Suziecat

Good Rainy Morning to you all. Jenn, I bet that was a good concert. I have several of his songs on my MP3 that I use in my walking. I also have a few Sugarland songs on also. Glad you had a great time. Tracy, That's a lot to handle right at Christmas. But hopefully you guys will be able to figure out how to do it. In the long run it's what needs to be done. You know I will keeping you guys in my prayers. Just keep your chin up and your mouth shut, to food I mean. Remember in the stress times t take a walk and not shove the food in. NO ice cream either. Michelle. I started bleeding huge clots. I know, TMI. So after the 3rd time I finally went to the Doc. After haing a DNC to do a biopsy, I had the very beginning stage of cancer. Thank God I didn't wait any longer. They took me in immediately for surgery and removed everything. I have nothing left, they didn't want to have to do another surgery. Of course at the weight I was at the time, I can't blame them. They wanted to make sure that I didn't have a recurrence and I was in my late 30's anyways. No kids for me. I tell everyone that the surgery was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. No monthly, no clean ups, no miss haps, no mess. I love it. They did have to put me on Premarin for about 4 months afterwards, my hormones or lack of them was all out of wack and I became a blubbering idiot. At the drop of a hat I was crying for no reason. All better now. Like I said, at that weight I can't blame the Doc. I still cringe at the thought that there were people that had to lift me and turn me. I hate knowing that. I also had to give thought to if I ever fell or became sick, that there was paramedics that were going to have to risk their health just to help me. The more I thought about situations like this the more I gave thought to having the Band done. Best desicion I have ever made, besides marrying my hubby. I still am at a risk of hurting someone if they had to help, but I ma still working on that. Hopefully within the next 2 years I will be at a very reasonable weight for me. A very healthy weight. Jane, are you rowing that boat yet? It's been raining all night and most of the morning here. Off to go get my housework done and than get ready for work. I'll chat at ya later.

Home from our hospital shift, it was a really slow night. That's good but makes it a little long for us. Tracy, so glad you got good news, now I keep my fingers crossed that you can do the finacial part of it. You guys are due for a break. Michelle, how scary about the wreck. We live about a mile fro the HS and all of them come right by this way. Every now and than we hear the fire trucks coming down and the road and just know that there's been a fender bender. I worry about them but also remember what it was like when I was that age, fearless. I hope Jenn is having a good time at the concert tonight.

Irene said, "I need to stop being a fraud and do the right thing." I keep telling myself this everyday. What is wrong with us? Thank You for posting. I thought I was the only one with these feelings. I LOVE to exercise. I mean "LOVE" to do it. I would walk from here to New York and back if my feet would let me. I get such a rush from it and have days were I crave it real bad. I don't know if that is weird or not but I also use it as my therapy session. Now, on the other hand, I LOVE to be lazy also. I have days were I can just be in my chair all day long. NOt to often because that walking feeling will bug me and I have to get up and go. I got off work this morning and found out that the brand new Target opened up yesterday. I loved it. There were only about 10 people in the whole store. I'm telling you, it would have been perfect if I had kids and needed to do X-mas shopping. They had everything you could imagine WII's, Guitar Hero and all kinds of stuff. I walked the whole store. It was fun, not running into people and having to dodge stuff. I loved it.

Morning Girls. I went ahead and got on my scale this morning and I'm down 4 pounds. OMG. That felt wonderful. I'll still wait till my Doc appointment on the 26th. to post but my scale is very close to his. I'm so excited. Cari, once you get out of the habit of exercising it is so hard to get back going. You just need to dig down deep and find that desire and gumption. You'll get it. Very cool here this morning, 39 degrees. I love it. My favorite weather to walk in. I'll check in soon.

Jenn, awesome pictures. Thank you for posting them. You need to start looking at new pics of you, you will find out that you aren't fat. Kelly, Thanks for the name info. What a nice story. I'm home from work and soaking my foot and watching DWTS. I did a lot of cleaning tonight at work. In the morning I'll finish it up when I mop the floors. The women crack up and always ask me to come to their houses. I tell them I don't even clean that much at my house. lol. Big dicussion at work about the H1N1 vaccine and most are not going to get it or get it for their children. See ya in the morning.

Irene, I was in Sac. a long time ago. I was in HS at the time and we were on a school trip. I lived in the San Fernando Valley for about 16 years. I don't remember the name of the restaurant but we had a good time and enjoyed it. I'm sure a lot of things have changed since I have been there. Cindy, the only time I ever saw a flash in my car was followed by a big boom. That's weird. Wonder what it could have been. Sitting here eating my salad and than I will start to get myself ready to go to work. It's a Winnie the Pooh kind of day here and I sure would love to stay home. Oh well, some one has to bring the bacon home. See ya all tonight.

I'm a high risk person and I don't plan on getting the H1N1 vaccine. I did however get the flu shot and that was only because it was free and I happen to be there when they were giving it out. I haven't had one in over 5 years and I got sick with that one. So far so good with this one. And I also work at the Hospital just a few feet outside of the OR, and I'm still not going to get the vaccine.

Jane stuck in a inner tube, that's a picture I would like to see. I agree with Kat, Jane that is one reason I like to meet you in Columbia. I absolutely enjoy your personality, your insight on things, your outlook, your caring and the way your face lights up when talking about the people that mean the most to you. Your laughter is precious and contagious. That's how I define you. My younger sister's best friend is 5'4 and my sister is 6'2. Just like us, we don't let outer appearance stop us from being friends. It's what inside that counts, and I am the richest person in the world because I have you in it. Thanks for being my friend.

Tracy, you wanna go with me to meet Jane Oct. 25th?

Cindy, so glad to hear from you and to know you are getting a little better. I know what you are talking about with the drowning thing. When I had pnuemonia years ago, I experienced the same thing. Freaky feeling. Sitting here watching DWTS when hubby came out and started bugging me about soaking my foot. So I went and filled the plastic tub and had him carry it into the computer room so I could sit and watch football with him. Needless to say I bugged the crap out of him while he was watching his show. LOL. I mean LOL,LOL,LOL. Jane, I'm gonna start working on not living my life by what I weigh. It is so hard to do though, everywhere you look there are reminders. Looking in a mirror or in a cupboard, watching TV or just watching kids play. It's all a reminder that I don't belong in this world. Somehow I'm going to have to change that and make this world fit for me. I'll work on it. Hope all of you have a wonderful day.

Home for a little while. I have to take my sis to a Doc appointment this evening. 5:50, wow. Anyway. I went to take a shower this morning and took the band aid off my toe. There was dried blood everywhere. So after the shower I called the Doc's office and the nurse said he didn't want to see me, that I would have to go see the Podiatrist. The one who did my surgery a few years ago. So I called there and the nurse told me that he wouldn't want to see me unless there was an infection. I told her there wasn't and that I was keeping it really clean, using peroxide and neosporin. She said not to use the peroxide anymore. That I was to get Betadine at the store and use that instead. Put a few drops in a pan of water and soak my foot for awhile. So I told her that the toe on my other foot was doing the same thing but that the nail was still on but it had the fungus under it. She said that I needed to come in and have the nail removed. Oh no, ouch. She said they would deaden it first. Like that makes me feel better. So next monday I have a date with the Podiatrist to have that taken care of and to have my feet looked at. She goes, "You know you haven't been in since 05". Ummm, didn't know I had to see him on a regular basis. She said yes I was and that he was to cut my nails. I told her I hate the way he does it. I had even told him that one time. He's awful, like taking a chainsaw to my toes. LOL. I really like this Doc. He has such a good sense of humor, just not good at pedicures. Do you want me to post pics?????? Of the toe I mean. Kat, I so miss my MIL. She was such a sweet lady. I do understand what you are saying, about them getting older and a little more difficult. Poor things. You're right to always try to remember them like they used to be. They can't help what is happening to their minds. Tracy, The more I hear from you the more sadder I get. I just wish there was something I could do to make it all go away. What a mess. I will just keep sending you well wishes and keep you in my prayers. Sacramento. Last time I was there, Jerry Brown was the Gov. He was such a cutie. I think he was dating Linda Ronstadt at the time. I wish I knew the name of the restaurant we went to. It was a hoot, we had a good time. I'll check in later this evening after I get done sis.

Look at me, not at work this morning. One of the other ladies wanted to trade with me. So I will be working Friday morning instead. But I'm up anyways, hubby wants me to go to the gym with him. My day off and I have to go workout. I still have to go into work though. The lady wanted to know if I would come in around 11am and close the store for her. So I actually work 1 1/2 hours. lol. My sister has a Doc appointment this evening. She wanted me to take her, so I will be missing my bible study class. She wants me to go because she always forgets to ask the Doc things and knows I will remember. Someone yesterday told me that my weight doesn't define who I am. ????? I know they are right, but that is who I am. This is what I have been all my life. Having been overweight since childhood, I know no other way. It's amazing how no matter where I go I always manage to get people to talk about dieting. Even when I have no clue as to who they are. People sitting at the next table. People standing in line chatting with their friend. How do I get away from it. How do I not let weight and dieting define my life when it is such a huge part of my life? Busy day today, so I will check in when I can. Michelle, is your husband headed to the fires in the San Gabriel Mntns? They have been showing it on the new here. I will keep all of them in my prayers. Jenn, have a good walk. Kat, I had the sweetest MIL anyone could ever have, it's hard for me to understand that anyone could have problems with their MIL. But it sounds like you are one of those people. You'd think that after all the years that you and Rick have been married that his family would be more accepting and caring towards you. I cna't imagine anyone not totalling falling in love with you. I have and I have never met you in person. Speaking of meeting someone, Janie and I will be meeting each other Oct. 25th. I just love doing that with her. I absolutely adore her and think she is one of the sweetest persons I have met in a long time. Sure wish you where going to be there also. Everyone have a great day.

Very quiet here. I'm finishing up on some recordings and than I'm headed to bed. A good place for me to be. Away from food. I had such a good day yesterday and than just about blew it today. I'm up to about 2000 calories now. Yikes. Not gonna make the challenge if I have another day like today. Hope everyone had a great weekend. It was wonderful here. I have a real busy week this week. Sister has several Doctor's appointments and I start my extra shifts this week. See ya all in the morning.

JANE?????? Where are you??????

Hey Ladies. Cari, so glad you checked in. We miss ya when we don't see ya for a while. I got up and got some housework and laundry done and than headed to church. Well, they were giving out Flu shots afterwards, so I got mine. No let's hope I don't get sick from it. The last one I got about 5 years ago, I did get sick. Let's hope this one is ok. Such a beautifl day here. Trying to decide if I want to take doggie for a walk or not. I need to give my knee a rest. I'll check in later and let you know if I did or not.

Back from our party, good thing there wasn't a whole lot of food. I stayed with the popcorn (my favorite) and away from everything else. Now it's pj time, chair and blanket and the DVR. Tracy, the toe never hurt. It's just scary not knowing what caused it. I have neosporin and a bandaid on it and will keep it that way for awhile. If I notice any change the Doc will be getting a call.

Tracy, like you don't have enough stress in your life. What with the kid and now the ex bringing this problem on. If you get the house back, can you live there for a litle while and than sell it and move to another place? Kids are adaptable. I was giving myself a pedicure this morning and one of my toenails came off. I had had an infection in that toe a long time ago, looks like it took this long for it to catch up with the nail. You can see the new growth coming in. I hate that it happened. I'm so leary of my toes and feet. I've already had to many surgeries on them. We are off to a Baseball Party. One of the pitchers on our team is up for the Cy Young award and today is his last game of the season. Peanuts and Popcorn, oh my.

Morning, drinking my hot choclate and getting ready to head to the grocery store. So glad I don't have to work today. I didn't weigh yesterday because I haven't taken a water pill in about 4 days. I'll take one after I get home from shopping. I hate fighting water gain. It drives me crazy. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Laura, How terrible that you get treated that way. But hopefully they now understand your good heart. I bet hubby appreciates you. Hubby and I have a baseball party to go to tomorrow. Greinke is pitching his last game of the year and we are going over to watch. So you know that means lots of food. Holy Cow. Sunday I should stay home and relax but I think the neighbor and I are going to the local craft fair at the Farmstead. Depends on how cool it gets.

The pool stuff is put away and we got out the Halloween stuff. Most of it is put up. I had to quit so I can get some lunch and head to work. I'll finish the rest when I get home. I'll be back later.

Great, like we need one more thing against us. Now they are saying that kids that were given candy as kids are more likely to commit crimes in their adulthood. Well, I do have to confess that I ate a grape without paying for it one time. Please don't turn me in. I promise to never do it again.

Morning Girls. I'm up early so it looks like I will be headed to the gym with the hubby. Ad I have to work later today. Oh boy. I woke up in a pretty good frame of mind. Looks like I might be getting myself in this. It will make it easier to keep track of my food count if I am in this mentally. I have thought several times about making a Doc appointment to get something like Wellbutrin or Celexa. I'll wait a little while more and see how I do. Temps are turning here. We will only be in the 60's today and real cold at night. Supposed to be very windy also here. That's when my poor bones can really feel it. I don't have all that insulation to help keep me warm. That's why I usually wear about 3 t-shirts at a time. Where's Janie???? Jane, I haven't really had a cahnce to look at the calendar to let you know when I can meet you. I'm not sure about doing it right before Thanksgiving or right after. What do you think. Of course weather will play a part in this, but I would also like to see the mall all decorated. Maybe the weekend before Thanksgiving? I'll look at the calendar when I get into work tonight. Hope all is well with you and the parents. Everyone have a great day.

Home from work and my meeting and I'm glad. I'm gonna just relax the rest of the evening and keep my feet up. I'll have a long day tomorrow. Busy finishing putting things away for the winter. See ya in the morning.

Hubby and I just got home from a busy morning. We went to breakfast with all the cousins and than we headed to the WW1 Memorial downtown. I had been there before with the kids from church but hubby had never seen it since they redid it. It's amazing and highly recommended. A must see when coming to this part of the country. I'm all in for the challenge. Already started. Here it is day one and 8hrs into it and I'm still alive. It hasn't killed me yet. I'm leaving for work here in a few, than I have a meeting at 7pm to go to. So it will be late before I check in again. Have a good one.

It's October and time to get back on track. A new month and a new start. Raining here this morning and just a little on the cool side. Perfect Fall morning. Me and my hot chocolate sitting here listening to rain hit the pool cover. Today is our Family breakfast, so hubby and I will head out soon. Right after I take the nephew to work. Last night at the hospital we were swamped. I stood the whole time doing sterilization for the OR. I really like to do that. It's fun but hot work. Had to run down to the Birthing center several times but I never got to see any babies. In ICU there was this girl sitting on the side of the bed and she had to have been somewhere around 600-650 pounds. I wanted so bad to go in and talk to her. Poor thing. Jenn, good news about Kev. It's about time he got around to doing that. AS soon as I can get my nephew out of here, I'll have another bedroom opened up and you can have it. We aren't really south but we are south of you. lol. How do you feel about being a "Mid-Westerner"? Have a good day and Good Luck on the October Challenge.