Cherylmilla

I don't know where you live, but where I am, CBD is a big thing. It's supposed to be wonderful for anxiety and more natural than xanax, etc. (though I take the xanax myself). I'm considering looking into CBD for my anxiety. I'm awaiting my surgery (I don't even have a date yet), so I can't relate to the head hunger just yet. I have been going to bariatric support groups, and they suggest keeping your hands busy, walking and all of that. Or a rewards system that doesn't include food (i.e., you didn't snack, give your self a marble and once the jar is full, you can buy the shoes you've been eyeing).

To be able to cross my legs - I honestly don't know if I ever could. I wasn't a huge child, but its so long ago that I can't recall. To be able to go out in public (a train to NYC, out to eat) and not feel like the biggest person, be the biggest person or get made fun of (that has happened several times in NY City). To not shop in a plus size store. It's been since high school and I'm 40 now. To lose weight and finally keep it off (I've been successful at losing before). To live longer - I want to be there for my family. I have an amazing and supportive husband and a wonderful son, who also struggles a bit with weight (not as much as I ever have). To be an example for my son. To prove everyone wrong. To rock pretty dresses and shoes with wedges/heels. To feel confident. To live free of this fat that has trapped me pretty much my whole life. I don't know what a thin version of me would look like. I haven't met her yet. To say I'm "100-whatever lbs" - OMG it really is one-derland because I haven't been there since high school. I could go on, but I won't. I keep worrying about the surgery so much...am I doing the right thing, all of this, but since my small list is so large, I think I know I'm making the right choice. It is hard. I wish you all the best, every day.

I made sure I had most of my favorites before my first doc appointment. I think a ‘food funeral’ is good. Some foods we can have again, but most we should try and cut out, mainly sugar. I want to go into the surgery as healthy as I can, so I’ve started now. I lost 13 lbs and cut out sugar and it’s insanely hard ?. Today is day 7 of that. My friend who had it and had the best recovery worked out a lot and that’s been my main focus. I may slip in these months leading up to the surgery, but I’m trying. I’m so happy for us all, I know we’ll all be so much healthier in the coming months/years. Good luck with your surgery! ☺️

I have started the process and was told I’ll be able to have the surgery in 3 months, provided all tests are good of course. I have cut out sugar in the last 6 days (hardest thing I have done) and decided to order some shakes from a known company to see how they’ll be. They. Came last night and I had one for breakfast today and all I can say is....gross!! I had an iced latte flavor. It does seem to be filling, which is good, but it smells and tastes worse than any shake I’ve ever had (and I’ve tried a LOT). I got the sampler to see what flavor is most palatable. I don’t know if these are the ones my doc will give. Anyone know of bariatric shakes that aren’t gross?

You’re absolutely right on all points. I’m not thinking of backing out; I’m scared, but that’s natural. I keep telling him it’s for us all. Nice job on the weight loss too! Seeing everyone’s success gives me hope.

Thank you all. I told my job this morning and they were super cool and supportive. I may not get my son onboard. I’ll keep trying. This group is great, I’m glad I found this site!

I went to my appointment today, my first. I have sleep apnea and gigantic tonsils. Worried about the Endoscopy almost as much as the surgery. Anyone in the same boat that’s had it (I’m just a tad bit of a hypochondriac...??‍♀️). Just looking for reassurance. Also, they said we can go through with the surgery, if all is well, in 3 months. It’s so quick. My son’s having a hard time and mad that I’m doing the sleeve. Says just diet and exercise. I’m 40 and struggled my entire life. He’ll be 18 and lost his dad when he was 8, so there is fear of losing me. I fear that but I fear he will if I don’t do this! I want to live a long life. I had a hard life with his dad (who died by suicide) and I’ve been blessed with a wonderful new husband and my beautiful son. I want to live, that’s why I am doing this. I wish I could lose the traditional way and keep it off. Ugg ?

YES! I am totally obsessed. Been thinking about doing it for years and I have my first appointment with my bariatric surgeon tomorrow, so I’m at the beginning. Scared, nervous, confused, excited, you name it, I am it.