happymama2014

Hope you had a smooth journey!

I'm going to ask my dr about that ... That scared me since I already struggle with depression:(

Nov 6 here! This is really happening !

Nov 6 for me! Scared but kinda numb still!

I'm in love with the Syntrax caribean Cooler it's pineapple coconut goodness . Haven't found sample of apple yet but hope to! Wonderful to have over ice! Very light and refreshing!

I see several posts about shakers etc. those were not for the hospital right ?i assume all the nutrition u need while in hospital they would provide. But do they let you plug your stuff in? Cell phone etc?

How cool ! You are right not many would understand but I sure do! I have lost weight on my own many times but have not successfully gotten under 200 since before my son was born. 10 years now ! Praying 2015 is my year to really shine! Surgery date is 11-6-14

I'm happy to see some sleevers to keep up in Nov. I still needy sublingual b and VIT d I had wrong ones at last visit:( just post op diet class left . Is everyone getting ready?

I'm Nov 6. Hope you get your date! I'm soooo ready!

That is sooooo awesome! Zip lining is one of the things my son keeps asking me to do and I do not tell him its because I'm over the weight limit I just say that he has to be older to do it alone which is true. God I cannot wait until my life changes and I can go zip lining with my lil man. That will be a remarkable day!!

Im a Kaiser peep, using the South Sac location. My surgery date was changed from 10/2 to 11/6 due some health issues. But Im clear to go now and just have one last dr appointment for my post op diet class. Is anyone else in November or have kaiser? I had lots of peeps on my October list but now I have a new date and would love to have some others to follow along with and share our journeys..

@codysmom - Thanks. I plan to live the next part of my life the way I was intended to live! You are two weeks out now...How are you feeling? Doing?

Ok, so I have made the decision to have this life changing body altering surgery. I have very mixed feelings from my few friends and family that know. Only two people FULLY support the decision, neither of whom are people that I see very often but we can communicate via text and email. Recently I heard from two people.. “ Since your already losing weight now, why can you just continue?” and “I just wish you could do this on your own, are you sure you cant?”. I’m tired of trying to explain to people why I am making my choice. Then I thought I should write it down and then it will help me to remember why and what feelings and loss of living lead me to this choice. So this is mainly just for me to look back and see what all I missed out on in life and what I don’t want to miss out on in the future. For many years I made up excuses or ailments or reasons to say no to and not go to........work ,interviews for new jobs, invitations to go out with friends, work events, church events, church services, birthday parties, engagement parties, anniversary parties, Halloween parties. I turned down dates with men, invitations for sex, lunch dates, girls nights, girls weekend, family gatherings, school reunions, getting together with old friends, boating, camping, swimming, hiking, zip lining, riding rides at the amusement park, horseback riding, weddings, funerals. I convinced my son we didn’t want to go do lots of things that he wanted to do because I was afraid I couldn’t fit, would break something, couldn’t handle the walk, couldn’t handle the standing or I’d be over the weight limit. If he knew how much he missed out on because of my being overweight I’m sure he would be very sad. I am sad about it. For 15-20 years now I would put my head down in shame and try to hide when I would see an old classmate or friend and pray they wouldn’t recognize me and want to talk to me. I am tired of hearing what a “pretty face” I have, the pretty fat girl. People don’t want to set me up with men they know. I don’t stand up for myself at work and people think Im stupid because I have no self confidence. I don’t do my hair and I rarely wear make up, what’s the point, I wanted to be invisible. I wear almost the same things all the time, I hate clothes shopping, shoe shopping, bra shopping so I wear a few things over and over until they are gone. I have nothing that is stylish, I don’t want to draw attention to myself. Im afraid to wear high heels because they will break, cant find shoes that fit, almost never find boots to fit my calves. I am always afraid to sit in a booth, that my stomach will be squished, Im afraid to sit on plastic outdoor chairs at events or people’s homes, I actually broke one a few years ago that was humiliating. I’m afraid to fly because its so tight! I barely fit in the go kart rides with my son at the outdoor fun park, I am too heavy for the waterslides at our Water park. I have a bad hip, I have rolled my ankles several times, I have had cortisone in my shoulder, elbow, hip. I have high cholesterol, pre diabetic, fatty liver, bad back, bad hip. I’ve never been married, I missed out on having the last 20 years with the love of my life because I didn’t love me. Do I think this surgery will change all of that for me? No, I'm realistic. But I do believe I will feel better about myself and I will want to show off my progress and I will have a body that I can work with and make stronger and be proud of. I will be physically able to do so much more and not be afraid to do and try things. I can’t wait for the day when I don’t have to make up a reason why I can’t go ziplining or ride an amusement ride with my son. It’s gonna be a great year next year when I am able to be the person I once was adn have longed to be for the last half off my life. Cant wait to feel, smaller, stronger, sexier, smarter and be selfassured and confident. I want to go out and LIVE life not sit inside and HIDE anymore.

I am November 6th...I just have a few last minute things to get on payday this week and then Im done. Vitamins, Protein shakes, shopping lists for post op, gown for the hospital, bed pillow, slip on tennis shoes. Is it lame that I want to hire someone to clean my house spotless before my surgery so that I can enjoy myself for the weeks Im home after? I already budgeted for a housekeeper, for a hairsalon appointment, pedicure and massage. A last full day for me before I go in for my NEW self surgery. Im only taking off 12 work days and that gives me 18 days from surgery to the office. But the week I go back we only work for 2 days then its the holday vacation so I will basically be getting 3-4 weeks off to recover. Im super excited for what the next year will bring. 2015 will be a new life for me and my son. AMEN!

I suffer from anxiety and depression also and its hard to explain sometimes. I was feeling almost surreal like I was in a dream. I wasnt super excited or super down it was just like this is finally gonna happen and my life will finally be forever changed....WOW.

That was exactly what I was feeling and I have specific Vitamin requirements through Kaiser, couldnt find everything, had a small health scare then had a small meltdown. Decided there was WAY to much going on to get my surgery 10/2 so I changed it to 11/6. Now I wish I had not changed it, that last week has gone by so SLOW...but I do have one month to finish up things. I need to get my house in order, will updated, life insurance in order, a few more supplements, a few more Protein shakes and 2 more Vitamins. I have plenty of clothes I just need to get out what will be comfy enough to come home in and walk around the hospital...I lost my mind when I was 2 weeks out. I am hoping for more peace this time:)

Im getting a short spiky cut to hide it for the first year. This is the one I'm thinking of:)

Well after a few weeks of being totally overwhelmed I changed my date from oct 2 to nov 6 so now I'm not even an oct sleever:(

So I made it to my last appointment. The NUT required us to bring our Vitamins in. The first thing she does is look to see if we have it all and sure enough I had two of the wrong things. (Kaisers list is specific and extensive). I have spent hours and lots of $$ and made so many trips to diff places looking for the right stuff...I felt like such an idiot. I just fell apart. If I'm to stupid to figure out the pills they want me to buy how am I going to do this. I've emailed the NUT several times asking questions and I asked about the ones specific for bariatric patients and they said no. I left in tears I felt like such a failure! I was so upset I could not continue with the class. My last visit had just been wasted and I knew I had to reschedule. The NUT says maybe you should talk to the psychologist about your feelings. I was mortified! I just don't know how to get it right I changed my surgery date now from Oct 2 to Nov 6 so I can try to get myself together. I sure wish the NUT had more heart instead of saying " I have people doing it everyday " it can't be that hard:( Now my surgery isn't happening as planned because I've lost my confidence.

I did finally figure it out but I don't see any of you guys in the group? I went to forums and it says browse at top I chose to browse by name then gastric sleeve then 2014 sleevers then. Oct 2014.. None of our posts are in there so I still don't know my way around here but if you subscribe to it then you will see new posts;)

Tomorrow is my post op nutrition class (kaiser is thorough), last visit with surgeon, then MRI of my liver (again) ... Hard to be excited right now because I'm worried about that. I need a good outcome tomorrow so I can move forward knowing I'm healthy. Prayers!

I'm going through the same feelings . I am a single mom so I worry about what ifs??

Does anyone know how to create a group? I'd like to have one with oct people!!!

Kaiser says 1-3 days..

My dr doesn't want me to take the liquid MULTI I found specific to bariatric patients she says they font have enough of some things and other additives she doesn't like. But I may take them just the first week to get vitamins in because it just a liquid and it has calcium and protein in it too.. Found those on (celebrate vitamins) they call it ENS I think.