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I watched what I ate yesterday and I'm down 2 1/2 lbs. 227 this morning. I ate pretty good yesterday and tried to watch my calorie intake. Protein shake for breakfast, cottage cheese for lunch, a piece of salmon and a cup of nuts for dinner. So that wasn't too bad. I probably could have gotten away without having the nuts but I wasn't satisfied with the fish. My husband had a bad day yesterday so we didn't get to the gym but we did walk the dogs twice so that helped. I'm taking 4-5 stool softners a day since I have a hard time going to the bathroom without them and don't know what else to do to remedy it. I think I'll just stick to protein drinks for breakfast, a piece of fish for lunch, and one for dinner that should keep my calories down for the day. That is if I can do it. This is a total mind game and I feel like I am losing most of the time. It is a battle to say no to food, even being 9 months out it is hard to say no to food. I eat smaller amounts most of the time but there are those days when food is my best friend and I just can't say no to it. My anxiety has slowed down to where I don't have to know where each meal is coming from or what it will be. I just wish I would have found this website earlier like right after I had the surgery because then I would have known what to eat and how much to eat. That was my big problem...how much to eat. It was like I was stuffing myself every time we would go out and now we take most of my meal home with us for Robert to have later that evening or the next day for lunch. Well that is what I have to say for today. Hope everyone has a good day. Only 2 more lbs before I hit 225, can't wait.

I was in surgery by 8:00 and left to go home that same day around 5:00. I just didn't want to stay at the hospital for the night hooked up to all the machines with the nurses coming in to measure your pee and watch what you ate. I just wanted to be home in my bed. I felt just fine, hardly no pain except in my neck. With a few percocet I was at work 2 days later and did just fine. I did light lifting and was on my feet most of the day and felt good. It was like I didn't even have the surgery. As for the coffee, it is my best friend and I drink 6 cups of reg coffee a day with cream and splenda and haven't had any bad side effects from it. So I would just follow what the doctor wants you to do.

Nighttime is the worst time for me and last night was no surprise. I just couldn't stop eating, it's like no matter what I ate it wouldn't fill me up. I was still hungry. It felt physically that I just couldn't get full. I just kept eating stuff and nothing would do it. Then finally I hit my breaking point and was so stuffed I could hardly stand it. I say I will never do that again but usually that thinking lasts until the next time. I wish I would never do it again. I have been fighting for a month to get under 225 and haven't done it yet. Now I get on the scale and it says 229.5. I can't believe how fast I gain weight. I did 5 min on the elliptical and took the dogs for 2 walks but I guess that wasn't enough. Maybe just enough to keep me from gaining another pound. I'm so sick of myself for doing this. It is like a continuous fight inside of my head that won't stop. A battle of wills. I say stop eating but my mouth won't stop, it just is on a path of destruction. I need some advice or tips on how to stop this. I am reading about emotional eating and that isn't helping yet because I just started the book. I get very bored at night and I know that is what is causing this but I don't know how to stop it. I keep telling myself I will go to the gym but by the time I get home from work I am pooped from the day and don't want to leave the house again. I feel bad when I don't come straight home and see the dogs and take them for their walk. Maybe I just need to take them for their walk and then go to the gym. I have to push myself to go or I'm not going to lose any weight. I have to get back on track. I'm so happy for the people on here that are losing at a good pace, I wish I was one of them. So tonight I vow to hit the gym before going to bed. I'll write tomorrow and let you know how this works but if anyone has any suggestions on how to stop the night binges I would love to hear them.

Ok Ok I know I wasn't going to weigh myself everyday but I did weigh in today and from yesterday to today I've gained 2 1/2 lbs. How is this possible? It is so frustrating because I know I ate yesterday and that is the reason but I was hungry. It is like I can't eat anything without gaining weight. I didn't go swim like I thought I would because I was tired when I got home. I just have to pull myself to the gym everyday in order for me to lose. I did take the dogs for their walk and that helped but it wasn't long enough, just 15 minutes. I bought the bodybugg from 24 hour fitness and I am excited for it to get here. It comes with a free 6 month subscription so that helps. I'm going to give it a try and if it doesn't help I will just sell it. I did have a diet cherry coke yesterday from Sonic for the first time since surgery. I let the bubbles work their way out of it and then drank it. It tasted good at first but then it went to being warm and I threw it away. I just can't get over how the scale just takes the wind out of your sail. It is just too much for me. It is like I am addicted to it and can't get away from it for one day. I'll just buckle down and have my protein for breakfast and then pickles for break and hot wings for lunch. The wings aren't breaded so they can't be too bad for you. Then I'll have protein shake for dinner. That should get the weight off by tomorrow. So frustrating. I don't know if any of you have this problem. I have to keep on track every day all day in order for me to lose the weight. I just can't listen to my stomach, I have to listen to my head. My stomach sometimes get so empty it feels like I am going to starve to death if I don't eat something. Well that is my day so far. What a way to start it.

I sometimes wish I would have had the bypass because it is like I'm not losing the weight fast enough but after reading how people gain their weight back with the bypass I am happy that I had the band put in. My mother had the band put in and it slipped and she almost died and they had to remove it but that didn't discourage me because I would have done almost anything to be thinner.

Thanks for the info. I ordered mine online from 24 hour fitness and it was only $175 with no shipping or handling fees. A great deal. You have to pay the monthly subscription but you do get 6 months free so that helps.

It took me a 1 1/2 years to get from my first consultation to being approved. The wait takes forever but it is worth it in the end. I would do the extra visit to make sure you have 6 under your belt in case insurance doesn't approve you. Just my thought.

I was on Phentermine before I started my 6 months supervised diet. It helped me lose weight whenever I was on it but then when I would stop I would gain all the weight back on. The doctor would only allow me to be on it for so many months and then take me off because it is addictive. Now I take Adderall for OCD which suppresses the appetite and I lost 30 lbs in 3 months taking it but then I had to gain it back to get approved for surgery. I went with the surgery because I didn't want to fight with the doctor to prescribe me the Phentermine and knew I couldn't lose the weight without some help. Gaining the 30 lbs back and having the surgery was so worth it. After I got approved I've lost a total of 45 lbs. I feel surgery was a life saver. I had no other medical conditions (other than being overweight) to get the WLS so having my BMI at 43 was all the help I had. Hope this helps....good luck on your journey.

I have big arms, will it fit on them? Is it heavy? does it stay put once it is around you arm or do you have to keep pulling it up?

I'm definately going to try this one...I am so tired of water. I can't find any thing other than crystal light raspberry lemonade that tastes good. Thanks for the info, I'm hitting Walmart today.

OMG you are doing so good. I look down the road and it seems to be a long hard journey but in reality if I just eat what I am supposed to and do my exercises my goal will be met. You are doing so well, I am jealous and can't wait to say I've lost 96 lbs.

They say muscle weighs more than fat. I gained weight also when I started to lift weights so I've stopped... it is a catch 22, you gain muscle and you gain weight but muscle burns more calories so what do you do? I stopped lifting because I wanted the number to go down on the scale. I only swim now and seem to be losing once again. My skin hangs like crazy now...so I can weigh less and have my skin hang or be fat and have my skin tight. Good luck and don't give up yet.

You are so right. I know when I fall off the wagon it is hard for me to get back on. I eat the wrong thing one day and it takes me forever to lose the weight I gained from that day of eating poorly.

I'm 9 months post-op and food still consumes me. I think about it all the time. I get anxious if I don't know what I am going to eat at the next meal. It's like I have to plan the whole day of eating the night before or I get anxious and have a anxiety attack. I drive my husband crazy because it is like my whole life revolves around food. How did you get past it?

I like the Bariatric Eating website's INSPIRE. It tastes ok but you get your protein and it has 0-1 carb per 4 oz serving. I can chug 4 oz's so it isn't that bad. Muscle Milk was found to contain arsenic so I don't drink it but I liked it when I did. The pre-op and post-op were no fun because I wanted to go out to eat and live life as I did before surgery but I have adapted.

Good luck with everything. 2 weeks out and you will look back and say what was the big deal. You have your whole life to eat so 2 weeks isn't bad. You will do so good.

You are doing so good. I am 9 months out and have lost 18 lbs so you are doing very well. I just started out with the thinking of...I can eat what I want when I want and as much as I want and that didn't help. You are full of inspiration for me. I want to lose atleast 15 lbs by Aug 29th because that is when I go on vacation to Vegas. I will continue to read your blog and see how you are doing. Keep up the good work, you are doing fabulous.

Just don't get into a routine where you cheat all the time. Make it a once in a while. I am 9 months out and still have my cheat days. After I had surgery it was the hardest for me too. I just wanted to eat what I wanted and didn't think twice about it. I didn't lose for 6 months because of this thinking. I didn't really know enough about the surgery to know I was eating too much. I thought if I cut down on portions no matter what I ate I would lose. Good luck with that one. You will do just fine and making it to day 10 is an accomplishment in itself. You should be proud of that.

Yep that is what I weighed in at this morning. I know I told you I wasn't going to weigh in until Tuesday but I was so excited, I had to do it today. I ate so good yesterday and I knew food wouldn't be an issue for me since all I had was a cup of olives, 7 hot wings, and 2 crackers with spread ( it was so good). I can't believe I am under 226. It has taken me a month to get under 226. I am so happy. I just know this month I will be able to get under 220 by the time I go to the doctor for my next fill on July 13th. Ha ha I know I can do it. I am taking a piece of eggplant parm for lunch and I'll have s/f oatmeal for breakfast. I'm going to try and have something to eat for breakfast instead of just a protein shake hoping that will make a difference. We also went swimming at the gym yesterday and I swam for 40 min so that helped. We are going to go tonight. I'll come home from work and walk the dogs and then go swim. It is nice because it gives me a chance to relax and take time to let everything go from the day. I really can't wait to go to work today. I just want this week to be over fast and hopefully we will be slow. Today is the end of the sales goals period and then tomorrow we start another month and new goals. I hit all mine this period so I'm not worried about getting a write up or a coaching so that takes a load off my mind. My husband is just wonderful, we spent yesterday together and did some shopping, went by the bank, got gas, and then to the gym. To end the day we went to Sonic where I got a diet cherry limeaid...my favorite. It keeps me so full and takes me a while to drink it. Oh and we also went by the book store to get Shrink Yourself about emotional eating and it has some good information in it. Like being powerless when it comes to eating and that is why we can't say no. It is something that I will finish and tell you about. Hoping that it will help me not gorge my self at night. That is the worse time for me. I have to cook some Chicken Pot Pie on my Cafe World in 10 minutes. I love Cafe World and I like the way my cafe looks. At first I had everything in pink and then change to the pyramid theme. It gives me something to do in the mornings. Instead of eating I sit here and listen to Sirius and do my cafe and write on here. Next month I have to start looking for shows to go see in Vegas. I want to go to a topless show because I have never been to one but my husband doesn't want to go. He says he has seen enough boobs in his life so he doesn't need to spend money seeing more. I can appreciate that but I have never been to one so I wanted to go so maybe I will go alone. I don't know what it is about seeing medically enhanced boobs but I just have never been to a show where there is dancing and singing with the fancy costumes before. Maybe he will come around. If not I love him for not wanting to go. It probably will just make me feel inadequate. I do want to get a boob job after I lose the weight because I had a breast reduction in 1999 and went from a DD to a large B and now they are C's. I want to go back to having perky tits like when I was 14. I have never had perky tits since then because they grew too big too fast and just hung down. I can remember how big they got when I had my daughter, boy they were big. And then they went back to being DD's. Robert says mine are perky now but I want them to be full and stand out but he says mine are perfect. I'm trying to grow my hair long because I have never had really long hair, just to my shoulders and I want to be able to pull it into a ponytail for vacation since it will be hot out there. I have 10 weeks to lose 25 lbs. It is doable but will take extra hard attention to my eating and exercise routine to get enough calories burned to lose the weight. That's 2.5 lbs a week. It will be hard but I know I can atleast lose 15 lbs if anything. I want to get to 223 by next Monday so I will work hard to reach this goal. I don't think it is out of my reach so I know I can do it. I'll keep you updated on my progress. Take care and have a good day.

Well I didn't blog yesterday because I had to be at work so early and Robert got up with me and I have to spend time with him so it is hard to have him awake and be sitting at the computer. I feel guilty. I try to blog at work but I can't always because people are always looking over your shoulder to see what you are doing and since they don't know that I have had surgery, that isn't a good idea. Wish people would mind their own business. Work was so easy yesterday for being a Saturday, no one came in. I got 2 sales out of it but those were the only sales that came in. I was glad to get them. My eating was good, I had an avocado for breakfast, a cup and a half of chili for lunch. We went to Red Robin's for dinner and I got one of their new burgers and took about 5 small bites out of it and ate 4 french fries. The bun was so big that I didn't want to risk getting stuck. That was at 5:00 so about 8:00 I had another avocado and a handful of nuts. So that wasn't bad eating. I did weigh this morning to see where I was at and I weighed in at 227 so I am glad I haven't gained anything more than 1 lb. We are going to the book store today and I am going to buy Shrink Yourself. I read about it in the forum's and want to see what it is about. Robert finished his quickbooks certification so he is happy about that. Hasn't gotten any calls back from any CPA firms but he still holds out hope of getting his business off the ground or working with someone else. He is so smart that it would be a shame to let all his education go to waste. I want to get back to 226 by Tuesday so we are going to the gym today and tomorrow night after work. I just have to lose some weight before I go for my next fill. I think it is the hardest to go to the gym at night so by me getting up so early I might start going in the morning but I heard that the lanes get busy early so I would have to go about 5:00 and since that is the time I wake up it shouldn't be a big deal. I'm on my 5th cup of coffee and it tastes so good this morning. I love coffee. I'm pretty bored right now since Robert is sleeping and I have nothing to do on Cafe World and Farmville. They are all taken care of. I have to make an appt with the doctor to see if any of my medications come in a liquid form since I am having a hard time swallowing them. They aren't very big but they try and come up every morning. Maybe I should wait until later in the day to take them. My nighttime pills go down fine. We stayed up until about 10:30 last night and that was like staying up forever for me since I am usually asleep by 8:00. I slept until 6:00 so that was good. I guess I have gotten all the sleep that I needed to. My mother had the salmon burger wrapped in lettuce and she gave me the leftover's to bring home. I don't know if I will eat it because I've never had salmon wrapped in lettuce before and it didn't look that good. I feel like I am all over the place on today's blog but there is so much inside my head that I have to get out and it just comes to me at certain times. My friend Kim from work is leaving her husband after 15 years. She has applied for an appt and she got rid of 2 of her dogs and still has to get rid of the long-haired chihuahua. Harley doesn't like being around strangers so it will be hard for him to get adopted. The corgi and st. bernard went fast. She had just put them up for adoption yesterday at work. She is having a hard time with everything but I think she will be okay for the most part. She is just tired of being ignored. She is a cute girl and has one daughter that is 10 years old so she will have Samantha there with her. She says her husband doesn't pay any attention to her and he just plays his playstation and talks to his friend on the phone. He sleeps in the recliner so he is never in the bed unless he wants sex. Just not a good place to be in. I feel for her. She came to work crying the other day because she touched him and he got mad at her for waking him up. She cried and cried and couldn't stop crying. It was awful. So she went home. Yesterday at work all she was doing was texting on her phone to people because her husband wouldn't talk to her about the situation. She was driving me crazy because people would come in and wait in line and she was in the backroom texting. Good thing we weren't busy. I don't have alot planned for today since Robert is a dad to the dogs and has no kids we don't really have anything to celebrate. He will call his dad later today and wish him a happy father's day. I'm glad he doesn't have children because they are hard sometimes and I don't think I would be a good step-mother since I don't have a lot of patience. I am glad my daughter is grown and gone because she drives me crazy just being where she is and living the life that she does. It isn't the life I would lead but she is happy. She has been looking for a job but hasn't found one. He is working finally and she stays home. Their tv is going out so I am going to send some money for them to get another one. She is my girl and I try to take care of her by sending her packages and money when I can. I just went over the itenerary for our trip to Vegas in Aug, I can't wait. My mother bought us tickets to see Phantom of the Opera there at the Venetian so that should be nice. She doesn't know where the seats are but it should be fun anyways. Well that is all that I have to say for today. Hope you have a good one.

I too had to do my 6 months with a dietician. I gained 30 lbs in the 6 months in order to qualify and it took awhile but I did. After my final weigh in with her, I went on a diet and lost the 30 lbs due to eating like a bird and exercising like crazy. But now I have the band and wouldn't have done it any other way. I would have done anything the dietician asked just for me to be approved.