I feel like I just wrote your entry. I have gastric bypass surgery scheduled December 12, they will be using he Davinci method (robotic surgery). I too cleaned my closet out and I had like an emotional breakdown wanting to retire, being scared and all sort of emotions going through my head. I had my hissy fit and now I am ok. I think I just wanted an opportunity to feel sorry for my self. Best of wishes to you on your surgery. I will be poraying for you. I already have my bag packed and I am 22 days out.