Nyelaah

So this is my latest update, I know I haven't done one in a long time. The picture of me overweight sadly is not even me at my highest (301lbs) , the other one is last night. Sorry classic mirror picture but that's all I can do when I'm by myself and my aunts want updates.

PLEASE tell me I am not the only one who literally gets sad to the point of tears over not having food. I was sleeved 6/3 so am 8 days post op and the past couple days were hard, as to see why my body is healing nicely and I'm not worried about that, I'm worried about not having food. I am in full liquids but so ready for some density or flavor to eat. When I see people eat or food around it makes me sad almost to the point of tears! Your mind is such as strong influence I never realized how much head hunger I have. Oh & food commercials on tv used to be nothing.. Now I'm practically drooling over anything that pops up on tv edible. Yall am I alone?

One of My favs were huevos rancheros made with refried Beans, cheese, egg and green chili.
Another was cottage cheese mixed with Muscle Milk cake batter Protein powder....tastes like cheesecake.
I made a lot of homemade guacomole with avacados, tomatoes, garlic and cilantro.
Split pea Soup and bean with ham Soup (pureed the ham chunks)
pureed tuna fish with a dab of homemade mustard
Deviled ham
Egg salad
Mashed potatoes with unflavored Protein Powder.
Mashed cauliflower with butter and cheese
I also carried over all of my Soups from liquid stage.....cream of spinach, French onion, lobster bisque, cream of asparagus, wonton soup broth, hot and sour broth, vegetable beef, egg drop soup, portobello mushroom, etc. I pureed any with chunks and added powders?utm_source=BariatricPal&utm_medium=Affiliate&utm_campaign=CommentLink" target="_ad" data-id="1" >unjury unflavored Protein Powder.< /p>
Mmmmm.....I loved pureed stage!

So I am in all liquid and 1 meal( low fat meal) diet for preop. The first week I did really well and followed the guidelines then the weekend hit....:-(
I cheated... Yup...I cheated. (Let the good ol' BP gallery of finger pointing begin)
But I realized a few huge things through this weekend.
1. I fucked up--- I am human. I need to build the muscle to not allow head hunger to take over. I am stronger than that! I can and will be able to do what I have to do for my health. Let's work on being the best me for what's left of this.
2. This last week of preop (surgery Friday July 17) will be perfect!! I will not only try my hardest but I WILL follow through and be consistent. Consistency has been one of my issues with weight loss management all my life. This time is different and I can not go back to old habits. I can not allow myself to go back there.
3. This is real. Up until this weekend I don't believe it truly hit me (in my heart of hearts). I was going through the motions and saying/doing all the right things to go through this process, but I don't think it HIT me like it's truly happening. This weekend of cheating truly made me realize that I was just cheating myself and that it needs to stop.
So for anyone that is in preop diet stage and has or is cheating. Don't be hard on yourself. Use this experience as a way to learn about what needs to not happen. After you cheat, I KNOW you have this pain in your belly and it doesn't feel good. So why keep doing it?
You are stronger than food!!
Let's kick ass!!!

So I am in all liquid and 1 meal( low fat meal) diet for preop. The first week I did really well and followed the guidelines then the weekend hit....:-(
I cheated... Yup...I cheated. (Let the good ol' BP gallery of finger pointing begin)
But I realized a few huge things through this weekend.
1. I fucked up--- I am human. I need to build the muscle to not allow head hunger to take over. I am stronger than that! I can and will be able to do what I have to do for my health. Let's work on being the best me for what's left of this.
2. This last week of preop (surgery Friday July 17) will be perfect!! I will not only try my hardest but I WILL follow through and be consistent. Consistency has been one of my issues with weight loss management all my life. This time is different and I can not go back to old habits. I can not allow myself to go back there.
3. This is real. Up until this weekend I don't believe it truly hit me (in my heart of hearts). I was going through the motions and saying/doing all the right things to go through this process, but I don't think it HIT me like it's truly happening. This weekend of cheating truly made me realize that I was just cheating myself and that it needs to stop.
So for anyone that is in preop diet stage and has or is cheating. Don't be hard on yourself. Use this experience as a way to learn about what needs to not happen. After you cheat, I KNOW you have this pain in your belly and it doesn't feel good. So why keep doing it?
You are stronger than food!!
Let's kick ass!!!

chicken broth saved my life during my liquid diet. I know some companies have a savory Protein Soup mix instead of the shakes.
You will look back in a couple of months and know you struggled, but you also know it paid off. You will thank yourself for everything you did. It's funny I went to lunch and ordered steamed veggies and the amount of butter they were in was disgusting. I remember choking down the same veggies 6 months ago and thinking how flavorless these veggies were. Something happened to me. I don't understand it!!

Wow, this is so hard. I am starting Day #3 and I don't even want to get out of bed. It's amazing what a motivator food was/is for me and now it's gone. I am allowed 4 shakes, 2 bars, and a small banana each day for my 14 days. What doesn't help is that I am at the beach with my 14 person extended family and there is junk food everywhere! I knew these two events would coincide but knowing it doesn't make it any easier. Plus, I am a savory/ comfort food girl, not at all into sweets, so these "chocolate" and "vanilla" "shakes" are just icky to me.
Ok, pity party over. Anyone else want to commiserate? It will all be worth it, I know, but this is really hard!!

Hi everybody couldnt help it but im scared at this point its 2 days before my surgery and im filled with so much emotions not scared of the actual surgery ive had surgery done before on my stomach so i know ill have pain but my life after scares me i hope ill be strong enough and resist temptations and get healthy just see it all through all my life till this point i knew that food fixed it all im an emotional eater but food is a big part of the way of life for me and for my family we r eaters i have been told by alot of people around me that oh i couldnt do it thats not helping me at all i cant help but to have second thoughts

I've learned that with the pre-op diet you have to be self disciplined to avoid all possible obstacles, but alas we are only human. It's challenging when you are caring for others. They need to eat, you have to cook and grocery shop. You have to take care of them and any other obligations that you had prior to planning for surgery. I will be honest and say that the first 5 days I did fantastic! Then the weekend and a Girl Scout camping trip hit. I failed a little, but made sure that I made good choices with Protein and low carbs. Monday came and I'm back on target. What's better is that I remind myself that I've lost 16 pounds since the beginning of June. The work pants that I'm wearing today feel a little looser in the thighs, not much but slightly. It's a victory to me that I'll take.
Don't beat yourself up. Set goals and work to achieve them. If you need to view each day as a victory then do it. It takes time to change habits, but you're working on it.

Love your honesty, Nyelah! Thanks for sharing as I have had the same thoughts lately. Finally, after 30 years of failed dieting.....I get it! I am not yet to the preop diet but went on a no carb no sugar diet yesterday getting ready. I have had all the testing done and am scheduled for my Nut and Psych eval on 8/4/15. The surgeon said after those we will be ready to schedule the procedure. I am excited, nervous and scared, but ready for this new chapter in my life. Looking forward to the new thinner and healthier me!!

Take 4 Bariatric Fusion a day. Has EVERYTHING you need. They have different flavors and tastes pretty good.

So I am in all liquid and 1 meal( low fat meal) diet for preop. The first week I did really well and followed the guidelines then the weekend hit....:-(
I cheated... Yup...I cheated. (Let the good ol' BP gallery of finger pointing begin)
But I realized a few huge things through this weekend.
1. I fucked up--- I am human. I need to build the muscle to not allow head hunger to take over. I am stronger than that! I can and will be able to do what I have to do for my health. Let's work on being the best me for what's left of this.
2. This last week of preop (surgery Friday July 17) will be perfect!! I will not only try my hardest but I WILL follow through and be consistent. Consistency has been one of my issues with weight loss management all my life. This time is different and I can not go back to old habits. I can not allow myself to go back there.
3. This is real. Up until this weekend I don't believe it truly hit me (in my heart of hearts). I was going through the motions and saying/doing all the right things to go through this process, but I don't think it HIT me like it's truly happening. This weekend of cheating truly made me realize that I was just cheating myself and that it needs to stop.
So for anyone that is in preop diet stage and has or is cheating. Don't be hard on yourself. Use this experience as a way to learn about what needs to not happen. After you cheat, I KNOW you have this pain in your belly and it doesn't feel good. So why keep doing it?
You are stronger than food!!
Let's kick ass!!!

So I am in all liquid and 1 meal( low fat meal) diet for preop. The first week I did really well and followed the guidelines then the weekend hit....:-(
I cheated... Yup...I cheated. (Let the good ol' BP gallery of finger pointing begin)
But I realized a few huge things through this weekend.
1. I fucked up--- I am human. I need to build the muscle to not allow head hunger to take over. I am stronger than that! I can and will be able to do what I have to do for my health. Let's work on being the best me for what's left of this.
2. This last week of preop (surgery Friday July 17) will be perfect!! I will not only try my hardest but I WILL follow through and be consistent. Consistency has been one of my issues with weight loss management all my life. This time is different and I can not go back to old habits. I can not allow myself to go back there.
3. This is real. Up until this weekend I don't believe it truly hit me (in my heart of hearts). I was going through the motions and saying/doing all the right things to go through this process, but I don't think it HIT me like it's truly happening. This weekend of cheating truly made me realize that I was just cheating myself and that it needs to stop.
So for anyone that is in preop diet stage and has or is cheating. Don't be hard on yourself. Use this experience as a way to learn about what needs to not happen. After you cheat, I KNOW you have this pain in your belly and it doesn't feel good. So why keep doing it?
You are stronger than food!!
Let's kick ass!!!

So I am in all liquid and 1 meal( low fat meal) diet for preop. The first week I did really well and followed the guidelines then the weekend hit....:-(
I cheated... Yup...I cheated. (Let the good ol' BP gallery of finger pointing begin)
But I realized a few huge things through this weekend.
1. I fucked up--- I am human. I need to build the muscle to not allow head hunger to take over. I am stronger than that! I can and will be able to do what I have to do for my health. Let's work on being the best me for what's left of this.
2. This last week of preop (surgery Friday July 17) will be perfect!! I will not only try my hardest but I WILL follow through and be consistent. Consistency has been one of my issues with weight loss management all my life. This time is different and I can not go back to old habits. I can not allow myself to go back there.
3. This is real. Up until this weekend I don't believe it truly hit me (in my heart of hearts). I was going through the motions and saying/doing all the right things to go through this process, but I don't think it HIT me like it's truly happening. This weekend of cheating truly made me realize that I was just cheating myself and that it needs to stop.
So for anyone that is in preop diet stage and has or is cheating. Don't be hard on yourself. Use this experience as a way to learn about what needs to not happen. After you cheat, I KNOW you have this pain in your belly and it doesn't feel good. So why keep doing it?
You are stronger than food!!
Let's kick ass!!!

My weight tracker app decided I should weigh 124.7 based on my height of 5'4", and I hit 124.6 this morning. Figured it was a good enough reason to put on some heels and go Celebrate.

Hello I haven't posted my here but my I'm on my way to have my gastric sleeve surgery this morning. Slightly nervous, but I'm excited. I'm having it at the Marina del Rey hospital here in California. Xoxo thanks for your support

It's tough!! Really tough but we can do it!

I am so terrified of the pre op diet. I tried to just have a protien shake for Breakfast n drink Water until lunch I almost couldn't do it...imagine doing it for 2 weeks... I cant even good luck! Be strong!!

Amen, Sistah! Wishing you all the best as you move forward.

So I am in all liquid and 1 meal( low fat meal) diet for preop. The first week I did really well and followed the guidelines then the weekend hit....:-(
I cheated... Yup...I cheated. (Let the good ol' BP gallery of finger pointing begin)
But I realized a few huge things through this weekend.
1. I fucked up--- I am human. I need to build the muscle to not allow head hunger to take over. I am stronger than that! I can and will be able to do what I have to do for my health. Let's work on being the best me for what's left of this.
2. This last week of preop (surgery Friday July 17) will be perfect!! I will not only try my hardest but I WILL follow through and be consistent. Consistency has been one of my issues with weight loss management all my life. This time is different and I can not go back to old habits. I can not allow myself to go back there.
3. This is real. Up until this weekend I don't believe it truly hit me (in my heart of hearts). I was going through the motions and saying/doing all the right things to go through this process, but I don't think it HIT me like it's truly happening. This weekend of cheating truly made me realize that I was just cheating myself and that it needs to stop.
So for anyone that is in preop diet stage and has or is cheating. Don't be hard on yourself. Use this experience as a way to learn about what needs to not happen. After you cheat, I KNOW you have this pain in your belly and it doesn't feel good. So why keep doing it?
You are stronger than food!!
Let's kick ass!!!

I'm gonna be honest here. I didn't have a pre op diet, and I don't know if I could have done it without cheating either.
I found after I had the surgery, it was easier to stay on track. It's motivating and your sleeve keeps you honest, lol. I mean, if we were known for our great discipline, would we be having surgery?

Well I was on day 5 of my pre-op diet and I fell...I fell hard. I'm scared and mad at the same time. I know I am supposed to be on a liquid diet but DAMN!!! It's so hard. I had 3 french fries and several pieces of steak. I am a failure but I was so hungry.Please give me some tips on how not to fail the next 10 days. I really want to succeed!!! I am so embarrassed.

Today starts my diet. I am very nervous but yet confident that I can do this. My surgery day is July 13 and I can't wait ????

You'll be glad you have those pictures after you get surgery and start losing weight!

I'm having a tough time. Did everything the first week then the weekend came and BOOM
Cheated Fri-Sun. Back at it today and am really resisting urges.