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wow good for you!

Thanks for recipes, hope i can do as well as you when I go.

Your baby is beautiful, Im so glad you fell in love with him!!! I am so glad you picked up that phone and made that call. I cant even imagine how bad all that drama must have been for you. But I have this tatooed on my rib this saying because I use it so often and its my little reminder to me of all the things I went through, and its THIS TOO SHALL PASS, just believe and it will. Cant wait to see how you come out of this a stronger more in control woman.

lord loving this story!

Oh come on dont stop there!

I love your posts they are inspirational yet hysterical.wear those jeans proud!! I would give 1/2 a pinky toe for a size 16 lol.

Wow that is beautiful and you are truly an inspiration to us all. congratulations on your awesome 50 lb loss, I wish you all the best.

Hi since you mentioned the word detox you may want to try juicing for one meal its very healthy for you and you have no docter requirements. I am going to try to incorporate one juice into my regimen post op when tolerated just for nutrients try the mean green shake. hope it helps a bit, good luck to you.

Wow you look fantastic!!!

Funny I read your blog and it bought tears to my eyes as I sit back and realize just how much trouble im in. You are so lucky. I am married but by words only we have a torterous horrible existance of a marriage, my husband calls me every name in the book pertaining to fat he is in the works of brainwashing my 6 year old boy to go against me my son actually called me fatty tonight i cant tell you how awesome that felt, my husband is just sitting back waiting for me to fail at this as I did with my other attempts at weightloss. I loved your blog and wish I had your support system but unfortunayely im on my own. I know your life isnt easy the word twins is in the mix, lol my neices are twins 2 years old lord a handful !!! But you nailed it self worth is a huge word and powerful. I think I need to find some before I go in for my sugery. You are a lucky lady. Just remember when things get crazy and hectic and Im sure they do quite alot, there is one of your lines I loved, I got this. so just remember that you got this and hopefully so will I.

lmao you are hysterical, I look forward to reading your posts.

OMG I just aquired one of those horrendous machines and no I wont use it. I hate it and I cant sleep. omg its barbaric I feel like im drowning.

Congratulations on your surgery!! Glad to hear your doing ok.

i am new to this site and i just read your entry from july 19 th. My god, you have been to hell and back. I admire your strength your a powerhouse. I am happy to see your getting stronger happy news. Good luck in your search for a cheap house with a pool, and have an awesome time!!!!!!!!!!!!

No my final appt with surgeon is may 1st then off to insurance company goes everything and I sit back and patiently wait. I recently got out of a relationship in dec. It killed me, self sabatoge ??? I put on about 25lbs since then. But im still so hurt over it. Dont hide yourself after you are done with your surgery and you are comfortable, you get out there and show the world who you are. You said your a leo, so your not supposed to be a backround person, you should be front and center!! I too someday soon want to be confident again. He just took so much out of me its still so hard , but I have mourned him enough. UGHH ssssssso ooooooo hard to get back on your feet. But I have to believe we can do this.

I am by far no expert on anything , but you bring up alot of legit questions , and your not alone. But one thing I have learned in my life is if you dont or cant love yourself , how do you expect someome else too? Example a decent man. Your scheduled for surgery so thats a major plus , you will be given a chance to improve yourself in many ways , take the opportunity and run with it!!! Dont waste it with thoughts of self sabatoge, you are worth this and you can do this!! Take it from a self sabbatoger im trying my hardest to get out of it , I am my own worst enemy. I am going to try to change my whole being with this surgery my thoughts my eating habbits , everything. For once I want to be a winner. If you ever need to talk I m around feel free.

Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lucky girl.

First of all I totally get where you are coming from. I am surrounded by alot of those at work myself . I call them "THE PERFECTS" . It was hard at first to get used to having them in my face all the time but after 13 years with being around most of them I have come to the conclusion, that most of them do not intend to harm and truly feel that way about themselves even at 120lbs. They have never been heavy so at 120 you put on 10 lbs they feel it they see it. So yes they are going to complain about it just like we would . I think most of them just really dont know any better nor do they know the impact their words have on us. I dont know your co worker personally so i dont know if shes the vindictive type if so, you had some good advice earlier from TES but you dont have to give her a play by play if thats the case. If not dont let her ruin your good happy thoughts. Stay true to yourself, and please dont refer to yourself as a troll ....... YOUR A BEAUTIFUL GIRL!!! and about to just keep on getting better. Hope you have a better day.

Thank you for your responses it all makes alot of sense. I am going to go check out the website right now. Thanks again.

Hi I am at the tail end of what your doing, this Weds is my 5th weigh in. I know its a long hard road and expensive time consuming it all sucks. but slowly and surely its almost here. Hang in there!

WOW you guys are doing awesome!!! Its inspiring to see numbers like that .