TracyK

Thanks everyone! I know where I came from and how I felt then and I see where I am now and how I FEEL now. I wanna physically (and with that, mentally) feel better.

Judy...this is your first time to Hawaii? I have never been but would love to go one day. It is on my to do list!

by the way... ya'll go check out my myspace page (there could be a pic of YOU on there, haha) and look at the very bottom on the left and there is a video of macy on that bungee swing ... pretty cute. Tracy | MySpace.com oh, and do not let the pic of the mocha java chiller & tiramisu scare you away

Way to GO MICHELLE!! Judy-ice cream? Are you trying to be like me? :thumbup: lol Suzie-glad to hear that things are better! Kat-thanks for the e-mail last night. Today we are going to the livestock show in Houston. Never been and I am sure macy will enjoy it. I have been eating well for the past few days but I am still not ready to get on the scales. I know I am doing what I should be doing so I will just keep on keepin' on and when I am mentally ready for the scales, I will do it. If it came off as fast as I put it on I would not hesitate to jump on them, but... *sigh* DH starts his days off today and that is always a challenge for me in the food dept. I just have to keep telling myself that success taste better than ice cream It is 8 AM and dd is still sleeping? I need to go see if she is O.K. Have a great day ladies! Respect the pouch....RESPECT IT!

Terry-she is at a mall in Beaumont...lovin' it! She is such a daredevil! When mom sent me the pic on the phone i saw it and thought "OMG is that my babygirl swinging in the air?" LOL

Gotta LOVE when you get pics of your daughter hanging in mid air by a bungee cord @ the mall....she is having a ball with her mawmaw & pop!!!

Sad....just sitting here waiting for Part II of Lauras mouse story....I need to get a life. lol

Laura-thanks for the pic HI CARSON!!!!

Hi everyone! with no macy and all the cold & rain it makes for quiet lazy days around here. have a great day ladies.

:thumbup: hi again

:thumbup: Good morning everyone! Have a great weekend. Jenn-I forgot to say...wherever the road leads you with Kev...I wish yopu nothing but happiness & lots of love. You deserve it!

Good morning ladies! Here is to day 3 of eating the bandster way :thumbup: :thumbup: I will probably wait until Sunday or Monday to weigh. Depends on when Aunt Flow is completely gone. Today my sister is coming to get Macy. She has been looking forward to this weekend for the past month because they are going to a festival that has rides & stuff....and as Terry said....RAIN...COLD. This sucks. Why does the drought have to end now of all times? Macy is out of school on spring break after today. Hopefully she will be able to have some nice weather during her time off from school! I went to the thrift store yesterday and picked up macy some big oversized t-shirts for nightgowns. Pajamas are so expensive! I refuse to pay twenty bucks for a long shirt for her to sleep in just because it has Dora or Hannah Montana on it! I found her some really soft big shirts and she was in heaven when she put them on :blushing: My girl is easy to please...for the moment anyway. I have been awake since about 4 tossing and turning and by 5 I just gave up and came in the LR and got on the laptop. I sure have enjoyed this quiet time this morning. Maybe I should get up this early more often! Have a great day violets! Respect the pouch...RESPECT IT!

:w00t: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIFER!!! :thumbup:

OK, are you serious pamela? Or was that a joke?

Good morning ladies~ Day one of eating right is complete. And like I promised....not one cookie or bad ice cream. I know that once it starts coming off I will get remotivated. Last night I had a good cry fest and now I am moving on. I was just so mad & disappointed in myself but now is time for action. I will miss you all very much too...you just don't know. Love you all & have a great day & respect the pouch!

Suzie-scratch me off the t-shirt list. I am going to rat hole my money. I just can not go this time PLUS I have a HS reunion to go to. :mad2:

happy mid-day everyone :mad2:

:thumbup: Happy b-day denise!!!

Good morning ladies...thanks for the comments on my blog entry. (((hugs))) I love you all so much! I promise me and I promise ya'll I will not have any cookies or ice cream today :tt1: Jane-Sorry about your nephew. I will keep you all in my prayers. Jennifer-at least you only FEEL like you gained it all back...right? Way to go on the 14s!!! Pamela-have an enchilada for me :tt1: Have a great day violets...respect the pouch. By the way....TracyinKS will be back sooner or later. In my heart I know she will....who could stay away? :thumbup:

Funny how we can get addicted to stuff that hurts us, huh? I guess a food addict is better than a meth addict? I dunno. Laura-I agree with what you said its like another form of cutting. Thanks for saying that because it opened my eyes up even more. I know all of you ladies are right. I really do not know what I would do without you all.

OK so here I am, 3 or so months past the hoidays when I practically ruined myself...and I am still in a holding pattern of somewhere between 216 and 222. WTF? Then, last night I was watching TV and I had an AHA moment, a revelation...(key up the choir here)...lol A commercial came on and it was for Chilis food chain....there were pics of burgers and all kinds of yummy fattening foods and everything, I mean EVERYTHING they showed on the commercials, I can not eat because of my band and I know I would PB. So I got to thinking about it...I am gaining weight (maintaining this higher weight) on the same 2 bad food choices that slide down the pipes....cookies and ice cream. NOT a variety of loads of wonderful fattening food, but the SAME 2 FOODS. Not even exciting to me anymore to tell the truth. So the only conclusion I come to is I must be retarded...I am standing in my way of my own success by cheating with the same things over & over again?!! It wasn't even FUN gaining some of this weight back. Oh at first it tasted good and I was like YUM YUM :thumbup:....now, I am just like purposely hurting myself and I just don't get it. Are you kidding me? So, now, what to do? Seems like now that I know I am doing stupid things I can just stop, right? :wink_smile: Seems to me the first step is getting rid of those 2 evils. That is what I am going to do. Wish me luck because right now I am at the crucial point. Things will either go extremely right or extremely wrong from here. I am an emotional wreck. So, if you are reading this, pray for me...I need it. I need my mind to heal and I need to forgive myself for regaining some weight and start over. I will let you know what happens. I know I can not do it alone but sometimes I feel like I have burdened enough people with my dieting (or lack of it). Jesus help me. PS to the newbies...no disrespect, but please spare me your views on the subject...no I do not need a fill. For you all I can say is remember the band is a tool, not a cure. Best of luck!!

OK so here I am, 3 or so months past the hoidays when I practically ruined myself...and I am still in a holding pattern of somewhere between 216 and 222. WTF? Then, last night I was watching TV and I had an AHA moment, a revelation...(key up the choir here)...lol A commercial came on and it was for Chilis food chain....there were pics of burgers and all kinds of yummy fattening foods and everything, I mean EVERYTHING they showed on the commercials, I can not eat because of my band and I know I would PB. So I got to thinking about it...I am gaining weight (maintaining this higher weight) on the same 2 bad food choices that slide down the pipes....cookies and ice cream. NOT a variety of loads of wonderful fattening food, but the SAME 2 FOODS. Not even exciting to me anymore to tell the truth. So the only conclusion I come to is I must be retarded...I am standing in my way of my own success by cheating with the same things over & over again?!! It wasn't even FUN gaining some of this weight back. Oh at first it tasted good and I was like YUM YUM :thumbup:....now, I am just like purposely hurting myself and I just don't get it. Are you kidding me? So, now, what to do? Seems like now that I know I am doing stupid things I can just stop, right? :confused: Seems to me the first step is getting rid of those 2 evils. That is what I am going to do. Wish me luck because right now I am at the crucial point. Things will either go extremely right or extremely wrong from here. I am an emotional wreck. So, if you are reading this, pray for me...I need it. I need my mind to heal and I need to forgive myself for regaining some weight and start over. I will let you know what happens. I know I can not do it alone but sometimes I feel like I have burdened enough people with my dieting (or lack of it). Jesus help me. PS to the newbies...no disrespect, but please spare me your views on the subject...no I do not need a fill. For you all I can say is remember the band is a tool, not a cure. Best of luck!!

Hi there everyone! I am going through some kind of fix myself/destroy myself tug-o-war in my brain. Last night I had a revelation...I won't go into it here, I will just blog about it when I get a few extra minutes. I hope TracyinKS is OK. ((((hugs)))) to all violets :biggrin:

Heather, if it makes you feel any better, I can gain 10 pounds that quick and I am not even pregnant

I took a 2 hour nap....it was great. Cramps are gone for now thank God.