Thank you soooo much for sharing so openly & honestly! I needed to hear that because I know I have food "issues" also. I am in a 12 step group already and have been for almost 20 yrs, but for alcohol (something you can totally abstain from). I am on antidepressants for chronic pain, but hope to get off of alot of meds (diabetic, HTN) etc. after my surgery. I still feel this is the best option to help me recover from morbid obesity but needed to hear about your journey. You sound like you are addressing your fears, anxiety and "issues"....In other words your right where you are supposed to be and this too shall pass. Life is life none of us will ever be perfect, but progress is close enough for today! Congrats to walking through the fear and taking the actions necessary to recover and live a life intended for you...to be Happy, joyous & free! Love ya girl, Sheryl (aka"'Happy Destiny", pg 164 of BB of alcoholics anonymous) p.s. would love to chat again soon! :biggrin0:)