First of all, it's a shame that cQQlgirl would make such comments regarding whether or not you're truly a recovering anorexic!!!!! It's unfortuate that many people don't have any education on this subject but choose to question whether or not individuals have really had an eating disorder. Do you think this is a game Tulip is playing? Like she really wants people to think she has or, still has an eating disorder for fun!!!!! cQQlgirl get educated before you make such comments!!! Tulip, I too suffer an eating disorder and have since the 6th grade. I've been in therapy for years, and I'm also in an eating disorder group for anorexics, binge eaters, and bulimics. As you know, they all have the same reasons for beginning. I would recommend trying to find a group in your area that supports eating disorders to help you thru this. I was affraid to tell my group that I was having the surgery for fear of what they would say..............they are supporting me and are ready to be there for me. I totally understand where you're coming from and know that you'll overcome this with help from someone that has knowledge in this matter. Bubblegum