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I guess this is a rant over not knowing who I am...
In the last couple days I have became so angry and short with others and find myself just tired of people. This is so not like me. I even told off a respected professor yesterday because of the stress... and tired of the college saying one thing and then requiring something else. Is this the diet? Lack of something? The new me? I find myself speaking up when normally I would be quiet.. Normally when I am pushed I would find comfort I guess in eating and shopping which I can't do either...
If this is the new me, how do I reform my relationships? I can't be always saying sorry for my actions when I feel like maybe this is a form of the new me.

I had my blood drawn today... One poke.. First time ever, smaller arms easier draw! So wonderful

I had my blood drawn today... One poke.. First time ever, smaller arms easier draw! So wonderful

I know this is an older post but wanted to share I am getting closer to goal each and everyday. Total lost 125 and 50 to go and I will be excited! The summer was great and I did make it about me and my kids focusing on weight loss and diet learning so much about myself!
Hope your journey is going well even after your year date!

I had my blood drawn today... One poke.. First time ever, smaller arms easier draw! So wonderful

I totally understand the still thinking like your heavy. I am a teacher and I am always walking around the room afraid to go between the desk thinking I will not fit through. Or I have the same issue with working out or even goofing off that everyone is watching that fat lady try to do something she shouldn't do. I am building up courage to jump on the trampoline. I did have the most amazing thing happen my husband lifted me off the ground to crack my back.. Last time I was picked up was 27 years ago.

I agree wicked beauty weirdest feeling. I saw Dr. Today for 3 month check up received encouraging news that I am 5-10 pounds ahead of schedule! Yea me!! Plus talked about pushing myself more in exercise just to find my limits. He wants me to be able to see the changes my body has made and learn my own abilities. I am so afraid to hurt myself. How strong am I? What can I do? So tonight I tried to push some and didn't hit it... 6 miles walking on bike path and could still go..even was walking at a pretty good pace! Will see in morning how my knees handle it...before surgery I could not handle 1 mile on treadmill. Wow!!!! I am going to try treadmill tomorrow...

Ok 3 months tomorrow. It feels like I have always been doing this lifestyle then it also feels like just a new thing. I have good days and bad days depending on my stomach! I can say I have head cravings then know there is no way to fulfill the desires for certain foods. So makes me not want to eat anything.
My biggest issues has been how to handle other people and their reactions. I am more self aware now then when I was at my heaviest! I hate "how much have you loss?" Or even "you look so good"
Missing my clothes is also a huge issue.
Drinking my Water ugh!! I hate water!!
But for milestones: 95 pounds since start of journey in sept. 2013
HW 347
SW 305 April 28,2014
CW 252
Loss of 53 since surgery.
Size 30 to size 18-20. Smallest I have been in 20 years.
Swimming at least 3 times a week and walking.. Oh my new love of walking!!!
I have had 2 stalls but I don't think of them as stalls I think of them as my body readjusting to the weight loss.
I have lost over 50 inches all over my body.
What a first quarter of this year! I believe I have scored big! I wanted to be further ahead but I will take the lead and keep running the race toward the prize of health and less pain and final hernia surgery!!! Never lose sight of the goals!!!

Amylif2 I agree a new body is hard to dress. I have at least 100 pounds to go. I think the problem is I haven't been this size in 15 years so learning to dress a body I haven't seen or felt like now as a 37 year old is different. And to be honest I haven't been below a size 22 since high school the smallest I ever remember being in my life was a size 16-18 at 200 pounds at the age of 13. My goal is 175-160.
My size and weight are so different after surgery, 3 kids and just life... I am shocked a little about the sizes 275- size 22.. Before I thought I was 250- size 22...
I understand everything is just numbers and only one way to measure this process..
I will say I enjoy getting my life back.. I can't imagine what more things I am going to experience as my body changes...
Just this weekend alone I rode a bike not far but first time in 25 years... I got on a Water trampoline and was strong enough to move my body around on and off!!!! My kids were so excited!!
That is my largest goal, I want my 15,13,10 year old to meet the woman I was and the new me as I enjoying living...

Amylif2 I agree a new body is hard to dress. I have at least 100 pounds to go. I think the problem is I haven't been this size in 15 years so learning to dress a body I haven't seen or felt like now as a 37 year old is different. And to be honest I haven't been below a size 22 since high school the smallest I ever remember being in my life was a size 16-18 at 200 pounds at the age of 13. My goal is 175-160.
My size and weight are so different after surgery, 3 kids and just life... I am shocked a little about the sizes 275- size 22.. Before I thought I was 250- size 22...
I understand everything is just numbers and only one way to measure this process..
I will say I enjoy getting my life back.. I can't imagine what more things I am going to experience as my body changes...
Just this weekend alone I rode a bike not far but first time in 25 years... I got on a Water trampoline and was strong enough to move my body around on and off!!!! My kids were so excited!!
That is my largest goal, I want my 15,13,10 year old to meet the woman I was and the new me as I enjoying living...

Ok 4 weeks today since surgery. 30 pounds gone after surgery, 72 lbs gone since beginning of journey.
I know we talk about all the food issues but I am struggling with clothing issues... I miss my clothes. I know sounds weird at least to my family.. But it was my comfort.. My whole closet is gone. All my dress clothing I worked so hard to find that I looked good in... All my comfortable clothes... I miss my jeans, bras, underwear... It is all gone... I started purchasing clothes but before I can break them in I am shrinking out of them...
Don't get me wrong I love being 5 sizes smaller I love the new eating habits and how things fit and don't hurt but, I can't get dressed without going through 3-4 outfits.. And then still being worried how it looks...
Anyone else mourning clothes?

I again want to thank everyone who is taking their time to comment. I plan on going out a lot more now that I am feeling more normal. I will use these tips to help me stay on track! Everyone's advice has been read and considered and is so valuable!
I plan in cleaning out my van today and getting a nice container to pack all my goodies in!!

Thank you guys so much for all the responses and ideas!!
I am so blessed to know I am not alone in this and there are others who have to consider and plan ahead just like me!!!
I just returned from a rehearsal dinner where I took my Protein Shake and asked for a wine glass poured it in it and sat and sipped it and Water while everyone else ate their meals.
I am so proud of myself!! Sitting there with dignity about the choices I have made.

I am only 10 days post-op from a Gastric
Bypass. So on a full liquid diet now.
Yesterday I went out to get my eye checked I brought with me my Protein Shake to last for two meals and my Water.
I ended up out longer than I thought and shake got warm and gross and I didn't want it.
So at first got upset then thought ok I can run to grocery store and get a yogurt. While at giant Eagle I saw they had homemade chicken noodle Soup and decided to skip yogurt and buy just the broth from the soup. I was double proud of myself for sticking to my plan and also having the courage to stand there and ladle out just the broth and proudly walk to counter and buy it.
I was wondering if you leave home and forget food what or where do you turn to find food?

That's great news wicked beauty! Glad to see you are doing well! I go Weds for first check up and to be honest I am ready for soft foods I am tired of soups!
I have had no problems eating or drinking. I think soft foods will bring more of a challenge to get everything in.

I again want to thank everyone who is taking their time to comment. I plan on going out a lot more now that I am feeling more normal. I will use these tips to help me stay on track! Everyone's advice has been read and considered and is so valuable!
I plan in cleaning out my van today and getting a nice container to pack all my goodies in!!

I am only 10 days post-op from a Gastric
Bypass. So on a full liquid diet now.
Yesterday I went out to get my eye checked I brought with me my Protein Shake to last for two meals and my Water.
I ended up out longer than I thought and shake got warm and gross and I didn't want it.
So at first got upset then thought ok I can run to grocery store and get a yogurt. While at giant Eagle I saw they had homemade chicken noodle Soup and decided to skip yogurt and buy just the broth from the soup. I was double proud of myself for sticking to my plan and also having the courage to stand there and ladle out just the broth and proudly walk to counter and buy it.
I was wondering if you leave home and forget food what or where do you turn to find food?

Thank you guys so much for all the responses and ideas!!
I am so blessed to know I am not alone in this and there are others who have to consider and plan ahead just like me!!!
I just returned from a rehearsal dinner where I took my Protein Shake and asked for a wine glass poured it in it and sat and sipped it and Water while everyone else ate their meals.
I am so proud of myself!! Sitting there with dignity about the choices I have made.

I am only 10 days post-op from a Gastric
Bypass. So on a full liquid diet now.
Yesterday I went out to get my eye checked I brought with me my Protein Shake to last for two meals and my Water.
I ended up out longer than I thought and shake got warm and gross and I didn't want it.
So at first got upset then thought ok I can run to grocery store and get a yogurt. While at giant Eagle I saw they had homemade chicken noodle Soup and decided to skip yogurt and buy just the broth from the soup. I was double proud of myself for sticking to my plan and also having the courage to stand there and ladle out just the broth and proudly walk to counter and buy it.
I was wondering if you leave home and forget food what or where do you turn to find food?

Thank you guys so much for all the responses and ideas!!
I am so blessed to know I am not alone in this and there are others who have to consider and plan ahead just like me!!!
I just returned from a rehearsal dinner where I took my Protein Shake and asked for a wine glass poured it in it and sat and sipped it and Water while everyone else ate their meals.
I am so proud of myself!! Sitting there with dignity about the choices I have made.

I am only 10 days post-op from a Gastric
Bypass. So on a full liquid diet now.
Yesterday I went out to get my eye checked I brought with me my Protein Shake to last for two meals and my Water.
I ended up out longer than I thought and shake got warm and gross and I didn't want it.
So at first got upset then thought ok I can run to grocery store and get a yogurt. While at giant Eagle I saw they had homemade chicken noodle Soup and decided to skip yogurt and buy just the broth from the soup. I was double proud of myself for sticking to my plan and also having the courage to stand there and ladle out just the broth and proudly walk to counter and buy it.
I was wondering if you leave home and forget food what or where do you turn to find food?

Thank you guys so much for all the responses and ideas!!
I am so blessed to know I am not alone in this and there are others who have to consider and plan ahead just like me!!!
I just returned from a rehearsal dinner where I took my Protein Shake and asked for a wine glass poured it in it and sat and sipped it and Water while everyone else ate their meals.
I am so proud of myself!! Sitting there with dignity about the choices I have made.

Thank you guys so much for all the responses and ideas!!
I am so blessed to know I am not alone in this and there are others who have to consider and plan ahead just like me!!!
I just returned from a rehearsal dinner where I took my Protein Shake and asked for a wine glass poured it in it and sat and sipped it and Water while everyone else ate their meals.
I am so proud of myself!! Sitting there with dignity about the choices I have made.

I am only 10 days post-op from a Gastric
Bypass. So on a full liquid diet now.
Yesterday I went out to get my eye checked I brought with me my Protein Shake to last for two meals and my Water.
I ended up out longer than I thought and shake got warm and gross and I didn't want it.
So at first got upset then thought ok I can run to grocery store and get a yogurt. While at giant Eagle I saw they had homemade chicken noodle Soup and decided to skip yogurt and buy just the broth from the soup. I was double proud of myself for sticking to my plan and also having the courage to stand there and ladle out just the broth and proudly walk to counter and buy it.
I was wondering if you leave home and forget food what or where do you turn to find food?