j_war06

I got fired from my full-time, good job...now Im back substituting little HEATHENS! I swear, people do not raise their kids anymore!! Im scared half to death that Im going to run into some problems because just Wednesday I was walking into a building and walked right between to large boys as tall as me (Im a shorty lol)....trying to fight...I had to get myself and my class out of the way (well both boys were my students that day actually)....but I was really scared of getting punched in the stomach or knocked down....but I REALLY cant handle doing the little kids, they really rack my brains (that crap they do is only cute when they are family :tongue2:) I get so stressed out subbing, mainly because I dont want to be there most of the time...its easy, and atleast minimum wage...good hours...but I really dont like other people's kids....never have...but its the only place that will let me work right now.... BTW: I went to the chiropractor today...and I have a slipped disc or something in my lower back, and judging by the Dr's face and amount of pushing it was slipped WAY out...he said that when you get pretty far along then your body begins to lube up its joints and stuff and thats what caused it to slip....and I have to go back 3 times next week....but OOOOOOOooohhhh they put me on this massage rolling table for like 30 mins and I want one for personal use lol! I could sleep on that thing every night :drool: The baby liked it too because she has been REALLY active lately (which I have been thankful for), but after a few mins on the table she and I both were asleep lol...My back feels so much better, its still sore and achy, but the dr pulled out the "knife" that i swore was stabbed into my back.... Im hoping to be more mobile this afternoon and tomorrow...I have to take it easy, but Im tired of this damn recliner lol

I got the green light to go to the chiropractor, but it was so late I cant go until tomorrow...which means I have to miss another freakin day of work!!! Im broke and need the money lol!! doesnt my body understand that?? congrats on the scheduled c-section,

Anybody else have REALLY bad back problems....like crippling back pain and stiffness??? I threw my back out this morning, and I had to miss a day of work because I couldnt even go to the bathroom without help this morning...Im going to go to the chiropractor either today or tomorrow, but this is the 3rd time or so during the pregnancy that my back has gotten REALLY bad, and this is the worst instance yet....even my mom feels sorry for me, and she has no sympathy for anyone lol!

The thing that concerned me about the blood was the amount of it, it scared me half to death, because at first I thought it was coming from my vagina, after a careful check I realized the culprit lol! I havent had any other bouts with it, or any other problems, Im pretty regular so Im not too concerned unless it happens again, however it still freaked me out lol!

Hello ladies! Just wanted to inform all of you that I woke up freakin pregnant last week lol! I feel like a freakin house! But atleast I feel better without all the people asking if Im eating enough, or if the band is causing problems with the baby and all that....HOWEVER Im still not at my pre-band weight (which is good, I dont mind being that big again because of the pregnancy, but the longer I can hold back the better :biggrin:) It was so weird, I woke up and couldnt get into anything but maternity pants and bigger tops, then I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror lol! My rolls had turned into a gut, it was quiet funny actually. I went to the Dr. Thursday for my routine visit, and explained to her that I hadnt been feeling the baby move as often as I thought I should. So she took out the doppler thingy and put it on my belly to listen to the hearbeat and to check for frequent movement, and OFCOURSE the baby had to show out for her. She came alive in there lol! You could SEE my tummy going up and down where she was moving....needless to say, I think my Dr thinks Im crazy! Also, this is a gross TMI Q but I wanted to know, have any of you had a bloody stool? I had a problem with that a week ago, and everyone told me it would be okay. I didnt feel sick or anything, the sight of the blood and stress of it made me a little queasy, but other than that I was cool. Candice, Im so sori that everyone is stressing you out...I think thats why Ive become such a hermit (for some reason, when people known a pregnant woman they become pregnancy experts lol)....that and my devotion to my school work. Turn the phone on silent, thats what I do hehe, chek it ever so often. Im just praying that Im somewhere close to on time with mine because my mom carried over with older sister like 18 days, and carried over with me 23! Im just hoping its not a genetic thing lol! But eventually the baby will come...my poor friend almost had her baby boy too early so they stopped her labor and put her on bedrest, then the baby came a whole week LATE, that poor dear, she thought it would never be over. Hope you finally get that precious baby out soon so you can hug and kiss him/her. Best of luck (know your probably tired of hearing that kind of stuff, but you need all the luck you can get right now lol To the newly pregnant ladies, congrats and hope you have a good pregnancy, dont worry about the band so much...its actually pretty nifty even during pregnancy :biggrin:

I still wear mostly regular clothes vs maternity (mainly because maternity pants are either too big or too small) right now. Im sure that I will have to get into more maternity pretty soon (right now I only have 2 pairs of maternity pants which are TOO TOO big, but the size down is WAY too small. As for tops, if I see a nice maternity shirt that I like, I buy it;otherwise I just buy bigger size tops to save money. Im a penny-pinching fool right now lol! Plus I hate buying new clothes that I know I can only wear for like 3-4 months. As for my port, it does protrude badly...but everyone thinks its kinda neat/weird at the same time lol! Mine is in an unusual place, so no one thinks its the baby, however it is a neat little "Hey feel this!" thing lol! Oh BTW: I have found that maternity is SOOOOO much more comfy than regular mainly because of the lack of button digging into my belly lol!

LOL I thought I would let you know that it bothers me too! BADLY! Ive always been heavy, but Ive always dressed for my body to look as kept and presentable as anyone else. I hate it when people dont know how to dress their bodies (whether they are thin or bigger)! Dont the bigger people know that dressing like that makes the world (who is already biased against us) give us more reason to poke fun and stereotype us as gross and nasty and lazy and so forth and so on?? Even my maternity clothes are REALLY cute, I wont wear anything that even so much hints to a hill, valley, dimple, or chunk of unwanted fat! Yes I like to be comfy (especially during pregnancy), but there are ways to do that without looking like a slob!

I would sue or take further action, but a.) I cant afford it because well...I lost my job lol! b.) I cant prove it because all sources have their mouths shut because they dont want to lose their jobs.' c.) I just really think that she and the company will get whats coming to them in the long run, I just dont have time for stupidity.... I really try to think happy thoughts most of the time, but Im not gonna lie and say I am happy 24/7. I actually sat down this weekend and just spent it alone (i usually spend it with friends) and just let myself have a really good cry. P.S. Of all organizations to do this to someone, it happens to be Christus Health Organization.....so yeah, not a very christian thing to do now is it?

Thanks for the good wishes The only reason I did say that about people believing that abortion is the answer to unplanned pregnancy is because when I first told people on here I got a couple of responses along the line of "you should just get rid of it" and so forth as well as telling me to just either have an abortion or give the baby up for adoption, neither of which were ever an option in my own mind. However, adoption is GREAT and I plan on adopting children in the future, Ive ALWAYS wanted to adopt (from the United States) because I feel like our orphans are often overlooked and neglected by people because of money and it is hard to get a baby baby here, I wouldnt mind adopting older children. Anyways, thats a whole different subject....however I was just explaining my post

Im due on Cinco de Mayo (May 5), but Im doubting that I it will be that early lol!! Im pretty sure Im going to carry-over, I just have a feeling. The only concern Im having right now is the normal stress of pregnancy, and the fact that Im not feeling little "folly" move around inside me as much as the doctor says I should, but we are going to do an ultrasound the 31st and the doctor is going to make sure everything is as okay as it appears, and also to show me her move and learn to identify the moving vs. other things like gas and stuff. Besides that I lost my job because my boss found out I was pregnant She didnt say thats what it was, but it has gotten back to me from more than one reliable source that that was the reason, which I suspected all along because of the unusual way she let me go (just out of nowhere, no warning or anything). Im having to deal with that PLUS the fact that no one wants to hire someone that is 6 months pregnant and almost done with college and preparing to move on into a real career vs just a job. (Its a small town, they expect their employees to stay for a looooooong time). Not to mention that the father's girlfriend is driving me INSANE because she is psychotic and really not the brightest crayon in the box. LOL! But things will get better right???? They have to dont they??

I had an unfill at about 4 months into my pregnancy, I waited until I knew I needed to be taking in more food before I got it done because Im trying to only gain a decent amount of weight, not a tub load lol!

I know this is irrelevant, and Ive promised to keep myself out of this and other rants and raves discussions (many of you know why). However, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am now 6 months along, and although this whole thing wasnt planned; and yes I hate it, but I admit I have thought of what my life would be like if I had had an abortion, I am truly happier than I have ever been in my entire life. Im so much stronger, responsible, mature, and confident than I was pre-pregnancy. Just thought I would throw that out there. That abortion isnt the answer for every soon-to-be single-mother (I know most of you dont believe that it is, but for the few that do). Im proud and happy with my decision, I know its not easy, but I feel like I have made the right one as opposed to my ex-roomate who now has to go to counseling because of the abortion she had, its been that rough on her. She will barely even speak to me, because I chose to keep my baby girl and she didnt keep her baby. She admits to over-reacting, but what is done is done, but she just cant get that through her mind right now. Anyways, just thought I would put this out there

Hi everyone, I just wanted to pop in and tell everyone hi. Its been a while since Ive been on. Ive been extremely busy, and have had to deal with a lot (and I mean A LOT) of B.S. the past month. Im just trying to make it through without getting overly stressed out. Im 6 months pregnant ALREADY! Jeez how time flies! Ive only gained about 20 lbs, but Im sure that it will increase, it seems like the further I get into the pregnancy the more I want to eat! lol! Im serious, I will be STARVING sometimes. Im trying to watch it though, dont want to have to OVER work after the baby gets here. I hope everyone is doing well, and good luck, I know some of you are probably pretty close to having those bundles of joy!

OMG! Im so Excited! I just found out Monday that despite all the predictions of me having a little boy, that its a GIRL!!!!! I want a girl so bad! Hopefully she doesnt grow any,ummmm parts between now and May! LOL

HAHAHA thats funny! Some emo guys are hot, well until you get to their waist and realize that they wear the exact same jeans as you! lol! If I wanted a man in women's clothing and eyeliner I would date a drag queen!! Too funny!

A.) I posted the above quoted statement to prove that Im not suicidal anymore. B.) I changed my signature so it changed on all my old posts C.)Ive been banded for 2 years, but I would rather talk in the off-topic area because I get tired of the SOS about constantly talking about being banded, theres really not that much to talk about. D.) Ive seen ONE Hannibal movie years ago E.) Ive never heard multiple voices, having any form of bi-polarism doesnt make give MPD

What are you trying to prove here? The comment about the black men in my life was not relevant to that discussion, nor was important. Nor was I willing to discuss my past issues with this board.

I was talking about my close friends. My regular friends that I have known most of my life, but since we all dont live in the same town anymore we dont get to see each other, are more diverse. In Corpus most of my friends were gay and not black. But from my hometown some of my black friends that are girls are lesbians, yes. I have multiple categories of people I have met. 1. Best friends = one gay one straight 2. Close Friends= mostly gay, a few straight 3. Friends=very diverse 4.Acquaintances(sp?)=more diverse 5. People that I dont like=diverse

I didnt have a lot of symptoms, just a lot of cysts. I cant remember exactly what all she said, I dont think she told me one way or the other. She was almost as speechless as I was lol! She couldnt believe it at all!

I really need to schedule an appt with her, but I need to get paid first lol! I have a decent check coming next week, Ill probably drive up there to see her if she has an open appt. I have a few things to talk to her about anyway.

I made all As in American History, would you like a copy of my transcript? "No Child Left Behind" is killing our school system here. My town's school district was just deemed "unacceptable" by the state. Im not quite sure what's going on, but what has been reported (and I swear this was in the newspaper and the reports Ive seen) is that the african american and hispanic students are MAINLY the ones messing with the statistics. NOW I know for a fact that many white children are having problems passing it as well here, but under their study the MAJORITY is the black and hispanic students. I work for the school district, but I work with young kids...what I have noticed however is that the curriculum is not the same as it was when I was in school at that age. We were doing much more difficult work and using more creativity and having a lot more hands on experiences. These kids now are not learning because they are bored (from what I have observed). I don't know what the solution is, but something needs to be done. Kids are dropping out of high school because they are afraid of the TAKS test and doing everything right except passing the test and being embarassed of not walking the stage. I know that a group of like 4 girls dropped out my senior year 2 weeks before graduation. They couldnt walk because they refused to or couldnt pass the TAKS test. I myself thought it was REALLY freakin easy...but I had a lot of terrific educators growing up...a lot of the teachers now are teaching WAY below the comprehensive ability of their students, I think thats part of the problem. I just know that its ridiculous for these students, any of them, to repeatedly fail a test over basic procedures.

Im not crazy. I was a barfly because I like bars. Its just that simple. I like to hang out in bars and play pool and throw darts, and talk to some of the most interesting people ever. I love being a fag hag btw. I like to date around, I dont like being stuck with one man right now, and now I know why, because men that I meet are jerks! I dated several men, that doesnt mean that I screwed them or did anything else with them besides go to dinner and have a good time and great conversation. I like to keep my options open.

And since I have quit drinking my episodes are far and few between, and are much more managable now that Im sober 24/7.

LOL IDK? I really dont know that much except what my therapist tells me and what I have experienced personally. I didnt get the Prozac from from my therapist, I got it from my OBGYN./

Im on Prozac right now because Im pregnant...I WAS on Seroquel, and asked to be switched to something else. I was switched to Abilify paired with Trazadone for sleep. When I found out I was pregnant I had to stop that medication and start Prozac for the duration of my pregnancy