Let's see how many days to go...4 days till next weigh in which I am nervous about. 18 days till birtdhay and 22 days till bandiversary. Not a lot of days but I will do what a girl has to do.
I have to get on the ball. My eating is not what it should be. I'm not going to beat myself up over it because I have less restriction, I have been eating things I normally would not but the novelty is wearing off. I am slowly getting back to slimfast, frozen diet meals and meal planning. I'm also getting back to my exercise. Not full force yet but I will be there this weekend.
Work out now June 20 weigh in will help me better gauge what I am going to do.
Next week slimfast, salad, protein, soup.
JUNE 6 -3 388
JUNE 13 no weigh in tonight(not happy about this) I WILL exercise instead
It's not PMS but I just feel off. I want to cry periodically, I want a hug.....I know I am missing Linda. I feel like a failure.....(psychological examination) my father once told me I did nothing right.....that kinda stuff doesn't go away. It is a shame the stuff we hold on to and just creeps back into our minds. All the shit I forget and this is something that I remember.
Whatever
I ate to much last night....my band is officially missing but I will try to ignore that and continue for another week before I decide to get a fill. My band hides every now and then.
Life Sucks Sometimes ha ha ha ha but God is Good All the Time, I like that
I would just die if I had to get on a scale today.
I can't stop eating.
pop tart 7am
pineapples 3 cubes 8am
peppermint patty 9am
5 crackers w/grd turkey 9:45
pineapples 6 cubes 11am
It is 12 and my stomach is growling.....whyyyyyy.....I want to eat but I know I am not HUNGRY.
That is what today is. I don't want to be here at work but it's going to be ok. I need to reschedule my fill appt because restriction has left the building.:faint: ha ha ha ha I am just tickling myself today.
I'm happy to say I did a 2 mile walk yesterday morning. Around 2:30 I went to the community pool for about 1 1/2 hours. I had a ball even though my daughter just stood in the pool. She had fun also. I kept my feet off the floor majority of the time just working my arms and legs the whole time.
WT*&%*#(@ OK it's not really that serious but I don't like to see the scale go up at all.
Was 372 Now 374
Yes I pigged out after weigh in on a cup of light rocky road ice cream and a piece of cake from Safeway. I thought about jogging in place last night but I didn't. I went to the gym this morning and did 20 min on the treadmill.
Breakfast- home made choc chip cookies (well at least it is one meal at a time)7am
Snack- V8 140calories 10am
Lunch- Salad from Giant 11:45
Dinner- chicken/porknbeans 3:30
Supper -TOPS Christmas Party, string beans, lasagna, salad,greens, truffles, 3 chicken wingettes, jello salad
The weather finally really broke and I feel so much better. I need the sun and warmth. I did 6.4 miles yesterday and going back for more today. WOOOHOOOO!!!!!
Well today is one day away from having to weigh in after 2 whole weeks. It has been driving me ......to eat...not crazy. Yeah I will blame any weight gain on them.
I am exciting and scared to weigh in. I am glad I walked this weekend. 3 miles at Haines Point with Kee was not easy. Thank God for sending one of his angels, a fiesty, older lady who could out walk us decided not to walk with her 2 daughters but with us. She talked and she walked and talked and walked. Finally she decided to leave us near the end but if she had not been with us I would have said Kee I need to slow down and would have. This woman kept our speed up.
Also, everything was going on at the park. There was a triathalon going on, there is a swimming pool down there. There was a 10k training going on and it had to be about 200 people doing that. Then there were the usual walkers and joggers and all of this was going on at 7:30 am.
Sunday morning I knew I had to walk so I text Kee again and she said where. I thought PGCC would be good because the track was resurfaced but then I started thinking about the sun. So I said Watkins Park, which is what she said on Saturday. Then she said well let's walk around Fed Ex Field, you don't know how big that things is but I got to her house got out the car and we were stretching. I said are we going to be in the sun the whole time and she said pretty much. I said let's go to Watkins, I can't do it. After not walking for a few weeks, daily, I was not motivated to walk in the beeming sun, after walking yesterday and know how I was struggling....oh no. We went to Watkins and the trees were just a tall and blocked out ALL the sun. LOL There are 2 spots on the trail that does not have tree coverage and that sun was beaming. 3.4 miles done in comfort. That girl has more energey then a jumping bean.
sat
sm salad, pickle
egg salad
steakum/cheese 1 bread
slurpee med
4 crackers
spoon of peanutbutter
fried egg 1 cheese
few doritos
McD sundae,pie 580 cal
sun
2 fried eggs 2 cheese 1 1/2 sausage
8 M&M's
hamburger/ 1 cheese
Roast Beef
soup
hershey bar w/ almonds
cereal
sundae/pie 580 cal
I'm in a good mood. I'm kinda happy today, I'm not sure why but I feel pretty good. God is Good, sometimes you just have to give a day and you will feel all better the next day.
I cooked some great northern beans with smoked turkey in my new crockpot last night and they are the bomb. Yummmmyy
I am still on my grocery store shopping kick. I may not be able to eat a whole lot be I still keep going to the grocery store. I really need to stop that and it is getting on my nerves.:phanvan
I bought some greens today so of course I am going to fix those when I get home, maybe in the crock pot. LOL I want to eat everything. I want to make a meatloaf with masedpotatoes, baked chicken and mashed potatoes, I want to go to this restaurant that has great chicken wings and cheesesteaks, I want that. I also want lobster, crabs and shrimp, what the..:girl_hug:
I see a commercial I want it, I watch way too much food network. I really love to cook but I don't have enough people to cook for or enough money to keep feeding them. LOL I am tripping today.
I love you guys, thank you for all of your comments and your encouragement.
I am blessed by each one of you. :iloveuall:Thanks for allowing me into your journals. I learns something from each one that I read but mostly "I am not alone". We all go through the same struggles and we need each other. It is amazing how much love you can receive from a bunch of strangers LOL. Sincere Strangers LOL:p :huggie:
I thrive off of other people so you guys really keep me going.:humble:
First day at the gym. WOOHOO I'm so happy. I didn't do much but it was a start. Elliptical for a minute, treadmill for 1/2 mile, lap pull down machine and quad lift machine. I hope to go back at lunch time.
I LOVE IT!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THE GYM EVERYDAY!!!!!:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :faint: I'M GOING WALKING TOMORROW MORNING AND BACK TO THE GYM ALSO!!!! I really need to get an ipod so I can have the music I want.
I'm here. I have not walked in weeks and feeling guilty. I have moved and some of the move itself and daily up and down the stairs has to account for some type of exercise. I feel like I have lost something.
I finally made an appt to back to the cardiologist because of some issues. I got an emergency appt for tomorrow. I will call my doctor today but I don't think I will go see her because what can she do but take my pressure maybe order a scan but that would not be done before tomorrow. Like I said I will call.
Here are the issues.
The imfamous wheez I heard Monday night
Twitching of my left eye
Headach
Have not be taking my HB meds daily
I have been feeling off balance
I have walked down the hall and felt slightly dizzy or light headed
I feel like I can't walk as far anymore
Once I see the cardiologist I will get back to walking. I am sure I will be scheduled for my stress test.
I am at 371 thank God, after gaining 4 pounds two weeks in a row is a real downer. I knew I did not gain all that weight in that amount of time. So I have lost 10 pounds in 1 week....the body has a serious sense of humor and I was not laughing. Ok my goals seem more attainable now.
Somebody is going to think I am crazy but I went to Bed Bath and Beyond for the first time yesterday. I wish I could have seen the look at my face when I walked in. I was shocked that it was a real store and I just kept looking up. I thought is was going to be like Ross or you know not a very organized store. Now that I think about it, I have been in the one in Waldorf. This one was just in a smaller space so everything went up. You should have seen me looking up at the stuff on all the shelves. LOL :biggrin1: Anyhow, I was looking for a candle and they were so expensive so a sales lady helped me. Showed me some holders and I found one for 99 cents :nervous ha ha . Also some voltives so I bought diffrent fragarances as a sampler. I go next do to a craft store to get a gift bag and they had big candles sitting at the door very inexpensive. LOL again. I decided to keep what I had because they were "yankee candles" ha ha a name brand. I'm silly but it was fun. I want to go back to BB and B. I am just rambling on. With all my running around for about an hour gas station, Trader Joes, BB and B, craft store, did I say I stopped in Payless LOL. That dag on Payless only went up to an 11, I guess I have to go to big feet land and find my shoes. Anyhow, I wish I had the funds to just shop like crazy. Oh wow, I wrote down everything I spent yesterday and that was so cool. Budgets man!!:sick
It'ssssssss Friiiiiiiidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Woooohoooooo
I'm not eating right today
kill me
cini minis BK
sausage/egg/cheese croissant BK
small bag chips
orange soda
almond snickers
tea
kill me please
I will exercise today and lick stamps for dinner
I am now at 380, I am so thankful that the numbers are still going down even though I have not exercised but those stairs are a workout. I hope to get back to exercising this week because me and my child need it. 350 is so close.
Had a pain in the right side of my chest yesterday from about 3:30-7:00. Then it just felt like pull twinge. It did scare me and was concerned I would have to go to the ER. I layed in bed for an hour or so. I can't find my blood pressure monitor I recently bought. Once the pain went away I started feeling like myself and going up and down the stairs, cleaning up and getting ready for today.
Last night I didn't think I would be able to go to work today but I felt fine when I got up and here I am. I do have an appointment for an echo today. I will call and make another appt with my primary doctor so I can get some blood work done. Ok Done appt for Monday.
I have lovely restriction this morning. I took my meds around 7 and spit for about 15 minutes. Now I have hot oatmeal and that is not going down. I will stop eating now. I have grape juice after the sliming stops and my band opens a little. Also, have trail mix.
Yesterday, I was a slow eating pig. 4 nuggets, 1/2 double cheeseburger 1 bun, insides of a meat burrito. Dinner was greens, bite of baked chicken, scalloped potatoes (which go down very well).
I lost a pound...whewwww I feel better now. I will not be eating like last week. I am going to try and take it slow and not let things stress me so I eat everything in sight.