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I want to get that certification too, my daughter started it! She is going to be 13 in July and she is not old enough, or maybe she is and it was a money issue... i don't remember right now, but it was kind of expensive $275 for each of us - so no job and $500...hmmmmmmmmmm that is a no brainer They offer the certification at my local YMCA. She also wants to get her lifeguard certification... man she is expensive... but i still love her...

Hi everyone still job searching, no weight loss, but so busy I don't know how I am functioning. I am alone at the moment so I am going to jump in the pool and bake in the sun - yea i know, not good for me, but makes me happy and helps me relas. Talk to you all later

Michelle so glad you are doing so well. Take it from me... rest, I thought I could move and most of my pain was port and muscles too. I kept pillows on either side of me so if I rolled over the pillow helped to support me and helped to hold things in place. I was was cutting my happy pills in 1/2 and that was enough for me - I couldn't function on a full one, but take the time and do what you need to. I am so proud of you... wish I could give you a great big hug!

Nice to see everyone is doing so well. I had my first real issue today from 1 slice of turkey... OMG couldn't breathe and felt like I was having a heart attack. It was horrile and it seemed to continue all day, I'm afraid to eat. Other that that, we had a great time at six flags yesterday, I floated in the lazy river for 2hrs, but it was great, I was 50lbs heavier last year when I did that and yesterday it was easier to get on the float and I didn't feel like a complete beached whale! What a great feeling. HUGS ALL MICHELLE I AM THINKING ABOUT YOU, CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR HOW WELL YOU DID!

Denise I am feeling the same way, I'm eating 3 meals a day but for the most part I am not hungry then all of the sudden.........BAM.........I could eat a house... ok maybe not that much but that 1 cup of food seems like a lot after not being able to eat. I have an appt on the 12th. I am bouncing between 231 & 233 and it is frustrating. Pms is kicking in which is not going to help, I am so bloated... blah blah blah Anyway MICHELLE. I've been thinking about you all weekend... you are almost here with us. Be strong - today is not going to be easy but I am sure you can make it HUGS

TracyTX I hear you, I wanted to be 225 by the end of May, doesn't look like that is going to happen. I did just weigh myself for the first time in days, I was down to 230.5 at 1:30 in the afternoon, so i hope in the am I will be 229. I am going to six flags for the day tomorrow, it is my stepmoms company picnic. So I am looking forward to going on waterslides and being able to play and not just watch. May not go on as many rides as I would have in the past, but more that I did last July when I was 280!!!! so excited

That is great, and of course it counts! I have my ticker set on surgery day weight, but when I get bummed that I have not lost anything in 3 weeks, i just remind myself that I lost 48lbs in total since January and that is 1/2 way to my ideal goal weight. Ok I want to be less than 175 but would be soooooooooooooo very happy with that, so I am keeping that as my goal. I hope to get a fill on June 12. I have good days and bad days. As for chinese, I wanted some this week too, so instead of general tso's which is my fav. I got chicken & broc w/black bean sauce and it was good, light and filling. I was so happy with that Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great holiday weekend! my mom is here from AZ so we have been running for days, but so nice to have her here. Have not seen her since the week before surgery and she is amazed at how great I look

Tracy you are funny. I have to tell you I have 1/2 cup of no sugar added Eddy's coffee ice cream every night. I HATE milk, let alone skim milk and they have the same nutritional values. So 90 cals enjoying every bite OR 90 cals gagging while I sip my milk.

hey everyone still jobless here. LOL ok not so funny but anyway, so nice outside here doing lots of yard work, and got the pool completely open today, so excited. Anyway, I found this great thing at our supermarket, I am so picky but found this great green giant vege thing, you know the ones in the box with sauces. I found broc, red pep, peas in a chinese sauce. 50cals per serving, 2 servings per box. they have a little kick but very good , quick and easy. I hope everyone is having a great night

Morning all I am having the same constipation issues, and started eating veggies this week, so I don't know, i think I'm going to get some Fiber at the store today. Ms Jen I am pretty sure I have been having the same problem. I have had burning where my tubbing is, almost burns at times, and the other day i pressed on it while trying to rub the pain away and it suddenly went away. I don't know what I did but feel so much better.

hi all just checking in quickly, I did something bad today, I ate way too much and was not full, I hope it is PMS that is causing my cravings the ability to eat or else I'm here, in bandster hell. I am really sad about this because i had no problem eating for the first time. I have an appt on the 12th, pray for a fill!

Ok so maybe I'm overdoing it, but I not doing as much as I would like to. I hope to be working somewhere very soon and need to get stuff done. Lets hope that degree helps with the job search!

Michelle glad you are feeling better... see 10lbs!!!!! it will get easier after surgery and you will be on this side with your sister violets! hugs

Pamela That does not sound like too much, crackers.... yum.......I only wish. I think yesterday we got on the same page but before that she was not so pleasant. Seriously, If I wanted diet pills why didn't they offer them to me before surgery? It took me a year to do this because I wanted to change my life! now that she gets that it is all good. Kat that is absolutely beautiful. and your luau sounds like it is going to be so much fun.. 50 years! wow - I can't even do 1! Thanks for the Violet power for the job search, my degree is here, I missed the Fedex guy yesterday so i'll have it today no matter what! I have been using a scale for years, since I did LA Weightloss. I still use it but it is amazing how I can make a 3oz burger almost perfectly on the first shot. So does anyone still have pain where their port is healing? Yesterday I did way too much yard work I think because last night I could not even move it burned so badly. Ok so maybe i should not be taking down fences and building a retaining wall, but if i don't do it no one will.

Hi all so today I went back to my nutritionist. Being hungry more frequent but not able to eat alot and no real direction was why I went back so soon, and since my last appt she focused on my sleep apenea I don't have I thought we would start over. It was rough going in, she immediately started in on me, not asking what I was doing different or in my life to figure out why i'm hungry more frequently, she immediately was going to give me meridia and told me to get over it, nothing she could do, I probably had stretched my stomach to the mad prior to surgery and it takes time for the muscles to shrink. before i tell you more.... here is what I thought..... first, it is funny how before surgery I was only eating 1 real meal a day and protein shakes 2x's a day and was fine, and how until this week, I was fine eating 3oz of protein a day and that was it. suddenly almost 2 months later I stretched my stomach out... doesn't make sense to me. Next thought which I did say outloud was....I started going back to the gym last week and that was when I started getting hungry. She almost instantly changed her tune with me, she said that was probably why I was feeling hungry more often, and she could give me meridia or we worked out that I should have one of my 300 calorie 28g protein shakes once a day to help with that. She also said that she does not want me getting any more calories than i'm getting with that shake, which is 1100-1200. Once she realized what I was getting at and not looking for an easy way out, we discussed what I am eating and how I am there for help an guidance and if I knew the answers I would not be here. Once we were on the same page, right before I left, she told me she was very proud of the way I was trying to handle these issues and that I was doing a fantastic job, (I lost 3 lbs since my last visit which averages out to 1lb a week) little does she know I lost them right after I left her office not to loose an ounce since. Just so you all know, here is what I eat 99% of the time 2scrambled eggs w/salsa for breakfast 3oz chicken or turkey burger w/ 1 slice 2% cheese lunch 3oz chicken or turkey burger w/1 sl cheese dinner (usually lunch leftovers) sm light yogurt for snack (she wasn't happy with this) 1 serving cottage cheese for snack she said good choice for snacks but should not be having, now replaced with protein drinks as of today. So, I hope that info is helpful, it was for me, so I wanted to share my visit.

Terry You had me in tears too! you are so amazing to put that together. Michelle I was going to remind you (since you have been with us so long) to remember and re-read some of the post from mid-end March when we were all mental. You are just about where we were. Those results 93% yes 7%no. It is all what you put into it, as my Dr. told me. My dr. has a rep as a hard ass and will cancel if you gain weight, I confronted him and he told me he can tell when people are not going to be dedicated and gain from bad things. YOU girlfriend... YOU are proving to yourself you can do it, and if it worked on its own, you wouldn't be here. Stick with us... we will give you all the love and support that you deserve! A violet you are and a violet you will stay... so 1 week and 1 day. Enjoy the holiday weekend, do stuff for you this next week. And we will continue to help and support you during your "bandster hell" LOL and get you here with us.

Morning everyone what a crazy weekend. I am getting ready to go talk to nutritionist. I am the same weight I was 2 weeks ago so lets see what she says about that. I just changed to her at the end of March and I don't quite know how I feel about her. either way, I need food help, and that is what she is there for. She has a dietician but for some reason I never get to see her, it is kind of frustrating. Oh well. My degree should be here today or tomorrow, actually I think I will track the Fedex package in a few, so I can update my resume 'officially" and start really pounding the pavement for a job. I hope that helps. Anyway, I'll keep you all posted. Have a great day

Judy my thoughts are with you and DH. I am sure you have and will do a great job to show him the way! Keep us posted! hugs

Hi everyone Michelle, you are doing fantastic. I don't know how strong I really am, but what can you do. A ball with the blankets over my head is not an option. I don't know what I'm going to do, just going to somehow make it happen. Everyone is doing so great. I am going to my nutritionist tomorrow and hopefully will get some real info i can use. Dad took us to TGI Fridays for lunch after church, I had 1/2 turkey burger with provo cheese, no bread and some creamed spinach. It was great and I can finish my burger later. Terry? As for water, I only had 6 full glasses yesterday and worked in the shop and today have already almost met my quota, but I am swollen, I can see it in my feet. I this is going to be something that I guess I"m going to have an issue with after working in the hot shop on my feet on the weekends.

Morning everyone. Here goes another day, deep breath. I am very bloated and gained 3lbs this am, I think it was the shrimp I ate yesterday - something new but I feel like I'm full of water. Anyway, i'm going to get ready for church. I am not going next weekend - we have a six flags trip planned. I'll be back later, hope everyone has a great morning

you do look fantastic. I wish i looked that great!

Hi everyone, been so busy, I have been helping my step mom out at her pizza shop. She did a huge favor for me when i needed help so I am helping her out as she had an employee just vanish. Well you all know I've just been in a horrible place, can't find a job, finishing school, so now no child support in over a month, $1100 owed, so you know what I have to do monday, and now i went to transfer my unemployment money and I found out that I did not get paid this week. So $1500 owed and another bunch tomorrow. I am leaving things up to the universe but still busting my butt to make changes happen, b ut it just seems to be one thing on top of another. On a happy note, we went to applebees for lunch today, before I knew I didn't have any money - and I ordered the WW shrimp - no steak, no rice and extra broccoli. I ate 5 shrimp and a few bites of broc and had the same for dinner. I started late, that was actually breakfast and lunch and for dinner at the pizza shop i cooked 1 chicken tender with 1 slice of provo cheese. Did I lose? who knows but i'm proud of myself. I am finding I am hungry much more frequently, get to see my nutritionist Monday and Fill appt (I hope) on the 12th. Anyway, that is my life. A mess. but maybe some day i'll be thin while disfunctional. night all

Haydee it is a hard situation, mine is reversed, I loved having my freedom while still having him in my life, this year, I realized I want more and we were working on it then.... he was in a horrible motorcycle accident, which put things back to before, he has short term memory loss, so it is difficult for him to function at times - and of course I am the most understanding person in the world, but time to more forward. I hope he decides to come along for the ride. He has been with me thick and thin.. literally (sp) and he knows how i am thin... sometimes nuts and out of control - i do love him but the time will get here when I'm strong enough to take my stand. I wish you the best of luck and I know it is not easy, but whatever the universe has planned for you (and me) will be what it is. Learn from it if you move on and don't start anything new the same way. That is me going forward, not ready to give up the past but know what needs to be in the future hugs i hope you have a good safe flight

Terry dbf and I have been trying, but the thing is we are not in the same place, as we never seem to be for 17 years, now he can't commit and for the first time ever, I want to settle down, my wild roots are starting to want to be planted in the ground. He won't commit, and won't let me go. I don't want a relationship with the friend, or anything at all, but a friend and guild consumes me to even be friends with someone, but since my true friends have bailed on me because "I am not acting like myself" I need to get out there and meet new people, it is not good for me to sit in the house by myself al the time, it is depressing me. I just don't know what to do... 36 is my breaking point, I want more out of life, I want dbf to commit to being with me and maybe... just maybe after all this time move in and be a real part of our lives. So only I can change things, good, bad or indifferent, but it is the year for change, for a healthier, smaller me! wow, that all felt good to say, acknowledgement is the first step to recovery! off to the gym to try to tone some of this fat!

Good morning everyone! I hope everyone had a good night. I actually made it to they gym yesterday for the first time, and as I did the min sets I was set up for by my trainer prior to surgery, I am thinking I am going to reduce my weights until I get strong again from surgery. I was there for 30 minutes and it felt wonderful! I don't know what my problem was last night, but I was very tired and cranky. Still have a couple homework assignments to do today and my house is a mess - yard it a mess - and the pool is still not open, I've been doing that for 2 weeks now. I don't think there is enough time in the day for me. By Monday I will be done with school to the point where I can relax, but in the mean time, i just need to do one thing at a time. So everyone talking about food, pizza, blah blah blah... I am getting hungry more frequently but still not able to eat large amounts. So first of all, I made an appt with my nutritionist for Monday morning. I changed right before surgery so my 1st appt was going over my history and the 2nd was obsessing about the fact that I need a sleep study, too late for surgery and I sleep fine when I do sleep. I was very sick when I filled out my paperwork over a year ago and was not sleeping great and tired all the time, sick... lack of sleep, major infection.. duhhhhhhhhhhhhh. So I am going to discuss what she is there for, to help me make the right choices to eat, since she was not impressed with my pre-band diet either! The second thing, you are all going to laugh, but since I can't find a job, I am working part time for my step mom.... in her PIZZA shop... yes... me working for 6--8 hrs making pizza, pasta, salads, subs... you name it and have not put a single thing in my mouth! That to me is amzaing - as I would have in the past. It is amazing to pay attention to everyone there too, slicing fresh meat for subs, someone always grabs a slice. One night I forgot my dinner, yes i've been bringing my own, and had a small homemade meatball, some ricotta & part skim mozz cheese and sauce. very small portion but it really didn't do much for me. I was so happy. I have a friend that has been wanting to take me out, still love dbf and that really doesn't help me move on in my life, and friend knows where my heart is, so I might take the movie offer up tonight knowing it is only friends - (we have been friends for about 2 years now) so I think i'm safe. Anyway, that is where I am today - I am going to have coffee with one of my bff then go to the gym and come home to work away until 2 when I have to get my 3 year old and go to work. I'm tired just saying all that. have a great day all!!!