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I just bought 2 brand new dresses (tags on them!) at Goodwill, one from Gap and one from Lane Bryant. $4.99 a piece!! No luck with pants there though.
Old Navy is having one of their crazy sales and I got shirts for $3.49, $2.99 and $.47!!!!

For some reason (I've got to think on it), I've been "hungry" all day; in quotes bc it's not really hunger, but "wanting to eat". Being able to put a label on and identify each was a big, fat epiphany for me. Clearly I'm not in need of food bc I've eaten at the same times and in the same amounts that I have been for the past 2 months.
I'm dancing with my demons today. But you know what? I'M LEADING!
I haven't given in. And for that tiny miracle, I am grateful and proud.

For some reason (I've got to think on it), I've been "hungry" all day; in quotes bc it's not really hunger, but "wanting to eat". Being able to put a label on and identify each was a big, fat epiphany for me. Clearly I'm not in need of food bc I've eaten at the same times and in the same amounts that I have been for the past 2 months.
I'm dancing with my demons today. But you know what? I'M LEADING!
I haven't given in. And for that tiny miracle, I am grateful and proud.

Thanks for the support, ladies. It means a lot. Sometimes this food thing is a lonely place to be. I'm trying to be brutally honest with myself and my crazy, unhealthy behaviors.
I'm ready to give up my excuses (alcoholic father, mother married 5 times, moving so much when young, blah, blah, blah) and take responsibility for my CHOICES.
food was always there for me; a constant in my crazy life and the way my grandmother (another constant) showed love. Eating something yummy (read: bad for me) made me feel good and being full (stuffed!) made me happy. I struggle every day, but I've been to enough AA crap to know that all you can do it take it one day at a time.
And some days, I can only take it 15 minutes at a time! But I'M DOING IT!! I have to. I have three beautiful, young children and an amazing husband who NEED and love me!!

This is the 1st time I've posted a picture as I'm only 12 weeks out, but my friends keep saying they can tell I've lost. I guess I can't bc I see myself every day! lol
Pic on the left is at my heaviest, the right is from last weekend.

This is the 1st time I've posted a picture as I'm only 12 weeks out, but my friends keep saying they can tell I've lost. I guess I can't bc I see myself every day! lol
Pic on the left is at my heaviest, the right is from last weekend.

This is the 1st time I've posted a picture as I'm only 12 weeks out, but my friends keep saying they can tell I've lost. I guess I can't bc I see myself every day! lol
Pic on the left is at my heaviest, the right is from last weekend.

Thanks for the support, ladies. It means a lot. Sometimes this food thing is a lonely place to be. I'm trying to be brutally honest with myself and my crazy, unhealthy behaviors.
I'm ready to give up my excuses (alcoholic father, mother married 5 times, moving so much when young, blah, blah, blah) and take responsibility for my CHOICES.
food was always there for me; a constant in my crazy life and the way my grandmother (another constant) showed love. Eating something yummy (read: bad for me) made me feel good and being full (stuffed!) made me happy. I struggle every day, but I've been to enough AA crap to know that all you can do it take it one day at a time.
And some days, I can only take it 15 minutes at a time! But I'M DOING IT!! I have to. I have three beautiful, young children and an amazing husband who NEED and love me!!

You have the most gorgeous skin ever! It's perfect and I'm jealous!

Good lord I love this thread. I am a binge eater and a secret eater. If I picked up food for work or home, I always had something "extra" to eat in the car on the way back. If I had to stop at the drugstore, I got a candy bar and ate it before I got home. I'd sit in my car and eat lunch after driving through somewhere bc I didn't want anyone to see how much I ate. And when I'd get donuts on the way to work, I pretended that some of them were for my coworkers, but they were really all for me.
It's such painful behavior and it's both humiliating and liberating to admit it. My BFF and I (both with troubled childhoods and difficult mothers) "joke" about our addiction by saying, "Well, lets just go eat a hug." I've always HATED myself for having no willpower and feeling powerless over food.< /p>
I'm about 3 months out from surgery and my appetite is returning to a certain degree. It terrifies me. To date, I have not "cheated". I'm proud of myself for choosing well so far and I have an amazing DH and circle of friends cheering me on. I know I'm one of the lucky ones.
I'm trying hard to deal with my addiction to food and it is like dancing with the devil. I come my a family of addicts and worry every day that I can't do this. I told my DH, "It's like telling an alcoholic, 'I know you can't handle alcohol, but you'll have to drink it every day of your life and it's up to you to make sure that you drink only this certain type of alcohol and only in moderation.'"
It seems almost impossible!
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I guess I'll just put it out there.
I am more academic than emotional and have lost a lot of patience with this political correctness or uber editing of comments in fear of offending someone. People who are easily offended are going to be offended by something no matter what. Some want to be handled with pearly white kid gloves with soft fabric. This dilutes some of the passion of the human experience. If you only want to hear what pleases you and supports your point of view, then you probably need to grow up. We are all much more complex than that. I am not easily offended. I want to hear the sinew, guts and soul of something, not the edited, whitewashed, watered down and overall diluted version. I respect those who have the guts to damn the torpedoes and put themselves out there. If you are so fragile that you cry when you touch the wings of a moth and some dust vaporizes, then you and I are probably not going to be able to have a very meaningful interaction. If you have not elected to take advantage of resources and advice provided by your surgeon, NUT, or the vast information available on the internet, then I am not interested in communicating with you. Personal responsibility is part of adulthood.
With that said, I am not perfect. I don't expect anyone else to be. But I don't want to hear whining nor see questions about very obvious information that can be easily researched by a 30 second web search. I am, and we all are, processing through a project of "self" where accountability and information are important. Anyone who wants support in being less accountable or making excuses are not interesting nor a good investment in my time. Do what you want. I really don't care. If your questions or feelings are informed and sincere, then that is different. Some just don't want to feel like they are alone in their experience and need validation for their current feelings.
You want to send me to your banned list? I couldn't care less. I do not ever need outside validation from another person. That is the level of "self actualization" on Maslow's Hierarch of Needs.

I couldn't agree more!!
And the media saying "alleged shooter" really burned my ass! >:[

Good lord I love this thread. I am a binge eater and a secret eater. If I picked up food for work or home, I always had something "extra" to eat in the car on the way back. If I had to stop at the drugstore, I got a candy bar and ate it before I got home. I'd sit in my car and eat lunch after driving through somewhere bc I didn't want anyone to see how much I ate. And when I'd get donuts on the way to work, I pretended that some of them were for my coworkers, but they were really all for me.
It's such painful behavior and it's both humiliating and liberating to admit it. My BFF and I (both with troubled childhoods and difficult mothers) "joke" about our addiction by saying, "Well, lets just go eat a hug." I've always HATED myself for having no willpower and feeling powerless over food.< /p>
I'm about 3 months out from surgery and my appetite is returning to a certain degree. It terrifies me. To date, I have not "cheated". I'm proud of myself for choosing well so far and I have an amazing DH and circle of friends cheering me on. I know I'm one of the lucky ones.
I'm trying hard to deal with my addiction to food and it is like dancing with the devil. I come my a family of addicts and worry every day that I can't do this. I told my DH, "It's like telling an alcoholic, 'I know you can't handle alcohol, but you'll have to drink it every day of your life and it's up to you to make sure that you drink only this certain type of alcohol and only in moderation.'"
It seems almost impossible!
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I started a BR area thread so we don't hog the NOLA thread! lol

Good lord I love this thread. I am a binge eater and a secret eater. If I picked up food for work or home, I always had something "extra" to eat in the car on the way back. If I had to stop at the drugstore, I got a candy bar and ate it before I got home. I'd sit in my car and eat lunch after driving through somewhere bc I didn't want anyone to see how much I ate. And when I'd get donuts on the way to work, I pretended that some of them were for my coworkers, but they were really all for me.
It's such painful behavior and it's both humiliating and liberating to admit it. My BFF and I (both with troubled childhoods and difficult mothers) "joke" about our addiction by saying, "Well, lets just go eat a hug." I've always HATED myself for having no willpower and feeling powerless over food.< /p>
I'm about 3 months out from surgery and my appetite is returning to a certain degree. It terrifies me. To date, I have not "cheated". I'm proud of myself for choosing well so far and I have an amazing DH and circle of friends cheering me on. I know I'm one of the lucky ones.
I'm trying hard to deal with my addiction to food and it is like dancing with the devil. I come my a family of addicts and worry every day that I can't do this. I told my DH, "It's like telling an alcoholic, 'I know you can't handle alcohol, but you'll have to drink it every day of your life and it's up to you to make sure that you drink only this certain type of alcohol and only in moderation.'"
It seems almost impossible!
.

OK, not a black dress, but the fanciest dress I have worn other than my wedding dress almost 10 years ago!

Just read that it's a double whammy of major surgery/anesthesia and rapid weight loss, and there's nothing you can do about it!
Not getting enough Iron or Protein makes it even worse apparently.
"Hey, you're looking hot in those jeans...too bad about that big BALD SPOT." LMAO

Just read that it's a double whammy of major surgery/anesthesia and rapid weight loss, and there's nothing you can do about it!
Not getting enough Iron or Protein makes it even worse apparently.
"Hey, you're looking hot in those jeans...too bad about that big BALD SPOT." LMAO

Just read that it's a double whammy of major surgery/anesthesia and rapid weight loss, and there's nothing you can do about it!
Not getting enough Iron or Protein makes it even worse apparently.
"Hey, you're looking hot in those jeans...too bad about that big BALD SPOT." LMAO

Just read that it's a double whammy of major surgery/anesthesia and rapid weight loss, and there's nothing you can do about it!
Not getting enough Iron or Protein makes it even worse apparently.
"Hey, you're looking hot in those jeans...too bad about that big BALD SPOT." LMAO

I just assumed it all tasted sour! I'll try a different brand. Duh!

I saw a tshirt the other day that said, "I'm silently correcting your grammar." and I thought about everyone here!! LOL

- I will not miss feeling self-conscious while eating out bc other people judge what the fat person is eating.
- I will not miss the burden of being "funny" so that people 'won't notice' my weight.
- I will not miss feeling GINORMOUS while walking into the ocean and coming back out with my bathing suit on.
- I will not miss the spectacle that is me getting out of a beach chair, low car, deep sofa or blow up mattress.
- I will not miss being the 1st person to sweat in any situation and knowing that others know it's bc I'm fat.