't you get a draft and bring it with you? That is what I am doing, I just faxed them a copy of the bank draft so they know it exists. I want you to be able to do this now, but if you can't, remember that just gives you more time to be more successful on your preop diet. Take care and let us know as soon as you know...I am sending you all my happy thoughts today! I am doing well today. Trying to convince myself I should go on the treadmill but I think I will just clean my house before the cleaning lady gets here. Why do we do that? It dirives me crazy but I just can't stop. I have a hair appointment today. I only get it done a few times a year because it is so expensive and there are other things I would rather have. I am really looking forward to the pick me up it always gives me. Have a great day everyone!

You guessed it Argon, I think I will take one tonight before the crying freaking out stage instead of after. Had a few more calories today than I should have but no big deal. It is windy and raining cats and dogs here...hope the ferries are fine on Saturday or I may try swimming over...have to take advantage of my bouyancy right now cause it won't be that way for long! G' night everyone...happy thoughts.

Hi. I start feeling anxious about Christmas around September. This year I am not too bad because we are actually going to do what I want. Hmmm. AngelaT is one smart sugar-free cookie.

My surgery is on the 18th as well. I am not worried about it at all. Just remember this is another routine day for them and no big dea. You will be in and out before you know it. I would prefer to go alone, but my husband is insiting that I have someone there, so my mother in law is coming. That is all I am going to say about that!

Baby got back- Is there any other avenues for funding that you can look into, just in case this one doesn't work out?

Thanks Lovatofish. That really helps me. 5 more sleeps till I leave. I will arrive Sat night. Thought I would just hand out on Sunday, and surgery on Monday. Thanks again.

You all are absolutely right, the emotions are a mess. I am fine all day at work, but at bedtime I seem to fall apart. The dr gave me some pills for anxiety...it appears he knew what he was doing. I took one last night, after having a big huge ugly cry, and fell asleep quickly. I think I am just going to take one every night this week. Apparently I am more anxious than I realized. It is great having the support here. I have learned so much. I can't imagine going through this without this lifeline...Thanks again. I am down another pound today. Have a long day at work today, we are doing a spa party tonight for a group of massage therapy students. Should be really fun and positive. (Its the bridal party ones that stress me out.) I nested on Sunday, cleaned closets, went grocery shopping etc. All in all, I am pretty much ready to go. Well off to another skinny day. I have lost 12 pounds so far...2 more to go before surgery. Big hug everyone.

Lovatofish - I am having my surgery Dec 18 with Dr. Ortiz. I am also self pay. I am glad you asked a million questions because it means I am not the only one. Can I ask you a couple of questions? Do they stich the band in place? Did you get your records when you left? Do I have to take off my wedding ring for the procedure? Do you go back there for your fills, if so, how much do they charge you? Sorry to grill you, but if you have any of these answers it would be a great help. Thanks.

Hi Sunsreturn. Hope everything is going well for you. I am looking forward to hearing from you again. Let me know how you are doing and that you are OK. I hear we are in for some major wind and rain...just what we needed....mre of that...lol. As long as the ferries are running on Sat, I am happy.

Thanks Yoda. You are right it is kinda funny, although I didn't think so. I am really trying hard to let go and quit trying to make everything perfect in my kids world. It is quite a process. I was never very good at the whole patience thing. Was quite emotional when I came home tonight...ie...dirty kitchen etc. What really happened is this. My family (parents and siblings) are not affectionate people and I am. This has been a problem my whole life when I wanted to hug them etc. I know it is just the way they are, just like I am the way I am. (On a side note, I am adopted so we could analyze that from the whole nature nurture side of things) Anyways, I called my dad today for his birthday and I thougtht it would be nice if I told him that I loved him. This has only happened a few times in my life. So I say 'bye Dad, I love you' and he say's 'Ya. OK.' and hangs up. Now I adore my dad and he is very sweet and gentle but I want to jump up and down screaming why can't you guys just say that you love me!!! Actually, now that I have visualized that it is kinda funny. They would be horrified and not have a clue what to do. This is normally where I would go and eat, but tonight I will stay strong even if it means I have to lock myself in my room. I think I have some work to do about my food issues....hmmm. I will save that for a few months down the road. Maybe I can do that instead of obsessing about every decision my kids make! I need to remember to breathe. Everything always works out just the way it is suposed to.