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Just left the Dr. After explaining to this insane nut my file he says I don't need a bariatric Dr I need a gastro Dr. Really .. and I'm to practice meditation. Yeah I'm gonna do that.....AGH!!!!

Sandra and everyone else I am so relieved to know I'm not alone. I too have had several PIC's for TPN, weeks and weeks of hospital stays narcotic pain killers. I am so weak on days all I can do is lay around and of course my family really doesn't get it, but I don't expect them to. I feel alone being this sick. I've had to sit and watch a strangers blood go in my arm several times. I have a fear now so bad that I will fight the propifol (sp) they put me to sleep with for surgery because I'm scared I won't wake up. I'm tired of the pain, the pills etc.
To be blunt IT SUCKS and ur not alone in the boat it seems we're all in there with you.
Lots of love.

I recorded the noises and Austin was dying laughing said it sounds like prediator lololol

If I could attach a video yall could hear the insane internal argument my gut is having and has been since 9pm. Yeah no sleep tonight but I'm surely burning the calories running to the dang bathroom. Immodium and pepto = FAIL...
I believe somebody has a voodoo doll of me. . .seriously lol. At this point I'm crackin jokes and destroying the ozone with the methane I'm producing. Apparently my body doesnt agree with beets and spinach combined. Yup my body is a one man band tonight. Felt the need to notify yall of this. LoL

I was reading some of yalls siggies. Was there a reason you did the band first and not rny or what? Like with me they said I didn't qualify for the vs, band, ds bc I had GERD so severe I actually sprayed the radiologist during a swallow study..they give u that like alcaseltzer (sp) tab stuff and it got half way and I went to say I'm gonna puke and when I opened my mouth it was full Linda Blair everywhere, impressive but gross lol. Anyway, I was just wondering about that that's gotta be hard having to go thru two major surgeries like that..I couldn't imagine.

It is a very good tool but society needs to know the dark side of it. No matter now competent the surgeon is things still can go wrong. What scares me is how mainstream this surgery has become. The bariatric community of phsyicians needs to educate their patients more on the serious side effects this surgery can cause.

Til just now I thought I had seen and heard it all. I stand corrected. O.o lol. . . I became a horn dog after surgery lol my bf bless his heart said I was gonna kill him. I screamed your a marine damnit man up! Lmao..true story. :-"

It is a very good tool but society needs to know the dark side of it. No matter now competent the surgeon is things still can go wrong. What scares me is how mainstream this surgery has become. The bariatric community of phsyicians needs to educate their patients more on the serious side effects this surgery can cause.

It is a very good tool but society needs to know the dark side of it. No matter now competent the surgeon is things still can go wrong. What scares me is how mainstream this surgery has become. The bariatric community of phsyicians needs to educate their patients more on the serious side effects this surgery can cause.

It is a very good tool but society needs to know the dark side of it. No matter now competent the surgeon is things still can go wrong. What scares me is how mainstream this surgery has become. The bariatric community of phsyicians needs to educate their patients more on the serious side effects this surgery can cause.

Sandra and everyone else I am so relieved to know I'm not alone. I too have had several PIC's for TPN, weeks and weeks of hospital stays narcotic pain killers. I am so weak on days all I can do is lay around and of course my family really doesn't get it, but I don't expect them to. I feel alone being this sick. I've had to sit and watch a strangers blood go in my arm several times. I have a fear now so bad that I will fight the propifol (sp) they put me to sleep with for surgery because I'm scared I won't wake up. I'm tired of the pain, the pills etc.
To be blunt IT SUCKS and ur not alone in the boat it seems we're all in there with you.
Lots of love.

Thank you so much. I just tell you life like this is very hard and it infuriates me when people tell me "Oh you went the easy route" no way shape OR form is gastric bypass easy. It messes with you emotionally, physically, spirtually..basically completely! I'm going the 10th to see what is supposed to be a very good bariatric surgeon. My lower half seems fine now, but its the upper I guess where the stint is. My spasims are so severe they feel like a heaart attack. It's horrible. I can truly honestly understand why suicide rates are so high due to this surgery. It's horrible.
I'm probably scaring all these poor people to death, but i'm just trying to be honest and show you all that not everyone wakes up off that table "healed." Obesity is a disease something we all have to figure out ourselves. How why when did we get this way and then comes the hard part accepting you did it yourself...no matter how hard you try to deny it. Trust me I did it.
Advice to those having surgery. Listen to your bodies you hear full, you stop walk away. Learn to eat things you thought you never would. Tofu is my favorite and your going to laugh but dehydrated vegies are also my favorite. I can't drink any milk because I became lactose intolerant afterwards. Be careful and listen to your body please. i have a friend who is the same amount of time out of surgery as I and she's already gained back. I teeter between 124-133 and have since 2011. 5 years post op and saying that I feel is a big thing. I'd like to see the ones having surgery come back wih the same success stories. I wish you luck and if you need me just hollar.
Thanks yall

well I'm five years post op. I've had a total of 7 surgeries with 7 blood transfusions. My favorite assumption ppl say is "your not following the rules" NO I follow them to the tee. My weight leveled off at 124lbs and has been that way for 4 years. Not following protocol would result in weight re-gain. My health issues are so severe that I'm epileptic and now disabled due to it. When I get sick I get sick, ICU, main floor hospital stays and countless pokes and prods. This surgery is the most horrific kind to have. If i could go back I would have put my butt on a treadmill. There is so much more to this surgery than ppl think. SURE you went thru your psych eval but have you thought about the psychological ramifications of when u wake up? NOBODY does, until your lying in bed alone and viola it hits I was a food addict and now what can i do to cope? Some foods you eat work some you vomit, I vomit A LOT. There are days I give up and could careless if I eve eat at all. I can't even pay with my children because most of the time I feel so bad all I can do is lay on a couch and observe. Yeah this is life and yeah I'm a size four but at WHAT cost? Ask yourself that before u get on that table because I'm telling you the first PEG tube I had I hurt so bad I wrirthed the strongest drug available couldn't ease it. I seize now randomly. My life is destroyed I visit the dr almost once a week. My life is destroyed and its all my fault. Now I'm stuck with these spasims that comes and feels as if somebody is punching me in the chest so hard I couldn't breathe. I vomit and that hurts worse. At times I really feel like dying would be a better option than surviving this, but I have three kids that depend on me. sad part is I can't do the same things I did before cheerleading gamess etc. Now I'm stuck in a house sitting on a couch and getting energy to clean for 30 minutes and sit back down. I've been to a oncologist and give Iron supp;iments which made me violently ill. I've had blood from countless strangers. My body is truly no longer mine. Im tired to be honest i just want my normal life back and I'd take being a size 16 over a size 4 any day, Truly you all I am speaking from the heart this surgery isn't all what its cracked up to be, its dangerous and completely life changing in a lot of ways. Maybe somebody here can have suggestions on this spasm stuff and help me because I'm at my ropes in in pain,

Did they say why theirs started?? Mine was due to severe emaciation and mineral imbalances. That began in Oct 2010. I was admitted to the hospital because a part of my intestine had rotated and I needed surgery. While there I wound up having severe granmaw seizures. They placed a PIC line into my arm and began feeding me TPN that way so that I wouldn't starve to death. I laid for two weeks unconscious, seizing and unresponsive. Finally I became stable enough for them to do the surgery and it nearly took 6 hours. Once in there he had to repair several places and re anchor a lot of things that had worked lose. He also fitted me with a PEG tube into my old stapled stomach. I wore that from March 2009 til May 2010. The tube came out and the seizures continued. November of 2010 I had became emaciated again and developed what was called blind loop syndrome. They took me to surgery and had to fix a stricture in my pouch/esphogas putting in a stint like thing. I was again refitted for a PEG tube and I wore that one from November 2010 til July 2011. Finally, to be honest I gave up complaining. Doctor after Doctor and specialist after specialist, I give up. I take my Vitamins, I never eat more than I'm supposed to, I'm lactose intolerant and the list goes on and on and on. I have three children under the age of 11. It's hard for me to get up and ride a bike with them. My medication list is longer than it was pre-surgery.
Pre-surgery I took:
Levisin
Lisinopril
Humulin
Nexium
Baby Asprin
Lasix
Post Surgery:
Kepra
Depakote
Sumatriptiphan
Levisin
Zantac
Restoril
Lopermide (sp) rx strength not oc.
Tylenol because I hurt so bad everyday.
Phenegrin to stop me from vomiting
and then when things get bad Marinol to help with hunger.
I've had a total of 3 PIC lines and now I have a port. So they can gain acess to take my blood because even with Vitamins and Iron suppliments I still keep severe anemia. I ask ppl all the time from obesity groups was it really truly worth it. For me, it wasn't and I am living proof that even though this surgery has now became main stream it is NOT to be taken lightly nor to be considered a miracle because it is far from it. I worked as a paramedic many years and now I'm disabled. All because I was told by a Dr it would make my life better. Has it? Is it better that my kids has watched me hit the floor and seize? No, what would have been fair is taking myself to a gym and doing it the proper way. This way, has left me completely broken and I wonder every day of my life how many more years do I have to live this way.

My new birthday is May 8, 2008. I came here to wish all you newbies a good luck and safe journey on your new birthday. Mine was life changing and yours will be too. Hang in there and reach out when u need help.
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I wanted to post in here to ask yall a few questions I have and see if u are the same.
One thing I've noticed since surgery is my body. Its as if I was made to be big and not small. Reason saying. I wear xs underwear and size 2-4 pants. My torso I have to have med shirts and large sleep clothes like the lil matching tops. I have no boobs those babies deflated and look worse than a party balloon. Really I need a tuck but I'm petrified of surgery so when I wear my pants I have to put them on top of the pooch like under my naval bc if I didn't I'd look like a man sporting a beer gut lol. My feet went from size 8.5's to size 7's. My hair is finally all back in but I still battle extremely dry itchy skin so I can critque every lotion made LOL. I'm very self conscious about my stomach and the scars I have so its still uneasy to be naked in front of my bf. When I clothes shop I still look for things to layer like I use too. I always wear a undershirt. My shirts have to go past my butt and of long sleeves have to reach around my wrists when I hold my arms up. I have yet to buy a pair of skinny jeans bc I still purchase boot cut. I'm getting better at eye contact with ppl but I still tend to walk looking at my feet. Its sad but I can't see the new girl everyone else does. Another thing I've ran into is I call it my Star Jones complex LOL. I'm very particular who I tell about my surgery. My bfs friends have no clue I'm a rny pt. He does and his family but they don't. His bestfriends wife has been doing insanity and lost a lot and I mean has an incrediable body she walks around in running bras and spandex that's how confident and beautiful her body is. Well apparently she had always been "chubby" according to them (she was in a size ten o.O) well when I met my bf he sent them my picture and all their responses was is "you really like those skinny girls don't ya?" Well I've always been that girl who hung out with the guys bc girls has always betrayed me which is why I think I did so well working as a firefighter/paramedic. Well superbowl we were over there and they were commenting at how much weight my bf has lost, bc I cook and he eats similarly to me and has lost from 230 to 192. Well he looked at his bestfriends wife and said look at how much Kel lost bc of her appendix and she turned around and said "she doesn't count she's been a twig her entire life...and that makes me sick" I just looked at her like you really have no idea. I get this stuff all the time. I'm in with my bfs bestfriend but the females in his group just treat me horrible. Its hard to be around them bc my bf wants to hang out with his bf without me up his butt but I'm so uncomfortable by myself around them and the one issue I am really having is his bestfriends brother had RNY. He gained every pound back and then more I feel really bad for him. My bfs bestf will say oh honey my brother's coming over too and she wi respond with well if this food isn't enough I can give him left overs from the past two days as if he were a dog. She says this all the time and will look at me and say stuff like its sickening ppl will allow themselves to be that lazy. When he finally gets there ppl are so snide and rude to him. I always go up to him and hug him and tell him its goof to see him. He acts like we all use and I still do and its that wanting to fit in so bad but can't attitude. Theres been several times I've wanted to grab him and take him outside and say I know how u feel I'm a gb patient also. I don't bc I'm afraid of embarrassing my bf. I don't want him to feel the need to defend me and u all know with this surgery the stigma u get and its we are lazy or took the easy route or the oh she will be the size of a house again in five years just wait. Do you all open up to outsiders when your dating? Or am I just weird or paranoid. I think it all boils down to I was bullied so bad growing up I just want to fit in now and not cause myself any drama. Can any of yall relate to this?? Sorry it was long.

i'm not sure I'm doing this right, but I wanted to volunteer to help someone since I'm 5 years out and have maintained my current weight for 2 years. I'm in South Carolina.. anybody just hollar.

First don't stress out. We all hit a plateau and thats when we figure out really how to use this tool we've been given. If you've plateaued try changing your eating around or increasing your fat burning exercise..my favorite it just dance lol. Depression seems to hit us all and its really confusing because we should be euphoric after losing that much, but sometimes it just doesn't happen that way our brains are tricky creatures. You are literally mourning a life long friend that you relied on, food. You go through the stages and its perfectly normal. If your thinking irrational or thoughts you shouldn't that's not. If you need to pm me to be private.
When I first got depressed I was down around 60lbs. I was standing in the bathroom drying my hair and looked at the sink and thought "I wonder how bad it would hurt to die that way" it was really irrational and scared me. I went that day and waited in the waiting room to speak privately to my surgeon. He got me set up with therapy and helped me a lot even going as far as to call me privately from his home phone.
Try to reflect on the good things right now instead of the bad, i know your going yeah ok. Trust me, get ur hair done or go buy you a top or pants that you like and dress up whether u feel like it or not. That girl that on that table 10 months ago died and the one who woke up is a brand new one you have a chance most don't get and thats to reinvent yourself. Talking it out helps too or at least it does me. I actually get on my own nerves repeating myself but its how I cope now.
Another suggestion stay off the sad sappy music.. get you some crazy jumping music that makes you feel good and inspires you. Music is my life and really its what I turn to for therapy. I also see a therapist once a week to get out frustrations and it helps a lot.
Like I said if u need to chat pm me because I can bet you are not going through something I haven't experienced and I'm a open honest book. It gets better, each day you get stronger.
(((hugs)))

Becareful with oils bc if u lost ur gallbladder u can get the runs and that ain't fun.. I have a recipe for baked fried chicken and it tastes just like its been fried..if u wanna try it.

Ur foot should be gettin lighter not heavier.. o.O. lol

First don't stress out. We all hit a plateau and thats when we figure out really how to use this tool we've been given. If you've plateaued try changing your eating around or increasing your fat burning exercise..my favorite it just dance lol. Depression seems to hit us all and its really confusing because we should be euphoric after losing that much, but sometimes it just doesn't happen that way our brains are tricky creatures. You are literally mourning a life long friend that you relied on, food. You go through the stages and its perfectly normal. If your thinking irrational or thoughts you shouldn't that's not. If you need to pm me to be private.
When I first got depressed I was down around 60lbs. I was standing in the bathroom drying my hair and looked at the sink and thought "I wonder how bad it would hurt to die that way" it was really irrational and scared me. I went that day and waited in the waiting room to speak privately to my surgeon. He got me set up with therapy and helped me a lot even going as far as to call me privately from his home phone.
Try to reflect on the good things right now instead of the bad, i know your going yeah ok. Trust me, get ur hair done or go buy you a top or pants that you like and dress up whether u feel like it or not. That girl that on that table 10 months ago died and the one who woke up is a brand new one you have a chance most don't get and thats to reinvent yourself. Talking it out helps too or at least it does me. I actually get on my own nerves repeating myself but its how I cope now.
Another suggestion stay off the sad sappy music.. get you some crazy jumping music that makes you feel good and inspires you. Music is my life and really its what I turn to for therapy. I also see a therapist once a week to get out frustrations and it helps a lot.
Like I said if u need to chat pm me because I can bet you are not going through something I haven't experienced and I'm a open honest book. It gets better, each day you get stronger.
(((hugs)))

I understand you all the way ask anyone here. I have every issue there is. Read my post I'm a real person with real problems & I'm working hard on solving them or paying my own bills & moving out. Post & vent away this is a support group.

I dieted like I had already had the surgery. I lost 30lbs. I used the elliptical machine for a hour and a half every other day. I had a lot of problems with eating. I tell ppl I suffered from last supper syndrome and I'm not kidding I did and it was bad. I cut out sodas and switched to Water. I would drink one whole glass of water prior to eating and then I would eat. I also wouldn't allow myself to eat past 8pm unless I became hypoglycemic then I'd do a glucerna drink. I never had problems getting the will power to lose my dang problem was keeping the weight off. It was a constant battle. If need to you can pm me and I can tell you how I eat and see if maybe that will help you reason I'm offering that is bc my bf went from 230 I. May last year to 192 now bc he allowed me to do his portions and cook. We hardly eat out. I wish u luck I know how frustrating this can be.

Yeah I've got a ton. I wanted to add the muffin pans I use is the mini ones and on my child plate it looks like a lot. I use those pans for a lot and a lot of different spices together. I make all my sauces bc I can control the sugars and I also sneak tofu in a lot and my lil family has no clue..they think that white block is a special cheese )) my boyfriend went from 230 down to 191lbs bc of how I cook.

First u need to take ur patootie to the dollar store buy u 3-4 full length mirrors their 5 bucks and hang them up bc ur gonna wanna look at that a lot more often and without the risk of breaking ur neck lol. I positively love those shoes..u lookin hot there mama really.