KikiVal315

can i join? i'm not in your area, but i'm in need of support & motivation...badly! my name's krysten, i'm 28, and was banded back in may '08. i was about 20lbs away from goal and got pregnant. now my boy is 2 yrs old and i've been STUCK in the 220's!!! i've been yoyo-ing for the last year!!!! i decided to buckle down this time around, but i can't remember how it worked so well the first time...i forgot that newbie feeling, i need it back

i need help too...PLEASE HELLLLPPPP!!! LOL =) i know i have no one to blame but myself. i've been battling these last 20 pregnancy pounds for the last two years, and once i do (if i do) hit the pre-pregnancy weight i have 20lbs more to go for goal. i feel like i'll never make it! i get my fills done in T.J., the doc is open 1 saturday out of the month, most of the time i have some function i can't back out of so i don't go as often and when i do make it out there, i kid you not every time i go i need to get fluid taken out because my esophagus is irritated...wth?! i'm irritated with being irritated!!!! i currently have 2.0cc in my 4.0 band...i can't get back on track. my time is consumed being a mommy, wife, and work. at times i feel like i got banded for nothing...well not nothing, my ultimate goal was to have a baby, so it wasn't in vain. but i forgot that feeling or spark i had when i got banded...i can't even remember how i lost so much weight, what i did, and most of all i lost my motivation...ugh!!!!

grey goose and cran....i usually dance off the calories while drinking

i know exactly how you feel. my son is now 19months old and im barely now seeing my results. im about 20ish lbs away from where i once was before i got pregnant. when i did get unfilled, I ATE! then he was born and i dont know if it was p.p.d. or the fact that i was FAT again and not pregnant to justify my big belly but oh man did the depression set in. he's our first baby and with getting used to that little extra person, working full time, and running my household...it was/is hard to go away to get fills and to go to the gym. retraining my eating habits is still what i struggle with. you'd think after all this time be pregnancy weight would be gone, and me at goal, but it didnt work out like i planned. now im getting down to business. this isnt funny anymore!!!! you'll do good if you go back to week 1&2 after you first got banded.retrain your eating habits...when your pregnant you just eat everything in sight lol! it helps too if you have a good support system at home. also, i know time is an issue with a baby, but come on here. get your thoughts out. i havent been here in forever and a day and honestly, i think not interacting with other bandsters didnt help any. i would be on here every day for motivation. take it one day at a time. congrats to you and your family on your little one!!! <3

yes...VERY FERTILE...happy momma to a healthy 10month old:blushing: thats reason #1 why i got banded. 8 1/2 months after surgery i found out i was pg; had lost about 80ish pounds. i wish i would have waited so i could have been at a lower weight, but my pregnancy was a breeze, no complications due to being overweight.

oh for sure a 2, and that's because of the shoulder pain. i want to say it took me a good week to get rid of it. i used the thermacare heat pads and walked off the gas ;o)

listen.... I TOTALLY know where you're coming from. when i was more overweight than now, i had found out my sister in law was pg, and at that point in my life i didnt know i has pcos ( i had to self diagnose, thats an even longer story) but anyway: when i found out i cried my head off. here she was this late 30-something year old lady with the mentality of a 16yr old, still living with mommy & daddy, never had real responsiblity, and now pregnant?!?!? i remember calling my mom and asking if i was being punished, i wanted nothing more than to become pg. anything anyone would say just didn;t make me feel better. to top it off, my hubby had said, " we have to help out my sister, and buy here what she needs." inside, i lost it! i thought WTF?!?!?!? this is not our responsibility!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sort of got over it within the coming weeks. and then, she had a miscarriage... god did i feel like the biggest asshole in the world. and i still do when i now see her carrying my little boy. my point is, you'll be a mom soon enough, okay? i waited, saved up my money and got surgery. for whatever reason, you cant get surgery done now, but once you get the ball rolling and once you've dropped the weight, you'll be able to get pg, you'll have the pcos in remission. i've been down that path, i even would get super jealous when i would come on this specific forum and read about other bandsters getting pg... it would drive me flippin' nuts. but what i did eventually come to realize is, soon it will be my time; and it will be yours too.

it's true, you have to do your part. :cool: way back when i started my journey, it took about 4-5 fills for me to get to my sweet spot and have great restriction. you're doing good so far congrats, keep it up, and there will be days when you feel like, why the heck did i get this done? its all for an awesome cause, right...our health. keeping in touch with other bandsters or just to be on here reading, helps in keeping up my motivation. im sure it'll do the same for you:wink2:

:rolleyes2:ugh... you hang in there. i had to get unfilled so im watching what im eating closely. as i type this im in the office eating a chicken ceasar salad and my thin as a rail hubby is in the next room chomping away at a pastrami sandwich & french fries!!!

i need to vent and have some support in a major way. there really is no one in my family that can relate to what i feel or am going through. i do get support from them so that kind of helps. i was banded back in may of '08, had decided on surgery to help with not only my weight but reproductive health issues; my husband and i wanted to start a family. 80lbs later, *poof!* i was pregnant, went from 3.6cc's to 1.5cc's, and DID I EAT!!! before i was unfilled, my doc said as long as i follow my band rules, i shouldnt gain that much weight. while he was saying this, all i can think of in my mind, "i can't wait to eat a big lunch!" needless to say i gained 75lbs during my pregnancy. my son was born just this last november, and had gotten my first fill in march, i was filled to 2.8cc's. i thought that was kind of aggressive, but thought what the hell, i need to hurry back to where i was, afterall, when i lost those 80lbs, i was about 20-30lbs away from goal. I WANTED TO BE BACK TO WHERE I WAS NOW!!! the first week was easy. lost a bit of weight the first month. but then i was stuck, on a plateau, and i don't know why but i started thinking as long as my weight doesnt go past 240lbs i'll eat what i want, when i want. big mistake... i noticed within the comming months i could eat more and i would PB, but after that, i kept on eating. i knew in the back of my mind there was something wrong. so, i just now tried to go back last thursday for my second fill. and no surprise, my pouch has stretched. talk about F A I L U R E. i was super depressed, i can't believe i let this happen, instead of moving forward, im going back, defilled down to 1.8cc's. I AM TERRIFIED of gaining weight, and even more of eating. i have to let 2months go by and to let my esophagus rest, and then see if i can get a tiny fill. like i said im scared of eating while not having the proper restriction i need. so for the time being im taking it one day at a time, and doing the Protein shake thing twice a day, drinking lots of Water, and eating a healthy small dinner. i hit me hard when i realized i depended way too much on my band the second time around. its just difficult going back to my healthy ways. i know it took baby steps to get to where i was, i think i was in denial this time around and fooled myself into thinking i can go back overnight. i feel better now, but without support from the banded community, or at least interacting whith this site, i can't succeed. i used to be on here all the time... that's another thing, squeezing in something i don't have: TIME! im just now figuring out how to put in my 30mins of walking...with an 8month old, geez everything is different. any thoughts, words of motivation would be grat right about now:blushing: thanks for reading.

well...i hadn't been on here for a while. its nice to see you all again and doing wonderfully! i have to get back on my path. i did reach one major lifetime goal, i was able to get pregnant and have my special little guy. i revised my goal to 185 from 150<- i think that used to be it?? when i was weighing 208, i was at a size 16 i was okay with that but i knew that loosing 20-30more lbs was going to be "it" for me. im so jealous of you all!!!! LOL! keep it up!!!! :smile:

when i originally lost my 70ish plus pounds (still had about 20 more to go) i would sometimes wear my spanks, it would depend on if i was wearing something skin tight. of course my goal was/is to be able to wear that without "assistance." i know I WILL need cosmetic surgery for when i hit goal, but i'll have to wait until i'm done having kids...

thanks!! :smile: if i wouldn't have lost weight, i don't think we could have gotten pregnant!

well,right now i can eat almost anything, not that i should! but i remember when i had GREAT restriction i could eat maybe half of a kid's size burger,chew chew chew, and almost all the time i'd be so full i would throw away the fries. even if i did have room, a couple would do. i wouldn't eat like this all the time, only once in a great while. i can't wait to get restriction like this again...