Although I've been lucky enough to not have people be as disgustingly rude as some of the people in all of your pasts, I can totally relate to each and every one of you. In reading all of this, what I still can't figure out is why does it take all of us an online forum for us to confide in one another and look for emotional support? I am just as guilty of it. I have been around other fat people before and talking about food and stuff, and I can rarely remember any one of them telling me about how sad or unhappy they were in their current situation in life. They never said, someone was really cruel to me today and it really hurt. It's like we beat up ourselves so much for being fat that we can't even confide in other fat friends and show each other love because we hide our feelings instead like we don't deserve the comfort it would bring to confess them. What I am getting at, is that I am glad I found a place to come each day and read about others just like me that feel like they deserve happiness for themselves and for others like themselves. When I read these posts, I don't see people who hate themselves, or lazy people, or people with no self-control (despite how the media portrays us). I see people who have been cursed with a horrible disease called obesity and who are taking control of their lives and sharing their lives with people who need support and love. It's nice to talk to fat people that finally feel like they are worth it and so am I to share their stories and help each other cope with all we have been through. :clap2: