darkangel

* psych eval

I will try to make this short...... before surgery....Anxiety....almost changed my mind.... lost quite a bit of weight on my pre-op....went into surgery crying and undicided..... woke up thinking what the hell did I do....... Anxiety got worse and depression set in..... went for help and called my doctor.... seeing a psychologist......... went in to see my surgeon and nurse..... they didnt ask me how i was doing....didnt check my scars....didnt notice I was loosing like crazy..... all they wanted to talk about was how Im only in the 2% of pple who come out of this feeling down... ( 2% ,,,bullshit)......so I went home feeling bad and feeling like a failure..... but my psychologist told me maybe they were scared I was going to sue them.....somehow I fell through the cracks and didnt have a phyce eval..... but they had answers for why I didnt.....they told me they didnt see any red flags..... :mad2: ........went in for my first fill.....and my dietitian gave me a speech......your loosing to fast!....your not eating enough pasta,crackers,rice....blah blah.... I was like loosing to fast??? I want to loose more!!! she said your not going to turn anorexic on us are you.......what the hell??? I gave her a look like.....come on now ...your all taking this a little to far!...... I dont even want to get skinnie for frig sakes.... 170 ish sounds good to me........ Now,,,,would I be out of line if I said something next visite?..... if they say something again....????? .... and they call themselves professionals.... azzholes!!! ............. way to make me feel like Im failing at this.....my depression is gone.... no thanks to them! :cursing:

Im in.... first challenge :cheers2: .... 20lbs :scared2:

well...I bent every way possible....but I don't think I bent down into a upside down v....will try! :biggrin: .....staying away from carrots (raw) forever! ....ughh!.... coughing usually works when Im heart sick.....didn't work today.... it was very painfull.... this happened around 2:00 ....only had a bit of milk since then....and Im going to stick to liquids tomorrow tx everyone!

CARROTS?????.......raw carrots.... why can't we get stuck on chips ,chocolate, or ice cream??/ .... I was stuck before...but this time, it really got stuck ..2 hours of rubbing, walking....and trying to make myself sick. even before band I could never make myself sick!....you know when your not feeling very well and you want to get sick to feel better....... never worked!..... ..so, finally after 2 hours, I did vomit.... felt better right way... so is getting sick the only way to get unstuck??? anyone else have this problem of not being able to make themselves sick? I was thinking....damn .never thought I would be punished for eating carrots.....LOL..... I guess i wont be eating raw veggies ever again.... :biggrin:

.....(59 lbs since november) LOL :smile:

wondering how everyone is doing???? just wanted to share my good news!!!.... I steped on my scale this morning....50 lbs gone!!! feels great..... hope everyone is doing well!:smile:

Thanks Amy.... it looks like were all loosing!!! and not gaining.....thank gawd!......:redface: I just made a appointment for the 17th of May..... the 10th was not a good day.... (he only sees us on mondays) so I will deffinatly know by then.... 2 weeks 2 days ish :thumbup: . ...Im thinking with the workouts....Im might need a fill by then.... hope your all doing well.... living good and making friends with your band!....LOL... she pisses me off at times...when I get a little stuck (even though its my fault) if anyone was feeling depressed like I was in the beggining...I hope your feeling better....Im feeling allot better.... had some issues with coping and dealing with my new life and band... take care!

12 a cup???....LOL...maybe thats why most of the time I don't finish what Im eating.......well I guess your right....I will chat with my doctor...and see if Im eating to much..... a 48lb loss so far I would think Im doing alright......well 48lbs is awesome!!! BUT,,, if Im eating too much I want to know!... (plus Im nervous for my first fill)...... when does banster hell usually start for most pple?

OK.....I was banded on march 24th.... so 5 weeks post-op yesterday.....now Im seeing my doctor for a fill on Monday...what I want to know is do I need a fill?...... does getting stuck have anything to do with needing a fill....Im thinking no.....in a way ...because I get stuck when I don't chew enough.... ( a few times for about a min)...Im eating about a cup of food for lunch and dinner... and having a small breakfast.... not really hungry ... and never eat at night... so do I need a fill? ....Im joining the gym today......maybe I will start to feel hungry with the workouts???.... maybe I should get my fill? what have you done so far??????:redface:

AWESOME!!! :sad: Im almost there......7 more pounds :thumbup:

Too late....hahahaha....I had half a cup of salmon patatoes and veggies.... mmmmm mmmmm good!

Anyone start thier mushies one day before mushie start day??.... should I? .....would you? soooo hungry :thumbup:

nope....i didn't cheat once!.....one day I put a piece of celery in my mouth chewed it....then spit it out....lol... so no I didnt eat one thing in 14 days.....

more pain than I thought I was going to have.....gas pains.... Im getting some fluids down.... not feeling very well...Iv got a serious case of the blues....Im going to have to go talk to someone very soon! why can't I be positive like everyone else? this is a good thing....thats what everyone keeps telling me??/:) ....ugh!

good luck everyone......Im going in for 6:30 am..... nervous as hell... but can not wait to be on the other side!!! chat with you guys as soon as I can....I want to hear all about your day! :smile:

Im on day 14 of my 2 week liquid diet.....Im going in tomorrow for surgery.... 2 weeks nothing but boost and water....thats it! day 6 and 7,, I was a little hungry......other than that not to bad.....:confused:

I know.....Im freakin nervous!!! :redface:

Iv lost between 15 and 20lbs.... (just bought a new scale...my old one sucks) ..I will know how much I lost when I get weighed at the hospital... ....very excited!.... 3 more days girls.... and guys! :)

ALL good points......great advice.... thank gawd for this site!!!!!:frown: ... I will be getting my band on wednesday the 24 of march..... Oh and yes I'v done my homework...LOL..... 14 months of reading and asking and thinking..... I think Im just worried about everything and it makes a person doubt their decision........ Thank you all soo much!!! .....everyone has their down days right???? there will be many more..... Im just going to have to keep on walkin forward!! :thumbup:

Anxiety.... fear....stress.... all normal right? but what if you keep asking yourself if you really want the band? ...... I want to be healthy...I want to loose weight... but because of the anxiety and fear every now and then I think...I don't want to do this! .... why should I have to go through surgery??? why me? but, then I tell myself I need this to get healthy.... and live a healthy life for my family and I.... or...OR it is because in a way I don't mind my weight......my husabnd and daughter love me the way I am...... BUT I do care that my health is an issue......... what were your thoughts days before your surgery??????

sorry posted it twice.....dont know how to delete!

My daughter is in daycare...... we have been sick all winter.....gastro ... everything....now lice is going around....ugh!...... that is my biggest fear also.... Im on anxiety pills because of that fear.....and many more reason too........... day 9 on boost....... 5 days left!!! :cursing:

everyone is loosing weight.....awesome!!!:thumbup: 8 days on the boost! yuck! :cool2:....LOL 6 days left!!! :cool2: :scared2:

good luck!....:tongue2: keep us updated...... Im going in on the 24th....we are a week apart :wub: