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Joyfulinga is soo right. I am just starting my journey as well. You are right as the helpfulness and heartfelt advice is awesome here. Please keep us posted on how you are doing. We are here with you!

I think you have a great attitude about this and I like you are doing your research to be informed. Roller coaster ride is an understatement..lol but very true.

Oh sweet girl....there really is nothing to be afraid of. Surgery doesn't change who YOU are inside. You will still be the awesome person you are now, you just won't have the health issues, the feelings of disappointment and all the things you want to have surgery to get away from. Think of how cool it will be to (here were a few of mine): cross your legs, buy something in the Junior or Misses department, walk 3 miles without an aching back, never hear the doctor say you'll need insulin soon, throw out your blood pressure meds, feel good about yourself, etc. Get the picture. You need to do this for you and no one else. You are worth being healthy and happy. You matter so it matters! Hang in there and come on back when you need a pick me up.

One of my favorite sayings is "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it." I understand your fears and they are good to have now because if they are were you know them then they will always stay fears and never realty.
I look forward to reading your blog and going through this with you.

sometime is just get harder and harder

Hey Dawn… I hope that the solo sessions help! I don’t know if it’ll help any to know but I was an emotional wreck the last couple weeks leading up to my surgery I can’t even tell you how many times I would apologized to my hubby and thanked him for dealing with it so well J

I feel like I just wrote your entry. I have gastric bypass surgery scheduled December 12, they will be using he Davinci method (robotic surgery). I too cleaned my closet out and I had like an emotional breakdown wanting to retire, being scared and all sort of emotions going through my head. I had my hissy fit and now I am ok. I think I just wanted an opportunity to feel sorry for my self. Best of wishes to you on your surgery. I will be poraying for you. I already have my bag packed and I am 22 days out.

Hello Dawn,
I feel the same way. All my clothes are to little. I don't go anywhere because I am not comfortable with my size. I had a car accident 15 years ago, which left me with a replace hip, and a partcially paralyzed ankle. I had to have a ankle replacement and have severe arthritis. I am unable to walk without pain, and my weight is growing. I have high cholestrol and blood pressure. I am looking forward to being healthy, and the weight coming off my leg. My surgery is set for 11/29/12 and I feel good about my decision. I'm currently 5'4 and 229 pounds. Hope to see you soon and good luck. Stay encourage and motivated.

I wish for you a speedy resolution and a rapid approval. I know it's hard for you now...I was there...but you'll get there. What a strange thing that your mom is getting it done too! Maybe it will be good for you both to have some support. My mother has always been a skinny minny and that was really hard for me to take...she wasn't supportive until I actually had the surgery...I think it was fear actually. It was hard to have a whole family w/o weight issues. But...I'm nearly 4 months out and very very happy. I can't wait for you to feel the happiness too!
Good luck!

I know that I turned into a hermit...all I did was stay in my house and sew (I quilt) during those last two weeks before THE DAY! I would go out and lay in the sun, and then back inside when it got too hot. I couldn't stand being out among others for the most part. GOod luck! and I'm happy you're almost there!

Im sorry I didnt see this til now! All the things you are feeling are so normal! We all worry that we wont stay on the wagon after, and we will all fall off at some point. the great thing is we learn to get right back on and not let guilt send us into a downward spiral. also when you do slip, its much less because we dont have room or we dump. I know you've been working hard on your preop stuff and I know you'll make your goal and get a date! Relatioships are hard, and this process puts stress on them. Joel and I seperated for half the summer as I was preparing for this. It helped us both realize how much we love and need each other. After telling him that I needed his support unconditionally and needed him to get involved and go to group and appointments he is beginning to understand the role of food as an addiction. Never being overweight, he didnt get the internal struggle we have with food. grioup is helping him get it. I hope your hubby comes around and gets positive and supportive for you. Losing weight has improved our intimate life not only because I have lost weight, but because I have gained confidence. You will too and I hope it helps your relationship. I do agree counseling would help too. Maybe go sometimes alone and sometimes together. If you were best friends before you can get back there, as long as youre both willing to try. Love you girl! See you monday!!

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