Hannah83

she is a cockapoo.

Often the support we need is limited, I am six-plus months out and am almost out of the 200's but have been finding my 'inner critic' being loud. Enough with that, I am here to say those of you taking the steps for wellness however far you are in it I am proud of you, I don't know your story or struggle but I say 'keep going' the best way to beat depression, is to help others. The surgery is a kick start in a good direction, we still often kick ourselves instead of being kind and finding new ways of calming ourselves. Surgery isn't the easy way out, heck losing weight, in general, is difficult and the surgery won't mean a damn if we don't stick to it.
Huge investment in ourselves and we've come too far to backslide. I've been thinking days now about posting this but was not sure how.
I have high functioning autism, am a female 34 years of age and feel this year is my 'coming of age' year. It's been long coming and I've been healed of cutting myself for five years now and walking out daily life new job etc. Now the outside is just matching what was on the inside.
Be yourself, be OK with your 'other' and stay the healthy course get back up even when you fall because plenty are in the same boat.
Keep going You're stronger then you know.

It was an encouraging thing to hear a message from my paster about his own personal weight and gluttony struggles. The message centered around 'do you want to be made whole' the example of many given when we go to the ER or hospital outside there are those with an IV pole, smoking with an oxygen mask. The obvious is they want healing but not wholeness.
He was convicted by God about his weight when various health issues came crashing down on him. He elected to have a gastric bypass done a year ago. None but a few in the congregation knew.
As Jesus said to the man at the pool, 'do you want to be made whole' who'd been sitting there for 38 years. He took up his mat and walked, was made whole.
It takes courage to come forward and admit to this, I struggle myself with gluttony and it is sinful to willfully abuse my body in that way because, in the end, it's not being a good steward of my body, and I'm not able to live fully without being whole in every way.
Potlucks, dinners etc. at church are a thing, and it's an issue that is swept under the rug a lot.
The following are quotes from his notes:
"I know this is an extremely sensitive issue. As a recovering obese man, and I purposely choose this phrase and terminology as it is an addiction, no different than drugs or alcohol. Eating sweet and high-fat foods releases dopamine in your brain, pleasure stimulants."
"A recovering alcoholic should never take the drink any alcoholic drink, a recovering smoker shouldn’t partake of any tobacco product, a recovering gambling addict shouldn’t be buying lottery tickets! I can’t eat Desserts, snack foods etc… It’s certainly permitted in the Bible but I can’t control myself with them. I needed an intervention. As most of you already know, with great conviction, prayer, prompting of the Holy Spirit coupled with the loving support of my family and the leadership of the congregation I elected to undergo Gastric By-Pass surgery a year ago, January 2017. 162 pounds later it's off! But its not over. "
"I’ve had comments such as: “oh, you took the easy way”. First I can tell you that no surgery is easy. Second, I recently, much to my chagrin gained 8 pounds of which I immediately got off. Even though I had the surgery I can gain it back by eating the wrong things. The surgery just kicks started my weight loss, I must continue to exercise daily (a fit bit) and log everything I eat, and I mean everything. "
His wife Barb has been doing low carb, high Protein high veggies some fruit for the last year with him and has lost 60 pounds. She herself is short, but her testimony floored me.
God asked her, 'What will you do when you say here I am Lord send me, and yet you are physically unable to be sent?'
That stuck with me, and in tears, I repented and daily come to God for assistance.
The Bible has a lot to say about taking care of our bodies:
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.
1 Corinthians 9:24-27
It was so encouraging to me that I went to my paster and told him I had the sleeve done in Oct. and he smiled and said congratulations, keep going you look great!
As a couple that leads our church, I admire them for their honesty and commitment to God, themselves their family and us as a congregation they've been entrusted with. They both are servant leaders and I am thankful for them.
I just thought that this would encourage others, for it says in the scriptures that we are to encourage one another with the very thing we've been encouraged with. Hope this helps someone.

Feeling a bit better, some days are up other days are not so up...pic in the middle is the most recent, got a hair trim...I suppose it has something to do with being an autie I feel and experience deeply...Did an old tae bo DVD and don't regret it...I try to keep my options open and my head up...it's a struggle but I'm trying

great inspiration! Went to the gym yesterday and so didn't feel like it. I was on the spin bike for 25 minutes and then I did calenstantic exercises for 10 minutes. Stretched for 10 after all of it. It's was rainy and cold yesterday today it's nice outside but still cold. For today's workout, I cleaned the bathrooms, worked up quite a sweat making them shine! Plus it's satisfying to shower in a clean one afterward.

went to an hour-long spin class and man am I feeling it in my butt...felt like death when I got home had a huge poop, showered and laid down to take 40

(sigh) my antidepressants haven't been metabolizing even after I workout I usually have an afterglow, but it's just 'meh' now...I'm working with my doc on dosage it's a time released antidepressant now I take one in the morning per usual and one midday to try and get up to the 60 mg I was at pre sleeve...I hate this, dragging my butt to the gym and sweating my rear end off, without the high after sucks

ugh, depression is so awful, my meds are being adjusted and it's been painful to even get to the gym, say less get out of bed. I am forcing myself to go, when I usually feel that afterglow for 3 hours after a workout, now it's just one hour. blah, this too will pass.

Often the support we need is limited, I am six-plus months out and am almost out of the 200's but have been finding my 'inner critic' being loud. Enough with that, I am here to say those of you taking the steps for wellness however far you are in it I am proud of you, I don't know your story or struggle but I say 'keep going' the best way to beat depression, is to help others. The surgery is a kick start in a good direction, we still often kick ourselves instead of being kind and finding new ways of calming ourselves. Surgery isn't the easy way out, heck losing weight, in general, is difficult and the surgery won't mean a damn if we don't stick to it.
Huge investment in ourselves and we've come too far to backslide. I've been thinking days now about posting this but was not sure how.
I have high functioning autism, am a female 34 years of age and feel this year is my 'coming of age' year. It's been long coming and I've been healed of cutting myself for five years now and walking out daily life new job etc. Now the outside is just matching what was on the inside.
Be yourself, be OK with your 'other' and stay the healthy course get back up even when you fall because plenty are in the same boat.
Keep going You're stronger then you know.

she is a cockapoo.

I didn't have a 'honeymoon' year one, in all honesty, it's been fighting tooth and nail in this first year. My weight has been in the low 190's high 180s for a long time, 6 months too long. But, we can be our own worst enemy or best ally. I think we are doing a bang up job! Some lose weight quicker than others, I look at it this way. We are slower yes, but it further solidifies good habits in place. I have been moving in a smaller size but same weight direction. Inch loss, so heck to the yes we rock! I rock! If anyone would like accountability please PM me or let's perhaps start a thread or something. I've not been in this size and weight range for 12 years!

A non-weight loss personal goal I had was this Victoria's Secret nightgown I haven't ever fit into this night I finally fit into comfortably without buttons bulging. I'm almost at 199.9, everyone is different and their journeys are as well. But, this did make me smile. Just thought I'd share. Sometimes it's the little things.

I didn't have a 'honeymoon' year one, in all honesty, it's been fighting tooth and nail in this first year. My weight has been in the low 190's high 180s for a long time, 6 months too long. But, we can be our own worst enemy or best ally. I think we are doing a bang up job! Some lose weight quicker than others, I look at it this way. We are slower yes, but it further solidifies good habits in place. I have been moving in a smaller size but same weight direction. Inch loss, so heck to the yes we rock! I rock! If anyone would like accountability please PM me or let's perhaps start a thread or something. I've not been in this size and weight range for 12 years!

Bella passed away this past Friday afternoon at 1:30 PM. She choked on her puppy food as I was watching her eat, I frantically drove to the closest animal hospital and she was limp when I rushed in and asked for help.
They did CPR 4 times and a shot of adrenaline to her heart but was gone.
I was and still am a wreck. She was only 10 weeks old, should have probably stayed with her mom for 3 months looking back.
I did all I could do, and my mental health has taken a nose dive. I'm not sure why things like this happen, but they do.
I did all I possibly could. (I just said that)
Ironically I'm not hungry or even thinking about food at all. I just want Bella back in my arms poop breath and all.
Thank you all for your kind and thoughtful responses I appreciate it. 😢

she is a cockapoo.

Yup, I lead her when I am outside with her, a vest is a good idea. Thanks.

Hey all, I've recently bought a new puppy and my depression and suicidal thoughts are gone! I love Bella so very much. When I wake I take care to watch her every move first thing is Breakfast 1 tablespoon, and Water 1 tablespoon. Then right away I gently coax her outside on our back deck she's pooped a couple of times out on the deck I've left the poops and point to them in an upbeat voice with 'poop outside' when she makes a mess inside poop or pee I don't yell at her I just clean it up without preamble. She knows that I'm not pleased.
My question is how do I get her to use the bathroom outside when it's cold? She shivers and comes back to me, so I hold her and coax her gently say 'poop outside Bella' I am truly trying my best she eats on a schedule 4 times a day right now because she is so small and it's just a tablespoon of water and food. I then will right away take up her food and water when she is done eating.
I will have a job soon, and will have her in a crate in the kitchen I'm not trying to force her into the crate but explore it. Long process, (I don't mind) I might just get baby gates and put them in the kitchen I don't want her to mess inside but will have little choice once I start working. It's not a crazy shift but 7:30 am to 3:30 pm M-F right away coming home and walking her feeding her etc. same as now just with me around less during the day.
Any tips and advice would be great, she'll get it and is getting it. It's just staying consistent and I'm doing all I know to do. 😟

I can tell you from personal experience, the longer he stays - the more you will come to resent him and your relationship and more so the longer you allow him to stay, the harder it will be to get him to leave. You have to set a timeline and make sure he follows through.

Oh, good. I had no idea what to expect regarding needing people to get me things or help me with things after surgery. My mom intends to stay with me the first 3 days, but then she has to go back to work. I keep forgetting there won't be any wounds to clean (I had a breast reduction last year and even though I was in no pain, I needed help with bandaging, etc).
Yeah, he does need to leave... I just can't be that person and kick someone out without them having a place to stay. I wish I was, though. lol. I know it's not "my problem" anymore, but when you're with someone almost 5 years, you still do care. Siiiiigh.

I can completely echo @FluffyChix - Post op, the first day completely home (2 if you include discharge day) - All I did was sleep. When I was awake, I helped myself to Protein Shakes and Bone Broth. I really didn't need anyone with me. And when I got gassy, I went for laps around my street, close to the house in case I felt weak.
As for your breakup, sorry to hear that but as Fluffy noted, better to find out beforehand than afterwards. You need to focus on yours own well being.

My (ex) bf and I have dated for nearly 5 years; he lives with me. The last year of our relationship has been rocky anyway, but ever since I told him I had decided to have gastric he became even more standoffish and argumentative. Two weeks ago we had a huge blowout over something completely idiotic, he comes back to the house, and says he has been acting the way he has because he thinks that once I lose weight I am going to leave him and that's all he can think about.
Mind you... I have not even had the surgery yet. He said I am going to lose weight, gain self-esteem, realize I am too good for him, and leave him.
Well, guess what, pal... I don't need to lose ANY weight to realize I am too good for you. It's been a long time coming, but I think it's even sadder that he is using my choice to get healthier as a justification for being an a*s.
The only thing this does is put me in a rough position as far as someone staying with me while I recover. My mom and stepdad are going to take "shifts" as long as they can, but they both work. And the ex is currently dwelling awkwardly in my basement, but will probably not give me a hand at all. It does make me sad because I had hoped he would be there at the hospital with me... but then all of this BS happens. *insert gigantic eye roll emoji here*
I am okay, though. I need these next 12 months to focus on me and getting healthy and fit and not dealing with unnecessary dramatics and stress. I have always thrived when single and he actually had moved out of the house for a year and it was fantastic. I hate to say it, but I'm looking forward to this new chapter - of not just weight loss, but of being single and free!

10/25 here. Midst stall. Since 7th.

Don't meddle in the affairs of dragons, for you are crunchy, and taste good with catchup!

Same for me. But I'm down 12lbs.

Don't meddle in the affairs of dragons, for you are crunchy, and taste good with catchup!

I did my 1 year check up yesterday. My weight has been the same for 6 months so no real news there, never did reach my goal weight of 220 but gives me something to shoot for this year. All my numbers looked really good, HDL was up from 39 to 56. My A1C was 5.2 normally around 5.9 for the last 5-6 years or so which is pre diabetic. Currently on no meds and BP was 115/70 normally 138/95 on meds. Only thing a little off was my Vitamin D and B-12, still normal but lower then the past. So I guess I will start taking them again, but all in all a good year with good energy looking forward to continuing on with my journey. How is everyone else doing? I know there has to be more then just one first year check up's.

My 11month follow up last week....as much as it went well and was excited to have reached -100 1 month early... they bummed me out by telling me that this was it!!! If I want to loose more I would need bypass .... I’m not done yet .. I still have 70 lbs more to loose . What a day .. I left so bummed. (Was sleeves October 18,2017)
Any thoughts anyone??