pcosmommyof4

My band just had her three year birthday. I had her fixed for the second time in Oct. 2014. She is restricted, but man my willpower sux. I hit that three mark, stepped on the scale 10 pounds less than the birth of my band. Up until the the secound corrective surgery I had done great with my diet. I never drank pop, I limited myself to the amount of sugar I had daily. Then suddenly I felt like a failure at this. I still fill like a failure. To the point that now I am being the failure. The band is finally working correctly and I have given up after three years of trying hard to loose it with NO progress (keep in mind during the three years I have had a total of four months being in the sweet spot due to repeated band failure). I am so grateful for the surgeon to repair the band twice at no cost to me. Now, here I am screwing up and have no willpower left. I want it, but I don't "see" it happening for me at this point.

I have now had two repairs on my port. I still thank that lap band can work for me. http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/2014/10/three-weeks-post-op-take-three.html

So...in August 2014 I found out I had an issue with my port again. Dr. Beinivedes in Richardson, Texas, admitted that he made a mistake with my flipped port repair in August 2013. In September 2014 he performed another surgery to try and fix the port, at their costs. This time he moved the port to the right side of stomach (instead of the left). He told my husband that he used to much tubing in the first repair. This surgery involves two, two inch cuts in my stomach to move and and replace the port. I am wondering......AM I THE ONLY ONE this has happened too. i am done with WLS if this one doesn't work. I am sure the next surgery will be the eventual removal. Until then..maybe I will loose weight. One week later, I have pain in the center of back that won't go away. My stomach is still bloated and I have a fever of 99.2 (my normal is 97.3-97.6). They agreed to pay for their mistake and I said, "Oh okay, no problem." But this time I am not recovering as well as I did the first two LB surgeries.

Some say fills aren't important. Other say you have to control what you eat...That is why you get the band! My weight is only 10 pounds less than it was when I had my lapband. I do think the sleeve or placation would have been an easier route, but the Band is what God gave me. I have not had true restriction until this week and most likely will have another in three more weeks. For the first time I am at 9.5ccs in my 14 cc band. I am loosing, just very slowly. In previous posts people have commented that I was to blame for not controlling my cravings. However, I am told the Lapband is supposed to help with the cravings. When I spoke with the person that gave me my fills, I have been told that my cravings are there because I am not at restriction and according to the x-ray that was finally done I have never had true restriction. What I lost in the beginning (75 pounds) was my will power and not the lapband (other than the first few weeks after surgery when I didn't feel like eating.) I keep having weird snags along the way with getting my band up to the true green zone. It is hard to find what you haven't experienced and I am scared of hitting the red zone. The biggest thing happened two years ago is that I stopped drinking pop. Don't get me wrong, I still have one about once a week. However I use to have about 6 a day. Today I am super excited to finally REALLY be starting this journey! Even better, I have been told to not do curl ups or other repetitive motions similar so my port doesn't flip again. Here is to a better me!

This must be about the time that by port flipped and leaked the fluid out of my band.

It wasn't that big of deal! http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/2013/08/12-days-post-revision-and-feeling-good.html?showComment=1377658646290#c3004322866497770283 So happy to feel full again!

II am very happy with True Results to fix my port at their costs. My procedure will be on Thursday this week and 11am. I have to be their for the procedure at 10am....http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/2013/08/revision-happy-with-true-results.html

@Maddysgram Do you have something other than LB? My revision is for the LB port. @SolracSpree the death is still under investigation, here is one article if you want to read what happened. http://www.dallasnews.com/news/metro/20130719-texas-giant-to-remain-closed-as-six-flags-investigates-woman-s-fall.ece

Info taken from the following website: http://women.webmd.com/tc/polycystic-ovary-syndrome-pcos-topic-overview

For reasons that are not well understood, in PCOS the hormones get out of balance. One hormone change triggers another, which changes another. For example: The sex hormones get out of balance. Normally, the ovaries make a tiny amount of male sex hormones (androgens). In PCOS, they start making slightly more androgens. This may cause you to stop ovulating, get acne, and grow extra facial and body hair. The body may have a problem using insulin, called insulin resistance. When the body doesn't use insulin well, blood sugar levels go up. Over time, this increases your chance of getting diabetes.

http://women.webmd.com/tc/polycystic-ovary-syndrome-pcos-topic-overview

Anxious. Nervous. Is it worth it? Okay, well I knew that having a revision was a possibility. I know the downside of a lap band is the promise of more surgeries. I am thankful that True Results is performing the surgery at their expense next week. I am not sure what happened with port or when the port flipped. However I do know we are going to fix it next week. I can't leave it the way it is. I know the band worked in the beginning to control the cravings. I have to be smart about it, but it does control the cravings. http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/

There are many people on these boards that do have PCOS. Your nasty posts don't bother me. I post for educational purposes. If you don't like my posts, don't read them!

I love all of the advice from people that have no clue! LOL! PCOS cravings are kicking, not sure what has reactivated the pcos, but it defiantly needs to go away! Unless you have the PCOS cravings you have absolutely no clue what I am going through. It is a stronger intensity than what a pregnant women has. It is not an excuse it is a fact, so unless you have a clue don't give your snobbish opinions. I am still waiting to hear back about my port revision. My foot is healed and I can walk again and work out again. Since I don't seem to have restriction I am going back to protein shake diet. I need to loose the weight that I have gained this summer while I was not able to work out. If you want to read more here is my blog! http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/2013/07/still-waitingcarb-cravings-are-huge.html

Two things are up with my band. Number one..I may not have been receiving fills when I was told I was receiving fills. The paperwork does not show the I received the last two fills that I was told I received. There is no way to tell if I received them or not because my port has flipped and is not accessible. I am 13 months out from surgery and already have to have a revision. Hopefully after the revision/during the revision my band can be filled to where I need it. I am hungry, looking for food and finding everywhere I drive or walk in this city and gaining the weight back faster than I lost it. Really disappointed. At this the lap band and the whole process seems to be another failure.

16 months ago: I know until they decide to fill my band, I am back on my own.

I live four hours from the city, therefore they can't just call me when they have an opening. Thanks for the as usual negative comments from this website. I have not given up. It seems that True Results has given up on me. There is a huge difference. I paid for the band because it was suppose to stop the cravings, it did for the first few months. i plan on calling this office and talking to someone else in the morning. I am also a teacher with high stakes testing this next week and I can't take off work this week to make it to my apt. But it has never taken 6 weeks to reschedule before.

I have stayed positive through this entire ordeal. However I feel like the clinic I used banded me, and the first signs of trouble left me hanging. Everything went great with my band until I became sick with Swine flu, then had a round of Mono this winter. The clinic had to take fluid out because I was ill. That was back in Nov. They still don't want to fill me up where I was before. I am back to the old cravings as usual. Now, they are refusing to make me an appt for another six weeks, because they don't have any openings. I am sitting here in tears, because one year ago, I thought if I did my part, than this would work and go well. Instead True Results gave up on ME the moment I became ill and started having problems. I have never been past 8cc'ss in my 14 cc band in the last ten months. I have never been down to the 1/2 c. a food a meal they want us at, and yet they have refused to get me there and now refuse to get me in. Not that they have done ANYTHING the last six months when I have went. I guess I will give up.

In previous posts I had mentioned being sick and feeling like garbage since November when I had the flu. I found out from my gyn that I most likely had H1N1 and some E virus. I couldn't remember what the "E" Virus was to look it up when I got home. To make a long story short I was searching Mono for a student today. While reading about it I found its medical name. You may already know it, but yes it is the mystery "E" Virus that my GYN said was acting up on me again. Okay, so I get it now. The swine flu causes lung and tummy problems, cold chills and fevers that last for weeks. The mono reactivated itself and caused even more fatigue and muscle weakness. My iron was never anemically low. I was just down from the Mono. If you have ever had mono you know there is no way for your body to be able to burn fat and now way to survive on just a few hundred calories a day when you are that sick. My cravings were truly from the food being needed to heal my body. I posted on face book and twitter a couple of weeks that I felt like I could run five miles. That was the first time I felt normally since Thanksgiving. At this point I am just glad to understand what my body has been going through and why I have stopped loosing weight As always to read more you will need to go to my blog. http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/2013/02/the-long-winter.html

Life happens I am down four pounds in the last three weeks! I think maybe things are starting to turn around. The more think about it the more things make sense as to why I was not loosing weight before. 1. SMALL BITES and WAITING one minute in between bites. I have not been good about that rule. 2. Yes, I have had my share of chocolate since Christmas. 3. Sodium, everything that I had been eating was high sodium. I am watching this closer. Three goals for myself over the next week. You can read more here

Thank you Dylan. I just feel like the accomplishment is coming to an end.

I drink 1 to 2 liters of water a day. I eat about 70 grams of lean protein a day. The one thing I can see is that I maybe eating to much because I am not waiting one minute in between bites. I did check my normal lunch menu and my sodium intake is very high. I only have twenty minutes for lunch. During that so called lunch I am working with my students that can not get help at home on the homework and kids that are tired of the "drama" that a Middle School has during lunch My kids are use to my eating habits. But I know I am not concentrating on the way I eat during that time. My meal is planned and comes from home. But, yes it is processed lean meats or microwave trays. YES, they have been approved from the NP that I see every two to three weeks. I was also recently told that I had Swine flu and some other Virus that is as bad as Swine flu this winter. That dr. thinks some of my struggle is coming from body being sick. I have struggled since the week I threw up for three days and had diarrhea for a week. I keep track of my foods with mynetdiary on my phone. I love Edamame...is this healthy enough to eat a half cup for one meal? That is something I can easily eat at work. I am not offended, but I am discouraged. So helpful words are more helpful. I ordered 12 boxes of Girl Scout cookies without thinking...oh dear lord why wasn't I thinking? I can't eat those. I am going to hand them to my kids and say eat up and then take them to my kids at school and say eat up! I love everything about food, accept my fat tummy, arms, legs, back.....

Source: From: 6 months post op

Ugghhh after a year of this I want to eat. I want to really eat. But eating is not helping the process. I am so irritated I am once again not loosing what they dr. says I should. I am about 30 pounds where I should be in weight loss. I am on feet most of the day at work with no energy left to work out at home. My goal is to loose 60 more pounds by June 1st. ( I know this seems like a lot, but I am behind by 30 pounds already). The only thing I can figure is forget the band and go back to protein shakes for a few weeks. That is going to be hard because I want to EAT! So this weekend I did give in and eat and gained 6 pounds, yes 6. It will take me a month to that 6 pounds. Over eating a chicken sandwich and a low-carb hamburger. My calories on Sunday was 2248. I have not ate that much since my surgery. I normally do not go over 1200. My knees are hurting all of the time again. This also hinders the workout. I just want to loose the weight, be healthier and be done with all of this. What is even worse is that my BP is higher than what it ever has been. I thought loosing weight was suppose to lower my BP. Instead it has made it higher. I wish I knew what I am doing wrong. I feel like the clinic is giving up on me as well. Okay, enough complaining. It is like I don't have a band. I am hungry all the time. My NP says they won't fill it anymore because they don't want me getting stuck again. I am still eating one to two cups of food per feel and the feeling full only last a couple of hours. I don't think my band has slipped because I am not in pain and I still have a tiny bit of restriction. What am I doing wrong? What happened to my successfulness and how they heck do I get it back? I weight the same I did back in November. I have not lost one damn pound and I eat less than 1200 cals with low sodium and high protein. It seems like once again my body will not work they way it is suppose to.

I did slip my dancing shoes on while at the Texas State Fair last week. I nicely created two separate scenes while randomly dancing with my daughter and friends. The second time the police came over to break the crowd up that was watching us. It was AWESOME http://tinkrisegrind.blogspot.com/2012/10/that-was-hard-10-pounds-found-my.html