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Tracyk Hugs sister... I am trying hard to stay positive, it is not easy at all, but i figure if i do maybe something good or even great will happen or i'll pass out from hunger...and then i won't care

Hi gals Well, there was so much real cheese in that pie, but everyone loved it... of course I knew i was not going to be able to eat it so it has real cheese in there, and way too much due to the little accident....lol We had a nice day, my sister is really starting to become the person she use to be. I went to PA today and we had a long talk, I told her about the big weight gain with the lexapro and then loosing it except the last 5lbs, because of course i'm super pms this morning ... she gave me a fill, my biggest one, i'm up to 1.5cc, she was going to put me to 1.75 but i told her i wanted to do baby steps, I then asked her for the post surgery pages of the diet so i could get back on track of what i should be eating. That was a bonus. So I am on Clear liquids for 2-5 days, the min is 2 days but left it up to me... but no more than 5, then mushie food for the same amount of time. I also have an appointment with the nutritionist on mondy, so I hope to get a swift kick in the butt to get this going again. I'm sipping chicken broth right now. Pamela, I think you still have my aol email address, I'm going to look there, but glad you are doing well already! Judy, you getting some nice weather to send my way? I'm tired of all the cool temps and rain. Well, today was a hit, so i'm happy. never walked this morning so going out in a bit.

OMG I went to put the mac in the oven and someone put the rack in the wrong way, i thought i could make it over the lip but it was so heavy and it slid, thank god had a cookie sheet under it but it is not going to be the same, i am so upset, and had a huge mess of milk and egg to clean up that ran off the cookie sheet onto the floor. I am not going to walk this morning, i'll have to go tonight, my entire morning is off now... UGH

Morning gals Kat - that is horrible, that poor guy, you and your family are in my prayers Pamela - can't wait to see pics, and I am sure it is all going to be worth it. xoxo Terry - Besides the horrrible hangover I get when I drink wine, i eat out of control, worse than out of control, so i give you an A+++ on going to bed. I have my appt this moning, I so need to go, but i don't think i need a fill, i think I am going to ask for an initial packet so i can get the post surgery diet and follow that for 2 weeks again to jump start and get me back into shape, I need a paper in front of me, i can't go on memory, obviously that doesn't work. well, off to cook my mac pie for dd's birthday lunch with my sister, oh it is so yummy, it came from my dad's family tree and I am down to making it once a year because we would eat it all, and of course my dad's family being from the south, ya know it can't be all that good for you. LOL coffee is gone, guess i should get moving if i'm going to walk before my crazy day. Hope you all have a good day my thoughts and prayers are with those who need them

Kat - think happy thoughts... that is what i tell myself when i think horrible things. I tell myself Karma.... 2 fold... and thinking is as bad as saying or doing- i'm off to bed, have a very busy morning... wish me luck with the crazy pa in the am. hope you all have a good night and Tracy K is ok, she has been very quiet

LOL yuppers... today she is not here and i'm on salad #2 today, and i went shopping and got some multi grain chips to go with my homemade guacamole (Yes you girls have me hooked), and I'll have a few chips when I make it and she will pound down the bag and my guac before i go to get more. Kids all just had ice cream and i had nothing ...

hi TracyK:tt2::biggrin::tt2::sad: lol i just saw this... Popcorn is my ice cream... here i am:drool: that is just what i look like with a good bowl

Haydee, ROFL Terry - i know, it is my will power, much easier when it just wasnt around the house.... LOL as i think about it, sometimes she does, like the chip night when she had the bag in my face saying have some... or the 3 batches of popcorn and puts bowls in front of all of us. Good thing, last night at applebees i burned the top of my mouth so badly it blistered, i ate a salad for lunch and it hurt, every bite, and that did me in, the roof of my mouth is raw, so even if i'm starving i am not eating. i am afraid to go to dr, because i gained a few but then again, i was up a lot from the meds. wonder how Pamela is doing I have no will power, I just need to keep it out of the house.

Good Luck Pamela - good thoughts heading your way! Haydee, That is a good plan, maybe you guys should make a safety word...to use in extreme situations...LOL My mom is 140lbs ... and that is heavy for her, but she is the junkfood queen, she likes all my comfort foods, so when she was not living here it was easier, but she is out of control and ate an entire bag of kettle chips the other night for dinner... ok... glad she ate the entire bag so there wasn't any left, but i'm tired of being stuck at this weight, and my little snacks, and the popcorn she makes 3-4 times a week is what is keeping me here. Just had a small salad, lettuce, grilled chicken, 2% cheese and an italian dressing, i know not the lite stuff, but better than ranch which is loaded with calories, and maybe the oil will help regulate me a little bit. I have some eddy's 1/2 the fat PB Cup ice cream and i only have it when I'm in bad shape.... it has been 10 days good luck

TRACY... put the cheezeits down... lol you look great and are strong ... i know it is not easy i've been dealing with my own nightmare, this seems to be the summer for testing our strengths.. in different ways.. back from walk, 85 and tropical here and walked faster than ever, im sweating but have to leave for speech

Morning gals just finishing my coffee getting ready to go for my walk before the storms hit here Today show is on San Anotnio..... the mexican place we ate at was on there.... I so want to go back shoot be back

today i was so very bad shake for lunch then went to applebees got a chicken wrap and ate 1/2 of it and a few fries and at 9:30 at night just finished the other 1/2 that was probably 2 days of calories, no eating out tomorrow! I'm going to grill some chicken again for a salad. i feel like such a pig oh forgot i had a few chips with spinach dip...

I second that!!! I love it and you look great! I got mine layered last time and my curls are coming back so i've been lazy, but have to throw it up for the tattoo. I'm off to applebees for dinner, dd's birthday is friday so we are going to milk it out for the rest of the week instead of the big expensive dinner

Haydee, your post cracked me up too... be careful out there! Terry glad you are feeling better,I have not had a drink in 3 days and I too am feeling better, i'm starving to death but feel better about myself, shoot, i didn't have a drink for 8 months after surgery, then when i did... well i made up for it, so once a week is good Heather, nice to see you back... love the new pic.... you just had a baby and look at you! in my dreams i could look that good anyway, coming down from my walk, it is hot out, and going to jump in the pool it is the perfect day hugs

Terry prayers and good thoughts for the job interview. Keep us posted

Jane that is a great attitude and is very true. I am so unhappy with the way i look but yet with clothes on, I am not that unhappy, so in a sense i'm content with me enough to not care what i do. I worked out for 1 1/2 years and was happier than i am with myself since January when i had my gall bladder out and lost 20lbs, yet have hardly worked out at all. it is funny you say your August goal to work on attitude, because just last night while walking i told my friend that i was going to be dry for the next 30 days, I usually have a drink every night to come down and try to sleep. So she told me to be realistic, have a drink once a week... so that is it, i went to bed last night without a sip, and i wanted to munch on something and just went to sleep so i wouldn't. Jane, wish you were a day trip away, I'd bring the kids and come stay with you and help you get some projects done.... I am on a little 2 week vacation here and then going to take up the floor in the bathroom, i love doing projects that are rewarding!

Good morning gals I am up drinkin my coffee, of course today i get up in enough time to watch the today show, and they are in FL. LOL, oh i love how they always drink on the show, they just made killer margaritas and Al is getting loaded! I am off to a good start, walked yest am and then my friend said some day she is going to go with me, so i said i'd go after dinner when it cools down, and then dragged her out at 5:30 and went for another 2 1/2 mile walk. what i ate yest 1 protein shake 1 cup lettuce 1/2 cup grilled chicken 1/2 cup cheese 1/4 cup grilled zuccini and the results are in...-3 as of today how long this is going to last? who knows, but if it lasts long enough for me to get back to onderland (5.5lbs) and I can stay there this time I will be so happy.

Tracyks HUGS girlfriend.... but you sound so relaxed, enjoy your girly house and your son. Hold on to that letter, ya never know when you are going to need it. I'm glad the inlaws realized you are not crazy, i'm sure that has to help just knowing they know the truth... even if it will come down to sides. ok i'm going to cook some chicken, i'm hungry, after a swim, walk and a protein shake, i need food.... and a fill on Thursday

did anyone watch the today show today? They are doing vacation spots and Lake George NY was on today, of course i slept through it since i was up all stupd night, i was so mad, but that is 45 mins away from my house, where we go to six flags all the time and 10 mins away from where i use to work.

i just went for my walk, in record time, thank goodness - as i stepped foot in the driveway the huge thunderstorm hit. going to take ds to mcdonalds and the girls to my dads house so they can go for a run, they are getting ready for cheerleading practice. i'm going to make a small shake to take with me to fill me up. this is 3 days of walking, yipee for me good for all of us

Morning gals Pamela.... chunky dunking... that is the funniest thing i ever heard, coffee was coming out of my nose. I started walking again saturday and finishing my coffee now and going to bake in the sun and play in the pool, then head over to the Y, hopefully I will sleep tonight too. I wish i was a reader but i just can't find the right book that keeps my interest Terry - glad you checked in well, today i'm at 207, up 4lbs but i'm going to work hard this week, i have a regular check up on Thursday and can feel the bloat so going to see what I can get rid of, and have her check my fill level. Sometimes I can eat and sometimes not so i dont' know if it is my fill or my stress I have decided that my tax return next year will not go for a single home repair, not that there is much to do, but i am getting the smart lipo, which will take every penny, but the results my friend has had a year later and no saggy skin has sold me, even if it is a little saggy, it will be 10x better than the flab and skin hanging on my lower stomach. ok that is my obsession with myself ... anyway, have a great day - going to get dressed and hit the pavement

hi terry, how are you doing?

Morning gals rainy day here yesterday was our first real day of summer and i went to take the cover off the pool, and it was gross, dd put the cover on when i was away and didn't think to tell me it was starting to get cloudy so..... 2 nice days with the cover on it was very yucky. so i cleaned and put a ton of chemicals in, and later the hose blew a hole in it and water was everywhere, so it is a little cloudy but better and have to add 6" of water after i fix the hose today, very frustrating. Today is going to be a good cleaning day and pool fixing day and tomorrow is going to be another perfect day to bake in the sun and swim. ok, lets see if i can post this pic of my tattoo, it was right after it was done so still very bright, but it is drying out and scabby right now so doesn't look that nice either.

Good morning everyone I am back, got back late Thursday and yesterday was just crazy Tracyks- i'm so sorry for what you are dealing with Tracyk -i am up 3lbs after this week and i don't know why, i hardly ate anything and walked everywhere. I am getting ready for my big walk before it gets too hot, and Monday i'm heading back to the gym. I had a great time, had 1 really nice beach day, went shopping, lunch, gamble, got a new tattoo... left with $400 and came home with $400 after doing all that so I am very pleased. I am using my money to take my dd and her friend (7 of us total) to dinner on Friday night for her birthday, which i was going to do, but is going to be $250 easy so now it is paid for... nice. i'll get pics of my new tattoo later and post them, it is on the back of my neck and is a moom and stars ok i'm off to get ready for my day, going to do something productive.

Morning everyone Judy and Kat, how terribly sad I'm just shutting down my computer drinking my cofee, I'm leaving in 30 mins, my suitcase is in the car, i just need ice in the cooler and my small bag with the stuff i need this morning. of course I couldn't sleep and i called my friend to wake her up and she only got 4 hrs, but has me beat, i only got 2 if i am lucky, so after we bake in the sun for a couple hrs and check in, we may take a little tiny nap, at least tonight when i can't sleep i can get up and find something to do. talk to ya'll in a few days