chunkymunkey916

I am currently beginning a new chapter in my life, closing up the previous one.  I am determined to awaken to a higher level of awareness and love to connect with others uniquely aware of their connection to the beautiful world we live in.  I am very ANTI-NEGATIVITY, and am very happy to be part of this support system online.  I am hoping to not only gain support and understanding of myself and others, but I am also hoping to contribute my 2 cents and any experiences I have had that may be of some assistance to others as well.  The weight loss surgery is a milestone in life, however as for my personal experience, I will say that it truly is a very important factor as to the unknown that I call my future.  I have struggled with my weight significantly throughout my life.  This past year has been an extremely difficult one for me, in which I have battled a very ugly and dark depression.  The darkness had me lost for a significant amount of time, to which only by the Grace of God was I delivered from its grasp.   However, the scars and unseen damage that I carry are still with me, along with over 100+ pounds of flesh (fat) that I gained as a result of the debilitating depression.  The hardest thing for me to face was my little guys face as he learned to take his first steps and he looked for my approval as I watched from the couch...I have missed out on so many important moments with my kids as a result of being so overweight.  I just hold out hope for the day when I can take my kids out for a family bike ride or outing that I don't have to sit by and watch from the sidelines.  Jesus, I humbly ask, seek and knock on your door as I bring my request to You, please take this into your hands and Your will be done.  I need to live a life FULL of health, and I know that You are the answer!  If this surgery will help me to be a healthier me so that I can be a better mother, then Lord please open the doors!  I want to be a walking testimony of the power of prayer and I believe that God you have given wisdom to these doctors to heal those that are suffering, and Lord my children and I are suffering because of this disease.  In the name of Jesus, I pray this prayer.   Amen and all praise and glory to the Lord of all!  God you REIGN!