Jennifur

morning glad you guys had such a great time. after i was called out on being a fat ass last week, i sulked, cried and spent 3 days in bed... this morning i got up and went for a 3 mile walk. I'm going to cancel my gym membership for the summer, because i don't have the money and i can walk every day. i don't know what to eat i just cant remember how i did it in the beginning anyway, i'm going to the grocery store, i'm now staRVing and only have food for the kids, i can't remember what i use to eat, i suck be good everyone Terry -Hugs, Tracyk = motivate me? i need to lose the 5 i gained on the stupid antidepressants.... which i stopped because it is not worth it for me to gain weight! oh, plus the other 200 i was told i was overweight.... yup... you all know how mental i am about it and now see myself right back to where i was

morning everyone

Morning gals it is cold and rainy here Laura, good luck, my ds can't have any kind of milk and i had very similar issues, ended up with soy and was mixing cereal in his bottle at night at 6weeks old, but boy did he sleep great.... I'm so jealous of everyone, trip to CA this weekend and so very sad i can't join you all in AL. I'm freaking about money and waiting to find out how much unemployment i'll be getting. I'm doing more spring cleaning today...just about done with my room and worked on dd & ds's rooms yesterday and made some ham & ch soup, since someone i hate called me out yest and told me they were 200lbs less than me.... nothing like hitting me where it hurts the most. can you only imagine what petty bs I delt with yest, but it was all so hurtful .... every word, infact the 10 harrassing calls, texts and messages i got last night, i was ready to press harrassment charges, 1 more thing and i'm done. I'm not doing this again. anyway, hope you all have a good day, i'm going to jump in the shower and figure out what i'm going to do today.

Morning gals, i was going to get up and walk tis morning but my mp3 is not charged so i'll charge it and walk later, i might just relax today not sure, anyway, off to get ds on the bus......bbl...

good morning gals Jane - Happy B-Day, hope you had a great weekend I am here, my mom got me a grill for mothers day, so i put that together, did some yard work, some laundry, cooked dinner on new grill, Sat I planted some shrubs, moved hasta, went swimming, week wacked the yard and planted some grass, and Sunday, i used my left over wood from the deck and built a bench for the little deck for a place to sit by the pool and a tash can for the deck out of the wood, so it will be heavy and wont blow away and won't get destroyed in the weather here because it is pressure treated wood. That took most of the day. Here I am this morning, just applied for unemployment, it is official, I'm home... kind of stresses me, but wil be ok. I got this playhouse for dd and it has needed some work, and i have stuff to fix it, so I'm going to relax today and tomorrow i'm going to fix the shingles that need work, put new stairs on and fix the railing, and get it painted and cleaned up for Dyan to play in My yard looks great and has taken 10 years but is cleaned up! I am going to work on 1 room a day while i'm home so i can enjoy my time at home. If anyone wants to come visit you are all welcome... hope you guys are having a great weekend too

Haydee... I would like to visit there again... I think I'm going to become self employed, i just need to get my thoughts together first. Terry - i'm so sorry for what you are dealing with... but you are right, at least he will be safe tomorrow i'm getting up and going for a walk,

hi everyone hope you have a great time Tracy and Judy on your trips I'm doing housework and baking in the sun this weekend ... today sucks... my last day at work and i'm trying to hold it together... my mother picked a fight with me this morning and i have a little other drama going on... just don't need it today anyway... hope you are all well... i suck

hi gals quick check in still at work Tracy, i'm at same 3lbs too, and now pms so it feels like 300.! I am with you Terry, have not lost much since lack of exercise, and since we have been in the building, i don't get to walk around like i did, so i feel extra wiggly! Pamela, congrats on everything Judy... soak for me try to be back later hi everyone...

Hi gals a quick check in... I have not vanished, just sharing very tight quarters with my boss these days and pop in when I can, Monday was our May day scheduled for town clean up so i trimmed trees and bagged the rest of the leaves and crapola from winter so they would pick it up today, I hate when the bags sit in front of the house for weeks waiting for our next day. Thursday is my last day of work, i'm actually very sad! I love these guys. Other than that just trying to get stuff cleaned up here, my computer goes tomorrow night... so sad Terry - HUGS Everyone... hi.. i'll try to do personals later, but when home I will log on daily. I posted deck pictures on my facebook if anyone wants to look

i don't know where you guys are posting for the trip anymore or if you are just emailing. i did email Terry Back, It was a very hard thing to have to make a decision, but I am living paycheck to paycheck, i'm much more comfortable than I was last year, but still week to week, but with not knowing if or where I am going to be working, is so very stressful, and I can't commit to spending $1000 eaisly with not knowing where it was coming from. For a while I thought maybe we would get a stimulus like last year... which would have paid for it all... but no, we get $15 a week in our checks... and that just isn't helping. I am going to miss you all so much and so very jealous, but i hope you all have a great time too. Love you all

just wanted to say a quick good morning, i'm sharing a small office again, just like the beginning of the job I can't think about no pay for a week but i'm exhausted and would just like to take a day or 2 off without running kids, without me running, not being sick... just a day or 2 to breathe... no housework... sitting on the deck soaking up the sun i ate like crap last night, pms i'm sure... had 1/2 cup sf ice cream, 1/2 cup mashed potatoes and 3 chicken tenders... not all at the same time, from the minute i walked in the door until the minute i went to bed... and all i really wanted was some popcorn, and i didn't have any... went to the store this am.... so that is my dinner tonight i'll try to check back in if i'm alone... have a great day

Terry You guys are in my prayers... that must be so difficult

Terry I didn't call for results, my dr confirmed what i read, that it was a diagonis that is best determined because the lyme doesn't always show right away, sometimes 6 mos to a year before positive test... I got the bite about 3 1/2 weeks before i felt so bad i went to the dr, so they think I caught it early. Good thing i'm super sensitive and have severe reactions very early! it has been 10 days of antibiotics and i'm able to stay awake until 9- the last few nights, vs going to bed with Dyan at 7:00 and having to fight to stay awake that long. The muscle aches still kind of come and go, but they are nothing like they were, and i'm sleeping again. The Lexapro is helping with the severe depression that came with all this too, and overall, i think it is good for now. I was having anger fits before the depression, I actually almost got into a bar fight the weekend before the muscle thing got out of hand. You have all seen me, i'm a happy drinker... I was so angry, my friends were ready to drag me out of the bar... unwillingly, and i just ordered my first drink, so it was not like i was smashed or anything. So... I guess i'm beginning to feel more like myself, and the anti depressants are keeping me from having a stroke over the fact i'm done working next friday! I should be freaking out! they are doing the punch list now, it is huge, maybe i'll be here until June 1? LOL

Haydee i had ice cream for dinner too... soft vanilla with rainbow sprinkles... a far cry from my eddy's 1/2 or sugar free...

I'm starving corn toasties for breakfast... they work so well everyone has been telling me the weight gain horror stories of lexapro... i lost 3lbs... so i'll take that. i'm still borderline a mess so i can't get into that right now but getting better still starving... and i have a dish of icecream everynight too... but now want nachos!

hi guys sorry I lost my thought, owner of the company came in. As of right now, it looks like i'm going to be unemployed for a couple of weeks, or so i'm still praying for this job to come through, there is nothing out there... but i have to prepare for the worst. Today is the inspection for the punch list, so lots of company, man am i stressed

Tracy - nice to see you... i'm kind of mia too... issues I am still addicted to Nacho's... pulled pork ones... and guacamole... you guys have me hooked. Terry- I'm glad everything is ok, i was just catching up and was worried to death

thanks gals i have another meeting on Tuesday, hope to know something. I'm also applying for another job today, i found it last night just couldn't think straight to get my letter/resume perfect for this one. I am so sick from an

Jane drink warm lemon water, it will work... then ask dr for water pills

hi guys just winding down from my day, spend so much time on the computer finishing things up and starting new things up here. I'm nervous about my potential new job, i've never done marketing... but i love and promote the company so can't be too hard. right? I should know next week, but I'm going to apply for a job i found today with our electric company, great benefits I am feeling a little better... but my stomach is a mess from the antibiotics. afraid to get on the scale - i'm eating not much but crap that makes my tummy feel better... anyway, freaking about everything... but wanted to pop in and say hello to you all... I don't feel like i'm part of the crew anymore... kind of makes me sad... but i won't leave ya'll like unwanted kittens...

hi gals just wanted to check in I'm beat today and antibiotics are kicking my butt on top of it all...i'm going to bed early tonight and hope to sleep all night Pamela, I took online classes and hated to bother my instructor... I would ask questions, but that is crazy... Laura, I saw pics on facebook, he is so cute! I'm so happy for you... motherhood is a great thing Terry - I am sure you will enjoy the mountains.... Tracyk - go you... when i am not working or home working in 3 weeks, i'm going to start walking again, i just can't do it now, i just got in from a property walk and my legs hurt so badly... oh... long overdue for tylenol... that might help hi everyone... Judy, feel better! Where is TracyinKS? i didn't see anything from her when i was trying to catch up Kat how is the job?

hi guys a quick check in- really busy at work and should not even be fooling around but i miss you all glad to see everyone is motivated... me ... not at all, i am not feeling well and so tired in bed early... have not left my house other than work in weeks. My friends are dragging me out for Cinco de Mayo tonight but i told them i'm driving and not staying long. Job is still up in the air... looking good, but up in the air, I should know by the end of the week anyway, back to work, i have a rocking headache and my fingers are twitching for no apparent reason and i'm in bed at 7:30 every night with ds, but my leg aches are not nearly as bad as they were. USE BUG SPRAY IF YOU GO IN THE WOODS! Lyme sucks!

hi everyone just wanted to check in, it has been a very trying few weeks. My test wont be back for a week, but dr is almost sure and is treating me for Lyme disease, so on that happy note, I have been in bed by 7:30-8pm every night and up by 11 and tossing and turning because my legs hurt so badly and i'm so bone chilling cold i can't function. I have that undercontrol with tylenol every 3 1/2 hrs and start antibiotics today. I am still uncertain about my job... but i'm so tired right now i don't care. I also started lexapro because of my anxiety and depression that has been raging, but is also a symptom of lyme. I don' know if i like it, i'm now even more tired and numb which i don't like at all. anyway, i hope you are all doing well. Wish I could have lunch with you tx gals. i'm going to go find something to do to keep me awake for a bit, then to bed early

hi gals checking in... have not had a computer for a week and just getting hooked up at work. Pamela - Congrats ... I'm so proud of you Laura - well... words cannot describe the feeling of motherhood... can it? He is so cute I can't stand it Tracy and Terry - i tried to email over the weekend to say i'm still alive but used my phone so who the heck knows what happened. Susie, yes I got your package, thank you so much... Sorry I couldn't thank you earlier, i have been very limited on my phone hope everyone else is doing well i'm exhausted and bloated and have eaten like shit... excuse my swearing....no other way to describe, i'm hurting so badly i don't care what i eat when i have a minute to eat and retaining so much water it is horrible.... oh well, i'm trying to get focused.

Morning gals Happy Easter hope you all have a great day Tracyk = congrat on the 3.5 i'm going to be moderately bad today,, cant eat much so could be worse, but that is ok... i went shopping yesterday and am going to have a great week