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I still have a ways to go.....but man it feels good to get rid of that first 50 pounds!!! First picture is me at my heaviest 252 taken on Easter Sunday, second in the pink shirt is just a few days ago.....
My surgery was on 5/16/16
heaviest weight 252
surgery weight 226.4
current weight is 201.8.....(1.8 until ONDERLAND....really?)

I really wanted to share this, because I feel very proud. And because I often see people posting about whether or not they should do it and how afraid they are, but I am one of these people who says: this is one of the best decisions I have ever made in my adult life!
The pic on the left was taken Aug. 31 2015 at around 320+ pounds. I had my surgery Nov 23, 2015. The photo on the right was taken a little over a week ago. 54 pounds until I reach my goal weight.

I'll never be a 'normal' guy..
I'd look weird...
I mean weirder than I look now as a fatty...
I'd have this gigantic, bulbous head on a skinny dudes body...
Aint nobody got time for that...
So as far as the (ridiculous) BMI goes, I'll always be obese...
And I'm ok with that...
Coz I'll be all hot and sh*t..

hello everybody,
tomorrow is my 3 months surgeanniversary.
Here are some before at my highest and last week pictures.
Can't wait to be 6 months out
Before:




After:

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If you ask most bariatric surgery patients what they regret most about their surgery, it's that they didn't get it done sooner.
The difference between dieting and WLS is HUGE. It is still hard and you still need to make good choices, and there are ways to sabotage yourself, but I can tell you that I'd never felt this good on a regular diet/exercise regime. When I restricted calories in the past, my body fought back hard. Hunger was unbearable.
If you compare hunger to noise, pre-surgery hunger was a deafening roar. Now it's just a little whimper. The signal's there but it's not making me pounce face-first into a platter of food.
You will feel different, and it will feel fabulous (once you're past recovery and liquid diets!) Hang in there, folks

I go back and forth on my decision almost daily - I think it's a natural part of the process!! You are not alone!
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My surgery is on the 27th. The closer it gets, the more emotional I get. I am angry at myself that I got myself this unhealthy that I need this surgery. My emotions are just all over the place.

Surgery scheduled for 29th. Excited and scared.
I found a few old journals when cleaning out a cabinet. Reading them again, I realized that it's been 30 years of fighting this weight--lose 20 pounds, put it right back on, lose 30, gain it back, etc. Made me angry and sad--what a waste of time and energy, when I could be living the life I really want. When I told my husband, he just calmly looked at me and asked, "So are you ready to win the fight?" We started serious research, and now I'm a couple of weeks away.
I've watched my mom struggle to walk, breathe, and get comfortable. I refuse that future.
So let's get this done.

Surgery scheduled for 29th. Excited and scared.
I found a few old journals when cleaning out a cabinet. Reading them again, I realized that it's been 30 years of fighting this weight--lose 20 pounds, put it right back on, lose 30, gain it back, etc. Made me angry and sad--what a waste of time and energy, when I could be living the life I really want. When I told my husband, he just calmly looked at me and asked, "So are you ready to win the fight?" We started serious research, and now I'm a couple of weeks away.
I've watched my mom struggle to walk, breathe, and get comfortable. I refuse that future.
So let's get this done.

Surgery scheduled for 29th. Excited and scared.
I found a few old journals when cleaning out a cabinet. Reading them again, I realized that it's been 30 years of fighting this weight--lose 20 pounds, put it right back on, lose 30, gain it back, etc. Made me angry and sad--what a waste of time and energy, when I could be living the life I really want. When I told my husband, he just calmly looked at me and asked, "So are you ready to win the fight?" We started serious research, and now I'm a couple of weeks away.
I've watched my mom struggle to walk, breathe, and get comfortable. I refuse that future.
So let's get this done.

Surgery scheduled for 29th. Excited and scared.
I found a few old journals when cleaning out a cabinet. Reading them again, I realized that it's been 30 years of fighting this weight--lose 20 pounds, put it right back on, lose 30, gain it back, etc. Made me angry and sad--what a waste of time and energy, when I could be living the life I really want. When I told my husband, he just calmly looked at me and asked, "So are you ready to win the fight?" We started serious research, and now I'm a couple of weeks away.
I've watched my mom struggle to walk, breathe, and get comfortable. I refuse that future.
So let's get this done.

My final moment when i decided to do something was after i gained weight after being at goal for 6 years and having my band removed, hence gained weight.
I was standing in front of a full length mirror... i looked at myself and my body and actually thought i was ugly... i realised at that moment that i no longer loved myself.... i was critical of every feature.
I would look at my face and think i was no longer pretty
I would look at my stomach and sigh in disgust
I would decline catching up with friends because i did not want them to see what i had become
I stopped going out and doing things i enjoyed out of fear of judgement
I stopped doing my hair, nails and make up because i thought it was no use
I didn't participate in life anymore because i felt i had no life in me left
I hated that i had come so far only to go back to where i started
I felt no one would love me
I thought i would die alone as no one could love me.
Omg i am actually in tears...
But thank god i woke up... i did this because i love me... i am beautiful inside and out, i am a good person, i am intelligent, kind, honest, thoughtful, and have so many good qualities.
Yes, i am unhappy about the outside, but the inside is good .. i just needed to do this because i did not love me anymore.... and no clothing tag size or number on the scale could fix that.
Im sorry, i am just really emotional right now.... this is the first time i have ever said these things out loud...

I'm dying laughing... The three chins thing... Heheh!!!!! It gets me every time! I am notorious for sticking stuff down the front of my shirt and letting the girls act as a cubby/purse kinda thing. Wallet, keys, money, lipstick, phone, lists all go in my handy dandy front of the shirt pocket. And no... All these items do not go at the same time. Just one or two. Maybe three.
A few months ago (pre surgery) I had a burst of insanity I mean energy so I tossed the phone in its spot and started vacuuming. Then I heard a voice... I looked at the sky, the floor the dog before I realized it was my phone. It was coming from my b-o-o-b-s. I had inadvertently called someone and OH MY GOD I WAS ON FACETIME. I screamed so loud my husband came running. I had thrown the phone across the room by that point and was just gasping and pointing to it. I could hear my friend say "Jennifer you idiot pick up the phone from the floor. I can see the ceiling and hear your screams. James, I feel bad you have to live with her especially since I saw inside her shirt".
Well here is the thing- now that I'm down a few pounds my nifty holder no longer works. I was in Lowes looking at plants when my keys slipped right out of my shirt and hit the floor. I tried to look like I wanted it to happen but something tells me the guy snickering watering the plants didn't buy it. Jerk.
So I'm off to buy bras and think about a more mature way of transporting my stuff.
Awesome job Christinamo7. Keep the pictures coming!
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The best thing that I did to get through the last few days before my sleeve was to clean my house! I did everything that needed to be done, laundry, vacuuming, even washed the windows. Not only did it help pass the time, but I knew that it would make recovery easier on me as I could just rest when I got home, and not be worrying about anything that needed to be done. You are almost there! Good luck with your surgery, I can't wait to hear how it went.

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June 29!
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