Boo Boo Kitty

lol...I did try Rain' suggestion, while I felt wonderful no sleep followed. I am not the type to roll over and go to sleep after sex...lol...

Please tell me you are joking right???

That is why I didn't get out of the plane. I was sorry I even went in it...lol...

It took about 1 hour, not too bad. The guy was really talented. My DH ending up getting a full back arm from him yesterday too! lol... Shoulder would look cute. I wanted mine there but because of work and my future degree I decided to keep where in business atire it won't be seen. He told me that the spine is one of the #1 spots for pain bc all of the nerve endings migrate there. Totally thought I was gonna pass out. This is #3 but after tt I will be back down to 2...lol... I was gonna skydive too lauren! And then I went on the plane, and said "F*CK NO, GET ME OUT". Seriously it had to be funny to see. We have a place that teaches here.

Hey guys.... Here is the new hair. Picture sucks, can't tell the color change too much but here it is. YOU CAN SEE that I am not sick looking or anorexic..lol... And my new wings....

They deal with eating disoders as well. I am hoping I will but I don't see it happening. I see more things now that need to be fixed that aren't part of this round of ps...

Here it is....hard to tell how big it is. It is right between my shoulder blades and goes to each side. So this angel has her wings now!

That is what I wanted, but I found it really hard to do..lol...I was going to get a butterfly, but they are REALLY overdone. SO I got a heart with angel wings, and a devil's horn and tail..lol... Everyone says I have turned into a vixen, so I found it appropriate. I will try to post a pic here in a minute!

Hey baby! I was in your neck of the woods yesterday at Gibraltar. Got my goal tattoo there finally on my back. Hurt like nothing else ever has....lol...

BRANDI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOOO....................do tell girl! Be good! lol.. I FINALLY got my goal tattoo...It is a heart with angel wings and a devil's horn and tails. Right between my shoulder blades. Hurt like a F*ing bitch....lol... I will post new pics later. I also have new hair. I screwed up my color so it had to be fixed. Now I am a light strawberry blonde with red and blonde on top and darker red on bottom! Surprised after how bad it was it looks now, I love it. I also got a new cut. A sexy Marilyn Monroe cut, a bit longer!

WOW! I am going to ignore the obvious and horrid spelling and ask you flat out where is this hositlity coming from? She didn't call anyone ignorant. Don't you think you may have READ into her post WAY TOO MUCH?????

Well here is the run down of things I have tried this week....blah... Melatonin, helped me fall asleep but I STILL woke up. Lavender bath--nada Massage before bed...nada No coffee...nada, and I am being a real BITCH... Blood work did come back I was Iron deficient. I am now taking pills for it, but Dr says it may take awhile if that is the reason I am not sleeping. Sleeping pills....I still wake up... SO Scotch or wine doesn't sound so bad anymore.... UGH! Not sleeping makes you VERY cranky....and taking coffee away from me was VERY VERY VERY bad...lol...

I have decided I am going to write Bob Barker and get him on our side.... Rather than spay and neuter the pet population...... Spay and Neuter the CRAZY population so my kids won't have to deal with crazy.... Anyone else in?? lol....

My favorite Bandster is Ravenna Black. LOVE HER! She was on Wife Swap, but she is also a Pin Up girl. NO WONDER I love her eh? www.ravennablack.com

HEY there! How is it going? How are you feeling?

Exactly, and just how do we do that? I made an appoitment with a Body Image coach, they work with people like me who are having *sigh* issues.... :smile:

Well I have successfully taken off 162 pounds now, and I thought that was the hard part. That unfortunately has been far from true.I am more terrified now of my weight than I ever have been. Food and exercise controls my thoughts, my sleeping moments (which have become rare) and my waking moments. Why is the battle of the brain in weight loss harder than the battle of the buldge? No matter what anyone says to me, I see the old me. The lady with the "good personality" that everyone liked and no one respected. I was fat and disgusting....I am coming to the point where I feel no different now. Why has my head not changed with my body? It seems the battle with weight, no matter where you are at is never an easy one. Loosing weight challenges your body, but sometimes leaves your mind in the aftermath. I am not connected to who I am, I stay connected to who I once was, and it is a very lonely place to be. I wish I could see me, but I don’t. I don’t know who I see anymore.

Well I have successfully taken off 162 pounds now, and I thought that was the hard part. That unfortunately has been far from true.I am more terrified now of my weight than I ever have been. Food and exercise controls my thoughts, my sleeping moments (which have become rare) and my waking moments. Why is the battle of the brain in weight loss harder than the battle of the buldge? No matter what anyone says to me, I see the old me. The lady with the "good personality" that everyone liked and no one respected. I was fat and disgusting....I am coming to the point where I feel no different now. Why has my head not changed with my body? It seems the battle with weight, no matter where you are at is never an easy one. Loosing weight challenges your body, but sometimes leaves your mind in the aftermath. I am not connected to who I am, I stay connected to who I once was, and it is a very lonely place to be. I wish I could see me, but I don’t. I don’t know who I see anymore.

Very good question!

More like sh*t them I am sure...lol...

Hey Steph I do think *maybe* I need to stop loosing weight. I am 158 and 6". BUT I don't think I am sick or too thin, or my tailbone is too skinny, what ever it was never fat. BTW, she saw it when I was trying on my dress for the Bariatric Ball, I was wearing a thong but why she was looking at my ass is beyond me. I will post a pic of me I took this am, lol so none of you worry about me... I do have to confess though, I am going to see a Body Image councelor. I can't do it anymore. I see the fat girl still no matter what I do, and I can't handle it anymore. I do need help in that respect. No matter what ANYONE says I see 323 pound Brandy, not me.

At least we can hope to help at least even one person....

EXACATLY. Thank all of you for agreeing....I am just at the point I am scared for people, and I think someone needed to say it!

Do you think it is because you are already at goal he will give you a hard time?

I just want/need to share how I feel lately about things. First, I do appreciate that newbies need advice and seek the knowlage of take others. I was once there! BUT what bothers me about it is that people it over MEDICAL advice. That is not the ideal thing to do, and can be downright dangerous. Something to remember just because someone has done something THEMSELVES doesn't make it 1. Scientific, so therefore NOT proven. A study of just 1 is not a study 2. Safe, most importantly some people have done things their Dr would never approve and pass this on as something you should do. 3. The best thing for YOUR body, everyone is entirely different. How your body reacts my be not only different, but life threatening. I always give a disclaimer when someone asks me how I do things that you should always talk to your Dr. Some people here do not and pass off advice that is less than medically sound. Sometimes down right dangerous. I am just asking that anyone looking for help also consider that MOST of us on here are NOT Dr's. All we can tell you is OUR experience and what worked for us. Please do not take everything into heart as gospel truth. It is ok to ask questions but always talk to your Dr before changing anything in your bandster life. I encourage eveyone to talk and learn but please think about what people are saying! This also goes for those who think that just because a few are having problems with their band that you will as well. The band is not a life complicating thing. I am sorry for those who do have problems with it, but they aren't the norm. IF the band really was bad it wouldn't be on the market. Again people posting that the band isn't working,they are sick, whatever it is again is JUST their experience, it doesn't mean you will be that way as well. This is just something I had to get off my chest, I hope it doesn't fall onto deaf ears. AND I am not calling anyone out, so please do not throw stones at me. It is something that is particularly bothering me that I feel the need to address....again just my opinions!