Hannah83

So sad for you. I'm writing this with my wonderful springer spaniel Zinny by my side. He is my constant companion and I will be devasted when he goes. Thinking of you at this time and I know you will be remembering the happy times you had together. Let her go over the rainbow bridge knowing you loved her. Thinking of you .

Just like with each of us, she won't do it until she's darn good and ready. Sad but true.

I agree. It costs more to eat healthy if you are still buying junk, too.
I am saving money just on breaking the Diet Coke habit alone.

@@hamoudi -- that's a rough story.
I applaud how you handled that scene. You met him where he went. And you stood up for yourself and your decision.
Again, respect!

I'm sorry to hear that re:your sister. The thing is no matter the way one chooses to become well in any area the person themselves must want to get better we cannot want it for them. I used to cut my body to shreds but thanks to God's help and Mercy -----> http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ I changed because I chose to.
It's the same with weight loss or a deadly habit or even something that is 'good' but takes up too much time.
You get my point dear one.
The sleeve for me is a bit like when I went to Mercy, a kick in the right direction. It's more then that actually, it's a jumper cable start in the right direction.
I've done soul searching, prayed about it, am bringing my father to my last appointment with the surgeon (she's great) so that he himself can see what is entailed and to ease his concern because he is my dad.
I've prepared for this life change for about a year and one month, so it's not something that I haven't been prepping for and not known what I'm doing. Surgery is major, but I am tired of having back aches when I workout and lift weights. I love working out, and cannot wait to get back into slowly lifting at some point afterwards! I won't be yawning on my way out of the gym anymore, I won't miss that!
All of this to say, chin up. Your example could affect your sister as you constantly stay the course and when you mess up get back up. I am here support wise as are many others here.
I recommend looking into a bariatric support group if the surgeon and team have one where you are at. Local help from folks in the same boat help tons. I've been going about two months now the 1st Tuesday of each month. The topics have been funny actually but I've gotten emails of others and have accountability with them.
Take care.

She's 14 years of age and I believe that she is dyeing. she is having trouble breathing normally, collapsing in her own pee (I've gotten her a reusable dog diaper and some pads for the floor.)
This weekend she's got some antibiotics and it's 'wait and see' if she turns around she just might. But she is 14 and the average lifespan is no more then 15 in britney spaniels.
She's been through my 20's which were awful (I used to self injure, but went away to http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ Mercy for seven months in 2012-2013.)
I sobbed into my pillow last night and wasn't able to place why until this morning (when you're half asleep sometimes things are not clear.)
In short she's been in my family for the 2000's and 2010's and it's just hard to see her suffering. Even if she does improve this weekend she's nearing the end and none of my family or myself want her slowly shut down breathing wise. It's inflammation was all the vet said we ran some tests and she's perfectly healthy xray wise and blood work wise.
Inflammation in her case could just be her little organs not being able to function any longer. End of life is difficult in humans and in animals.
It's hard in the sense that I have high functioning autism and she has been such a companion for me. She's a very affectionate dog, and has been able to see my sister's two children up to age one in a sense she got to mother later on in her life there are some funny stories related to the kids (she sat on both of them when they began to crawl and they were like 'wut' so they didn't get into stuff that'd harm them it was so freaking cute. )
At any rate, I'm sure there are folks here who've had pets pass on and know how heavy emotionally it is.

She's 14 years of age and I believe that she is dyeing. she is having trouble breathing normally, collapsing in her own pee (I've gotten her a reusable dog diaper and some pads for the floor.)
This weekend she's got some antibiotics and it's 'wait and see' if she turns around she just might. But she is 14 and the average lifespan is no more then 15 in britney spaniels.
She's been through my 20's which were awful (I used to self injure, but went away to http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ Mercy for seven months in 2012-2013.)
I sobbed into my pillow last night and wasn't able to place why until this morning (when you're half asleep sometimes things are not clear.)
In short she's been in my family for the 2000's and 2010's and it's just hard to see her suffering. Even if she does improve this weekend she's nearing the end and none of my family or myself want her slowly shut down breathing wise. It's inflammation was all the vet said we ran some tests and she's perfectly healthy xray wise and blood work wise.
Inflammation in her case could just be her little organs not being able to function any longer. End of life is difficult in humans and in animals.
It's hard in the sense that I have high functioning autism and she has been such a companion for me. She's a very affectionate dog, and has been able to see my sister's two children up to age one in a sense she got to mother later on in her life there are some funny stories related to the kids (she sat on both of them when they began to crawl and they were like 'wut' so they didn't get into stuff that'd harm them it was so freaking cute. )
At any rate, I'm sure there are folks here who've had pets pass on and know how heavy emotionally it is.

I'm sorry to hear that re:your sister. The thing is no matter the way one chooses to become well in any area the person themselves must want to get better we cannot want it for them. I used to cut my body to shreds but thanks to God's help and Mercy -----> http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ I changed because I chose to.
It's the same with weight loss or a deadly habit or even something that is 'good' but takes up too much time.
You get my point dear one.
The sleeve for me is a bit like when I went to Mercy, a kick in the right direction. It's more then that actually, it's a jumper cable start in the right direction.
I've done soul searching, prayed about it, am bringing my father to my last appointment with the surgeon (she's great) so that he himself can see what is entailed and to ease his concern because he is my dad.
I've prepared for this life change for about a year and one month, so it's not something that I haven't been prepping for and not known what I'm doing. Surgery is major, but I am tired of having back aches when I workout and lift weights. I love working out, and cannot wait to get back into slowly lifting at some point afterwards! I won't be yawning on my way out of the gym anymore, I won't miss that!
All of this to say, chin up. Your example could affect your sister as you constantly stay the course and when you mess up get back up. I am here support wise as are many others here.
I recommend looking into a bariatric support group if the surgeon and team have one where you are at. Local help from folks in the same boat help tons. I've been going about two months now the 1st Tuesday of each month. The topics have been funny actually but I've gotten emails of others and have accountability with them.
Take care.

I've raised, trained and evaluated Therapy Dogs for decades. I know first hand their value within our lives.
Clients would ask me how will they know when it is time to finally say good bye and let their beloved dog cross over The Rainbow Bridge. My answer today is the same that it was many years ago:
"You will know, my friend. When the time is right--you will just know".
If you don't cry when they leave you, then you didn't deserve to have them while they were with you.
Remember my tell you that my S.O. committed suicide the morning of my WLS? Well my beloved standard poodle, Leilani died the very next morning. She just didn't wake up. Through 4 years of therapy, it wasn't until Gucci --my Chinese crested came into my life did I actually start believing in living again.
I'm telling you this so you can realize that yes, I KNOW how important your dog is to you. No words will be able to ease the pain. You have to go through it to grow out of it.
Be kind to yourself and to your dear dog.
"You'll know. You will just know".
I understand.

She's 14 years of age and I believe that she is dyeing. she is having trouble breathing normally, collapsing in her own pee (I've gotten her a reusable dog diaper and some pads for the floor.)
This weekend she's got some antibiotics and it's 'wait and see' if she turns around she just might. But she is 14 and the average lifespan is no more then 15 in britney spaniels.
She's been through my 20's which were awful (I used to self injure, but went away to http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ Mercy for seven months in 2012-2013.)
I sobbed into my pillow last night and wasn't able to place why until this morning (when you're half asleep sometimes things are not clear.)
In short she's been in my family for the 2000's and 2010's and it's just hard to see her suffering. Even if she does improve this weekend she's nearing the end and none of my family or myself want her slowly shut down breathing wise. It's inflammation was all the vet said we ran some tests and she's perfectly healthy xray wise and blood work wise.
Inflammation in her case could just be her little organs not being able to function any longer. End of life is difficult in humans and in animals.
It's hard in the sense that I have high functioning autism and she has been such a companion for me. She's a very affectionate dog, and has been able to see my sister's two children up to age one in a sense she got to mother later on in her life there are some funny stories related to the kids (she sat on both of them when they began to crawl and they were like 'wut' so they didn't get into stuff that'd harm them it was so freaking cute. )
At any rate, I'm sure there are folks here who've had pets pass on and know how heavy emotionally it is.

She's 14 years of age and I believe that she is dyeing. she is having trouble breathing normally, collapsing in her own pee (I've gotten her a reusable dog diaper and some pads for the floor.)
This weekend she's got some antibiotics and it's 'wait and see' if she turns around she just might. But she is 14 and the average lifespan is no more then 15 in britney spaniels.
She's been through my 20's which were awful (I used to self injure, but went away to http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ Mercy for seven months in 2012-2013.)
I sobbed into my pillow last night and wasn't able to place why until this morning (when you're half asleep sometimes things are not clear.)
In short she's been in my family for the 2000's and 2010's and it's just hard to see her suffering. Even if she does improve this weekend she's nearing the end and none of my family or myself want her slowly shut down breathing wise. It's inflammation was all the vet said we ran some tests and she's perfectly healthy xray wise and blood work wise.
Inflammation in her case could just be her little organs not being able to function any longer. End of life is difficult in humans and in animals.
It's hard in the sense that I have high functioning autism and she has been such a companion for me. She's a very affectionate dog, and has been able to see my sister's two children up to age one in a sense she got to mother later on in her life there are some funny stories related to the kids (she sat on both of them when they began to crawl and they were like 'wut' so they didn't get into stuff that'd harm them it was so freaking cute. )
At any rate, I'm sure there are folks here who've had pets pass on and know how heavy emotionally it is.

I appreciate your honesty and I'm sure your Dr's do as well. I myself have been preparing for this for a year and one month. I am on the borderline for 'coverage' and had to stay at 260 for six months. I've gained lean mussel mass and lost inches and fat. My back recently has been bothering me and that reason alone as well as loving the gym and lifting weights etc. I am going to have the surgery.
Medications in my 20's and binge eating piled on the pounds. Recently I've been doing my dardenst to not binge eat at night. It's a matter of the mind and a surgery won't fix that.
Your post echo's the things I struggle with. I have the willpower and the guts to get fit but a sleeve is like a 'reboot' because within two years the stomach becomes a fist size the size it was meant to be.
My dad is coming with me to my last appointment before surgery on the 12th of this month so that his fears can be calmed. He is just being a protective dad and has reservations about surgery. My surgeon is very conservative and has each appointment said 'if you don't want surgery I do not want to be the one to say you 'have to have' surgery'
Only we know what is best for us. As for myself I want the healthiest earth suit I can have so that I can live life to the full.
Keep us posted.

Statistics! Look up the statistics on the percentage of people who are obese or morbidly obese that actually lose all of their excess weight the "natural" way and keep it off vs. the percentage of those who have had bariatric surgery. Bottom line, bariatric surgery wins. Facts usually shut people up.

*soft hug* You'll make it though dear. We are here for you. At least I am.

My dog means so much to me. I work from home and he is my constant companion. I would be so lost without him.
I am sorry for what you are going through, it will get better.

I love my dog so much, my heart hurts for you and your pal. Please take solace in fact that you are looking out for her and trying to comfort her in time of need to make best decision. She has had a good life and one that long (though not long enough right) means she lived well.

@@Hannah83
I am so sorry! It is always so hard to lose a part of your family. When I first married my husband he bought me a Pekingese puppy for our anniversary which was on Halloween. So her name became Lady pumpkin Pie ala Mohr.
That dog was my 3rd child, literally and when she passed I was devastated. She developed a spinal issue that left her paralyzed. She could no longer control her bowels or bladder and we had to put her down. I don't think I was as upset when I lost other family members.
I cried a lot that first week but as time passes it does get better.
I am so sorry and I hope all your good memories brings you peace. I will be thinking about you!
Hugs!

She's a part of your family, pure and simple. To know that your time together is coming to an end is of course a huge burden emotionally, especially since she has been a loyal and loving companion through some difficult and painful times. It sounds like you have given her a loving, safe home and cherished her greatly, and I'm betting she is aware of that. In her mind, she's had a long, full, and happy life, and she gets to be comforted by her closest companion as she passes on. That's the best gift we can give them: to love them completely and deeply and never let them suffer. It seems like such an inadequate repayment for their unconditional loyalty and adoration, but I know for sure that's all they really ever want.
My Sammi has been with me through over a decade of self harm, a suicide attempt, abandonment by my father and his entire side of the family, my mother becoming very sick, and a long, terrifying list of things that come from sickness, poverty, and injury. It doesn't matter that she isn't human. She very clearly loves me and takes care of me, and she's never been anything but faithful and comforting. She, too, is part of my family. She's just family that I adopted instead of was born with.
So sorry to hear about your little furbaby. Love her intensely and stay by her side through this, and she'll know you're doing it and be eternally grateful. I don't know if you believe in heaven, or an afterlife, or a next life, but I truly believe that we will see them again someday.

This is one of my favorite responses to this question (from one of my favorite WLS Blogs, lessdangerouscurves.com:
What do you say to people who think you've taken the easy way out?

I tend to agree with them. I ask them why they wouldn't take the surest and quickest route back to good health?

Because seriously i've got better things to focus on in my life, like my family, and i'm doing this for them as much as I am for myself. I wanted to get myself back to good health in the quickest, safest, most effective way possible.

I'd rather get on with my life than spend miserable months dieting and slogging it out at the gym and then trying to maintain that for the rest of my life. I didn't personally know anyone in my life who had lost the amount of weight I needed to lose and more importantly... kept it off for good. I'm not saying it can't be done. I'm just saying there's a good reason for not wanting to stuff around for another 10 years trying to do it the "hard way" when I could take the supposedly "easy way" and just get on with my life.

And really, unless the person who criticises you for taking the easy way out hunts their own food, grows their own veggies, sews their own clothes and washes them by hand at the river, never takes pain relief, home schools their children and gets about on foot or with a horse and cart I don't think they are in a position to judge. If they do all those things I also don't think they are in a position to judge because, well... back away slowly and nod. Try not to make eye contact.

We aren't talking about 10 or 15kg here. We are talking about people who are obese and specifically - morbidly obese. Morbid obesity is a serious health concern. If you are morbidly obese and don't have any chronic or serious health conditions - you are lucky. It's only a matter of time before you do.

This isn't a lazy decision. This is a positive decision to take back control of your health and do it with the greatest chance of success and as quickly as realistically possible.

I feel like my hunger is all in my head. To be honest, after I had my sleeve I don't get the "starving" feeling I used to have. I do get hungry but not as bad as it was. I'm gonna try to push myself. I'm not going to eat fruit or vegetables because I'm going to do low carb. I've always found that I lose more weight that way. I've gotta do something! I may add in some of the 100 calorie greek yogurts though because they are high Protein as well. I ordered a variety pack of Protein Drinks and protein juices from this website as well. I just want to try some. I wish you could just go to the store and buy some of the bariatric pal stuff.

*soft hug* You'll make it though dear. We are here for you. At least I am.

Thank you for talking me off the bridge, I got really scared. But I'm back on track. I plan to post every detail I can after surgery.
I had my final preop appt with my PCP, he is so great and supportive. Vitamins ordered, protinix ordered, all I need now is a GI cocktail from my surgeon for post op nausea and gas.

It will be ok! You've come this far! There is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow so you need to stay on the right path!

Congrats I also got the goahead with my surgeon. I have no date yet. Im excited and nervous. Did you buy or tried any shakes yet?

Well, it's finally finished all the tests that is! All my results came back as normal from the breast exam to the swallow GI tests! Woo hoo! *does a happy dance* it's nice to know that the exercise has done some good! It was really neat to see my midsection radiology pictures and see my abs! That was kick ass.
My dad will be coming with me to my final check up on the 12th of July. I invited him to put his mind at ease and to get to know the staff, I let him know that the surgeon is very conservative. She's more then once said 'I don't want to be the one to tell you, you have to have surgery.' And I appreciate that going into surgery with her on the 25th of July it puts my mind at ease.