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thanks girls most of the time I am ok, it just hurts that he can just walk away and never see or talk to us again.... anyway, just worked and stopped up to the building we did, got invited to a party friday night, kind of far away but might go. off to get my hair cut. bbl

Oh yeah, my ticker is only at 10.5 lost because last week I changed it to where I was at that point to get to 175 where I want to be, when I get there I'll do it from there to 150, so baby steps so I can feel like I can get there and I'm working for something.

Tracy - I got a fill on the 30th and the biggest fill ever up to 1.5cc and asked for the initial surgery diet. I did clear liquids for 10days, went to creamy soup for 1 week (lived on the chicken and cheese soup 3 times a day and about 1/2 cup max each surving) and now having 1 egg for breakfast, 1.5oz tuna for lunch and dinner made with low fat sour cream and a little shredded lettuce. My 3 little meals have 69g protein and about 680 cals. I have not slipped and have that feeling as in the beginning if I even think of eating the wrong thing I will PB in a major way. I have not done that since my fill, but I needed a reality check and I got it. I'm lower right now than I was before I had my dd 15 years ago and hope to be in the 180's next week. only 2lbs away! So that is it in a nutshell, I was tired of being where stats said I would be and and I want to be where I want to be! My dr is going to SHIT when he sees me in November. When school starts I will be back at the Y doing water aeorbics and light weights 3 days a week. OK off to do a little work, got another project. Have a great day everyone.. OH... I'm ok this morning I medicated to sleep last night, I don't understand how you can love someone one day and just walk away without a word the next, I think that is what hurts the most:frown:

I still have my kids here until the 10th. just about a perfect day here, a few clouds and no humidity, the pool is 78 and the air is 82 so it feels nice, Did my water aerobic cd, I love that thing. off to shower, today is Cheer tryouts so my running is starting today.

Morning You guys are funny TracyK - I'm sure it is not light or SF ice cream either right? Michelle... you glad to have some quiet? Kitties look like they can't wait either lol drinking my coffee and heading out for a walk, 2.5lbs away from hitting my August Goal of 190, I'm so excited about this again. I've lost 23lbs since July 30!:biggrin::w00t::ohmy: At this rate, I'll hit 175 in no time... then be on my way to exceeding my goals

I'm jealous, 3 more weeks before school starts here, except that means summer is over too, I might keep the pool open an extra week, I'll do aerobics if the water is no too cold, it should be ok if I leave the cover on.

Judy sounds like you had a nice time, and I agree, love is love is love...and nothing can change that. Suzie - glad you had a great time well, off to shower, going to bring dd to her boyfriends house have to pick her up about 5 and then going to a concert in the park, my former boss is playing there and when I can i try to get out to see him. distractions.....

good morning everyone another day for me, raining again. Hope you all have a good day

Laura That is really nice, I'm sure you will think of something, what does she like to do? a gift cert, take her out ? I had a very bad kev day, but as much as it hurts, we are going to have a huge fight if he has the balls to answer me and I'm filing the court papers that I should have done months ago and was putting off because I wasn't ready to deal. I am ready now. This is from his vanishing last week, and I can't take the compulsive lies anymore. I/we deserve so much more and I don't want to be alone the rest of my life. It hurts really bad but right now I can't cry anymore, I am so angry. I am going to take a sleeping pill tonight because I don't want to be up all night thinking, I need to rest, plus, when he decides to get into it with me in the middle of the night, i want to ignore it. thanks for letting me rant. I guess you are cheering that after all the time i have known you guys I am finally at this point. not going to be easy but happening

I voted Laura - he is so stinkin cute

Terry - glad things sound like they are moving forward and things are looking up Tracy - go you with your great attitude. I am mentally there but I need to stop drinking. We had a week long birthday celebration for my friend and I didn't lose or gain an ounce. I'm dry again today and am not going out again for a while. My kids don't go back to school until 9/10! but when they do I am back at the Y too, right after they get on the bus 3 days a week and I'm walking outside until i possibly can't walk anymore, hope to make it until Thanksgiving. 19 stupid lbs and I hit the goal I set 2 years ago, I can do it, We can do it! allergies are a mess today and I feel like I'm going to throw up, just enough post nasal stuff that is is making my stomach turn. Hope you all have a good day, I'm going to clean and have a lazy day, going to watch the Hanna Montana movie with the girls tonight

Morning gals Kat, you said what I was thinking yesterday. Not that I know what end is up, you all have helped me so much just to stay strong, and I'm sorry you are all dealing with stuff. Well, looks like Bill is heading in my direction, rain for days. How am I going to exercise?

Hi gals just a check in, so much going on with all our violets. Terry - Not the same situation at all, but I know how you feel, that is pretty much where I was last year when i was not around much, so heart sick I was making myself ill and didn't want to get up most days.

Laura I am so sorry

Morning gals Just want to send you all big hugs, sounds like everyone is in a place, and not necessarily a good one. I am heading out for my walk, back to reality this am

Morning gals I'm up getting ready for a meeting, I'm so glad to be back in touch with my work force. I'm going to take my 30 hr and I think I am going to get my tax id now and start getting in touch with my resources and get working for myself like I wanted to. Jane - HORRIBLE, I couldn't stand up or sit straight in the car, after about 2 hrs the pain started but was very gassy after an hour. Gas ex helped a lot, I now have a box in the car which will never leave the car. Mine was in my stomach but was moving a little. Going to be another Hot one here today ... you all know I love that. Hope to be done working by noon and in the pool

Hey guys I am home Kat - first Happy Belated Birthday, glad you had a nice day, and Thank You! I had a nice trip, very nice and so very relaxed. Didn't win a cent but did go to the beach and walked and walked and walked. Got myself a beautiful new bracelet, I have been searching for the perfect one for 2 years and I GOT IT and I didn't care and got it for me. Of course the kids got junk too, but we all had a great time and DS loved the ocean. dd has been going from the time she was 8 months old, so she missed it the last 2 years. A short trip but very nice. After hours, days, weeks and even months of serious soul searching I am doing everything for me, I do love him but It is all about me. it has to be. I have a plan for where I want to be in life when I'm 40 and the clock is ticking. I am on my weight mission for me this time, not for him, and I want my children to be good too and i'm happy and that i making all of us happy. Anyway, glad everyone is well. I am off, have to get up early and go meet the owner of the construction company at 8 so hav to get upand shower and look presentalbe. I did eat very well while we were gone but very bloated. Does anyone else have a problem driving for a long time? every road trip to AC this month, there and back both times I had horrible horrible gas pains to the point I couldn't even stand up, have taken stock in gas x. But once i'm up walking they are gone and didn't come back until my return trip. Horrible! Ok that is that, just had to ask. HI EVERYONE, missed you all

Night gals heading out at 5am, i'm exhausted, car is packed and I am ready to go. Pamela, that sucks! have a good few days Pray for me girls, I'm really having a hard time with the Kev thing, he just vanished off the face of the earth on Wed am and I'm doing all I have to deal with it as it is. I don't understand it, and It really hurts very badly. What a f'n coward is my main thought, but then there are all the why am I so horrible thoughts. anyway, I'm just trying so hard to be strong

Have fun Tracy I'm getting things together here and then I'm heading away until Tuesday.

Have fun Haydee and thanks, I have not talked to him in a few days, and it hurts, and maybe what I need, It just makes things so final and I'm sad, I do and will always love him. Another thing is the court stuff, he should be giving me much more than I get and dd needs braces which he agreed to help with but he has not been very good on the follow through so I don't trust him, so I have to do it, I've been putting it off and I can't anymore. Just not something I enjoy doing. Hope you all have a good weekend, I have a ton to do to pack and well, we finally have summer too and I spent 4 hrs in the pool and sun today and well.... going to do the exact same thing tomorrow then Sunday we head out at 5am. I need a good distraction. Hugs to everyone...

Morning gals Glad to see you terry. Love you I am having a hard time with thoughts of Kev this week, feel like i'm going to be alone and worthless forever, but it will pass, I hope. I know I deserve so much more. I think hard week because I requested family court papers and they came yesterday and I know I need to fill them out. Just going to be a nightmare. Hope you all have a good day, we finally have summer here, 85 today! YIPEE

Haydee - I'll send you a box of stuff within the next week. So glad to find a good home for them. Well, back from my walk, it is humid out there

Morning Everyone getting ready for my walk, just wanted to say hi! And if anyone can wear those clothes please shout! I would rather pass on than dump in the green box

Hi guys well, I have been working hard and i'm in a size 14, almost comfortably and my new jr size 15 shorts are too big that i just got 3 weeks ago (if anyone wants them) I also have a bunch of size 14 jeans that I can part with, my friend gave them to me and they are 14P, and I need regular and my favorite jeans are long and the work great with my boots, not that I am tall. Anyway, if anyone is interested LMK. Anyway, I lost my sheet with my last year measurements but YUCK, I wanted to shoot myself... I was disgusted, I know my arms are 2" smaller and my waist is maybe 3" smaller, but my legs ... they grew! and my hips, I don't remember what they were but I don't like that number at all, and they all work aroung my saggy belly. OH if that isn't enough to work even harder to see results I don't know what is. Anyway, enough of that, maybe on 9/9 when I do this again I'll see some results from all my hard work. Terry - wish I could be there just to give you a hug Tracyk - HI! Well I would leave my ds with you because you are a good mom, and her daughter is happy and she can put that in her pipe and smoke it! LOL I'm in rare form, I have a big event on 9/10 and I really want to look good, going to see people from the construction company and I want to look good, plus I want to look good for me so I can someday make someone else happy, but that is never going to happen unless I am happy. Still not always good with Kev and still an emotional roller coaster but I Know what I want and deserve out of life and this might be the first time I realize that.

Tracy How wonderful and that must have been a kick ass garage sale. I am just so happy for you and wish you the best with your new life.