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Hmmm, I ready about the smell afterwards...I wonder why that is...

you yes, this does help....I am scheduled for MGB on 4 March (Not Dr. Ponce), but I am nervous and excited. how are you feeling today....Hows the weight loss coming.

I'd tell your coworker a few things about telling folks your business....too

Well, after I blogged this this morning I went and got the scale and made a mistake that cost me my moral for the rest of the day....It still says 190...I am in size 12's...most 14s are too big. I really wanted to be in the 175 range at this time...my goal for January was 190...February was 185 but was really hoping for 180 and 175 by March...I am in a depression right now....I hate I got on the scale...I can fit alot of clothes that I haven't worn for years....Almost EVERYTHING in my closet is waay to big....Why am I so fixated on that damn scale...Why....It just disrupts my whole frame of mind....I just want to cry....and yea people keep asking how much I've lost...well, I've been in the 190 range for over 3 weeks...and before of course just 191...Since 2 Jan, I've lost maybe 12lbs...I only started at 217. I am 5'4 and 1/2 I see people that started at my weight that are in the low 170's....It makes me feel like I am failing...I paid 15500 cash and 11 weeks later...27 pounds....I know its good BUT, I expected so much more....uggghhh...I am so sad.....This is the feeling that makes me want to eat.....

Well the scale is tucked away in the closet...I'm not saying I'm never going to use it but I think once or twice a month will be good. My clothes are falling off me but the numbers weren't moving fast enough for me......Mentally...I needed to see the number moving....not sure why....

I started this journey for a change. From the time learned about what a gastric sleeve was (on 10 Nov), within 16 days, I had read extensively about it, drilled a friend of mine who had the procedure and paid over $15,000 cash for my very own sleeve.... Why, because I was tired...tired of the struggle....

Wow.